😭💔

I’ll continue to stay faithful, but the NFCCG was ass. As soon as Purdy went down, we had no chance. I’m numb at this point. We get so close, but still so far.

I’m currently on vacation and I should be enjoying myself, but nah. Other things are on my mind. I try to be kind and to do my best with everything by putting others before myself and somehow I’m called a narcissist. Far from it! 😒🙄

Anyway, I’ll really miss football. Bring on, basketball and baseball!

I’ve got school and work to focus on in a few days. Back to reality shortly. Going to milk the last few days in Hawaii.

Good night.

b

⚾️🥵

Baseball is my escape. Bummed that the season is winding down, but it is what it is. Looking forward to football! 7 more days. Niners!!!

Went to the Giants game with my friends. We won!!! Couldn’t stay in our seats though. Too hot!

It was Alaska voucher day. I’m trying to figure out where to go and when. I’m leaning towards Hawaii. I miss the islands! Haven’t been since 2004. Would love to return. I’ll be very respectful to the land.

There’s a lot on my plate, but taking it day by day. We’re still fundraising for Beari’s chemo and it’s been really slow. I’m grateful for any amount people are able to donate. We gotta get creative, but I’m not sure how.

I’m super sleepy. I took a nap earlier, but it didn’t really help.

It’s warming up in the SF Bay Area. Thankfully SF will be decent compared to inland temps. I cannot! Please stay cool and hydrated. 🌊 We’re a few weeks away from the fall! I’ll miss the summer, but I’m ready for everything pumpkin. 😋🎃

Wishing you all a great week! Take care.

b

Self care.

I was able to decompress these last few days! I’m reenergized for the rest of the week. I’ll most likely be working during the holiday and I actually don’t mind. I’m all caught up with my shows.

Caught up with our great friend, Walter for lunch today. It was nice to talk and update each other with our lives. We got to window shop too. I bought myself some new books, a Marge baggu that I’ve been eyeing, a purple pen, and an eraser. Reasonable purchases. I’m starting to save up again which is important!!! I’m looking into getting a second job. Sign of the times. 🙃 We’ll see how that goes.

Hoping to sleep soon. I’m snacking though! Chips, salami, and some fruit. 🙂

Giants are failing me. Womp. I miss basketball and football!!!

Wishing you all a great holiday weekend! Take care.

Good night.

b

DST is here!

I’m adjusting to the time change. I think I’ll be fine after a week. Feeling a little anxious right now, so I’m having trouble sleeping.

I hope it’ll be a great week for everyone!! There’s a lot going on in the sports world, so I’ve got my eyes on Twitter 24/7. Mainly my teams: Giants, Niners, and Warriors. Hoping the Giants sign a big bat. I think this is the week we say farewell to Jimmy G. I really wish we won with him at QB. 😭 Dray, Klay, and Steph will be playing together again! It hasn’t happened since 2019. 😱 Time flies!!! My goodness.

Work will keep me busy for sure. Need to go on a shopping trip this week. I love food! I’m also exercising again. Walked yesterday and I’ll most likely do my resistance bands a few times a week. Woo! Holding myself accountable.

Covid. I’m still masking everywhere I go. I feel safer that way and I hope people will respect that. I also have chronic conditions and an immunocompromised family member. Back up! 😷 So many questions to ask my medical team. Travel is on there. If not this year, I’m hoping 2023 will be the year I’m back on a plane. I miss it!! ✈️

Still playing a lot of Animal Crossing New Leaf. 😊 Hoping turnip prices are better this week. Last week was atrocious.

Well, I’ll try to sleep soon. Wishing you all an amazing week! ❤️

Bye.

b

Faithful.

I will ride with my team win or lose. There is no in between or switching teams. I AM LOYAL. It’ll be us one day. It really will. Until then, Go Niners! ❤️ #FTTB

Btw my favorite part was the Pepsi Halftime Show. 🔥🔥🔥🔥

Good night.

b

Happy February!

I’ll be blogging daily for the month. February holds a special place in my heart. Bday month! Yay 💜

I’m in a somber mood. One, the Jimmy G era is about to close in SF. I really wanted us/him to get #6 for us and it wasn’t in the cards. 😭💔 I know he’s handsome, but he’s such a classy dude. This year was heavy and he carried himself with grace. 3-5 to the NFC Championship Game! Incredible. I wish him all the best wherever he goes. I’ll be rooting for him always. Thanks for everything, Jimmy! You’ll be missed.

Two, our uncle is very sick. I’m trying to hold it together, but I’ve cried a few times. It’s difficult being separated from each other during this time. The pandemic robbed us of time to be together. I pray for his comfort and peace. I’m so grateful that we’ve been able to share memories together since 2012. That was a life changing year and it’s still felt to this day.

There are other things going on with me and I’m honestly taking it a day at a time. I haven’t been super motivated and I feel a bit hopeless at times with the job search. I yearn to go back a few years when I was really happy and on top of the world! Thankfully, I get to chat with my therapist next week so I hope it’s a good session.

I’m eating comfort food, but also trying to establish an exercise routine that’ll work for me. We finally made Filipino breakfast: rice, eggs, tomatoes, spam, and longanisa. 😋 This is why I gotta work out. Lol.

I look forward to the rest of this month! It’s only day 1. I’m going to make the most of it. 💗

I’m hoping to sleep soon. It’s been hard to fall and stay asleep. My thoughts have been racing.

Good night.

b

😭😩💔

Another heartbreaking loss. The Niners get so close, yet so far. It was an incredible season nonetheless! 3-5 to the NFC Championship Game. What a ride!

Jimmy might’ve played his last game in a Niners uniform. 🥺 There’s a lot of question marks going into the offseason. I wrote him a letter back in December. I really hope he finds the time to respond, but if not – I tried! Didn’t get to attend a game this season because of Covid. It’s not safe for me to be out there. Ahh!

I’m also emo due to a lot of personal things going on in my life. I hope I see the light at the end of the tunnel. This pandemic has been a lot. February is fast approaching and I look forward to celebrating our bday! It really is the small things. I’m trying to stay positive, but it’s been tough.

I’ll always love the 49ers! Born and bred in SF. So much history!!! Thank you for the memories. Here’s to next year. Go Bengals! 🧡

Good night.

b

Some thoughts.

22 days into 2022 and I’m still feeling a bit blah. Year 3 of this pandemic and it’s exhausting! Shout out to all the healthcare workers. Thank you for all that you do.

Applying to remote jobs has been a drag. Staying hopeful, but lacking motivation. I’m so close to completing my certification for my TEFL, but I’ve put that on hold for now. I have until the summer, yet I’d like to complete it before my birthday next month.

This year is a fresh start! I’m excited for what maybe in store. I’m also emo since we haven’t been able to see family due to Omicron. I think it’s subsiding in the Bay Area. Great news! I’m yearning to travel, but that’s still on hold. I’m doing my best to take care of myself holistically. It’s tough, but baby steps.

I took a nap so I’m awake. It’s officially game day. Niners vs. Packers @ Lambeau Field! I’m nervous excited. Not sure if I’ll get much sleep tbh. 🙃 GO NINERS!!!! #FTTB

Wishing you all a great weekend! Stay safe and be well.

Good night.

b

Annoyed and anxious.

There’s been a lot going on mentally for me. I need to take a step back and recollect myself. I didn’t get the job I applied for. A rejection always serves as a stepping stone for whatever else I may encounter. It’s discouraging, but I believe there’s a silver lining. There’s bound to be something out there for me, right?!

Part of me wants to give up, but the other part is telling me to keep going. So I’ll keep going. It’s the holiday season and I’m trying to have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year with my family.

On top of that – I need to keep myself healthy! I’m overwhelmed. Job hunting always does this to me.

Fantasy Football didn’t help me today. I was doing well and now I’m losing. 😭 It’s part of the game, but still. Don’t even get me started with the Niners. 🤬😤

I just need a good night’s sleep and to press reset. I was on the verge of tears earlier. Sighhh.

Wishing you all a great week! Take care. Good night. 💜

b