Annoyed and anxious.

There’s been a lot going on mentally for me. I need to take a step back and recollect myself. I didn’t get the job I applied for. A rejection always serves as a stepping stone for whatever else I may encounter. It’s discouraging, but I believe there’s a silver lining. There’s bound to be something out there for me, right?!

Part of me wants to give up, but the other part is telling me to keep going. So I’ll keep going. It’s the holiday season and I’m trying to have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year with my family.

On top of that – I need to keep myself healthy! I’m overwhelmed. Job hunting always does this to me.

Fantasy Football didn’t help me today. I was doing well and now I’m losing. 😭 It’s part of the game, but still. Don’t even get me started with the Niners. 🤬😤

I just need a good night’s sleep and to press reset. I was on the verge of tears earlier. Sighhh.

Wishing you all a great week! Take care. Good night. 💜

b

Day 430.

It’s a new week, but I’ve been in my head a lot. I haven’t been able to snap out of my funk. I didn’t study at all this weekend. I’ve done a lot of thinking and I still don’t know what to do. Turn the page and start anew or stay another year? Sighhh.

I’ve been sleeping a lot. Avoidant behavior!!! This is how I coped in college too. It’s not healthy. I was so unproductive. And I’m thinking about this photo project now too. I gotta finish this module for class and start the next one. Must stay consistent!!

Giants won so that made me happy!! 🖤🧡🖤🧡 Dubs did too. 💙💛💙💛

I cut up a pineapple. It went alright. It was my first time doing it.

I washed some dishes and we ordered in for Mom and Dad’s anniversary. 💞

I’m ready to sleep. I’m tired. I’m looking forward to my brow wax tomorrow. Yay!!! It’s been too long.

Alright, I’m calling it a night. Btw, I played a lot of Animal Crossing. I have all my rooms, but my home loan is steep this time around! Just keep paying it off, little by little.

Good night and have a great week!!!

b

Day 416.

Happy Sunday!! Where did the weekend go? 🤧 I’m ready for the new week. Let’s do this!!

  • I got to sleep in again. Yay!!!
  • I had a very filling lunch. Lots of leftovers.
  • Animal Crossing update: I visited Ninten island! I used their dream address. It’s so nice! I was able to explore and look around. It’s top tier! I need to fix my island. 😂 I got my turnips, but I time traveled. Woo!
  • I got to study for an hour. Planning to get another lesson in before I sleep. It’ll be a busy morning for me all week. Gotta prioritize my sleep!! I got to nap which was nice.
  • There’s a lot to take care of tonight. I need to tidy up my desk space. And put my Sanrio things away. 🥰
  • Giants win in SD. Go Giants!!! 🖤🧡
  • We’re watching the news right now.
  • I think I need chocolate to keep me going tonight.

Hope your Sundays went well. Take care!!

Good night.

b

Day 413.

Happy Thursday!! It’s almost the weekend. I can’t wait!

  • I got a decent night’s sleep! It was great.
  • Work went well. It was really chill.
  • It was quite busy afterwards. We did some grocery shopping. But first I had a meeting to attend. Looking forward to the extra work, but like I said yesterday – May is going to be super busy for me!!
  • I got to catch the rest of the NFL Draft. We got Trey Lance! So very exciting. Go Niners! ❤️
  • Always thankful for groceries. I was able to get fruits and the necessities.
  • Animal Crossing update: I sold some turnips. I got to visit my sister’s island. It was a nice day on my island! I’ve got a bunch to fix. I’ll try to get it done this weekend.
  • I’ve got my CPR training class tomorrow. I’m hoping it’ll go well. Not sure who will be in attendance. Anxiety.
  • We got to watch Jeopardy! and Wheel of Fortune. We also saw Name That Tune.
  • I’m pretty tired. Hoping to sleep soon.
  • Thinking of my cousin today. It’s been three years since her passing. You are missed, Marian. RIP 🤍

Hope everyone had a great day. Take care!

Good night.

b

Day 397.

Happy Tuesday! It was a busy one for me.

  • I tried my best to sleep early. It was tough.
  • Woke up at a decent time. I was able to wash dishes before getting ready for work.
  • I’m trying to watch what I eat. I shed almost 2 pounds!! ❤️
  • Work went well. But it’s just different. 😢 Transitional.
  • I had a really good dinner. Soba noodles, dumplings, and ramen. Asian food rules!!! 🥰
  • Hoping to help with groceries soon.
  • Animal Crossing update: I’m trying to get another villager photo. I’m gifting Goldie a lot of items. All is well on Mango! I might play a bit before bed.
  • Giants win!!!!! 🖤🧡🖤🧡
  • I’m hoping the rest of my week goes well. No photo taken today. 😞

Take care!

Good night.

b

Day 395.

Happy Sunday! It’s a new week. My spring break is officially over. It was restful. I’ll miss being able to sleep in. Back to work! 🙂

  • I was able to help my family secure vaccine appointments. 🧡 It was difficult to fall asleep, so I turned my insomnia into productivity.
  • I eventually fell asleep. I wanted to visit our Lola, but we’ll see her later this week. I ended up sleeping in for another hour or so.
  • I had my brunch and played some Animal Crossing. Really bummed that cherry blossom season is over. 😞🌸
  • I went for a walk with my sister to buy some things for our pasta dinner. It was a good shopping trip! I wish we would’ve bought ice cream. Next time. I also bought my coworker a going away present. Tomorrow is his last day. 😢
  • I really like pancetta! So good.
  • Just thinking of Dad. I hope he’ll be okay. Praying he feels better. 💗
  • I need a good night’s sleep.
  • Highlight of the day: catching up with our Lola on the phone. 🥰

Wishing you all a wonderful week. Take care!

Good night.

b

Day 379.

TGIF! It was a long week, but I made it!

I’m so sleep deprived today. Target let me down. 😭💔 I placed an order for the Sanrio x ACNH Amiibo cards only for it to be canceled. It was a hot mess. I hope there’s a restock, but at this point it’s up in the air.

  • After that fiasco, I was able to nap before work. I’m feeling quite fatigued now, so I’m hoping to sleep early. Currently watching 101 Dalmatians with the sisters. ❤️
  • My aunt and I met a really cute dog named Fiona at a stoplight. She’s 9! So adorable. She’s my photo of the day.
  • Animal Crossing update: Usual business on Mango. I’ve got a vacant plot so I might look for a new villager before bed tonight. The zen bridge is slowly being paid off.
  • I’ve been thinking of extended family all week. 💕
  • My precious bag was delivered today! I can’t wait to unbox it later.
  • I plan to study most of the weekend. 📒
  • 2nd vaccine is on Sunday. Anxious, but looking forward to it.
  • I got to catch up with my good friend, Chris via text. I hope he can secure a vaccine appointment!!
  • I just want to be productive this weekend. That’s my goal.

Hope y’all had a nice one. Take care and enjoy the weekend!

Good night.

b

Day 377.

My day went alright, but I’m dealing with a lot of feelings and emotions. The current events are taking a toll on me. I’m trying to breathe and take it a day at a time.

My question for myself right now is: What’s next? I’m approaching the next steps with my potential career. I’m a bit frustrated. 😣😫 Do I go back to school? What to do?!

  • Animal Crossing update: all is well on Mango. I’m hoping to revamp stuff this weekend. But I gotta earn my play time! Still hoping I can secure the Sanrio cards. PLSSS.
  • It’s our Tito’s 40 days since his passing. RIP Tito Timmy. 🤍 It was nice to see family and friends.
  • Thinking of securing another Telfar bag. But which color? I’ll figure that out next week.
  • I’m pretty tired tonight. Not sure if I have the energy to study. I might just do it tomorrow morning.
  • I just feel really crappy tonight. I need a shower and a good night’s sleep. I’m dealing with terrible anxiety. 😭
  • Lastly, it was nice to see our Lola’s rehab progress. I hope to visit her again this upcoming weekend. 💕

I hope y’all had a nice one. Take care!

Good night.

b

Day 355.

Happy Tuesday! 🙂 It’s been a very interesting day. Praying for those dealing with sadness, anger, and betrayal. 🤍

  • My sleep study is going well! Just getting used to having two watches on. 🙃
  • Our uncle was laid to rest. RIP Tito Timmy.
  • I was a bit anxious when I woke up because of my vaccine. The day is finally here!!
  • It was an early one for me. Tuesdays are great.
  • We went to Trader Joe’s for a quick shopping trip. Then it was time to head over to the vaccination site.
  • Vaccine time! I was in line by 6pm. It took a while to get to a vaccine room. It was quick and easy once I was assigned a room. We had to wait 15 minutes before we could leave in case we had any adverse side effects.
  • I’m doing alright for now. I just feel tired and sleepy. I can tell that my arm will be pretty sore tomorrow! Hoping I can schedule my second dose easily. Ahh! It was stressful enough trying to get my first dose.
  • Animal Crossing update: I’m buying more Mario items! It’s capped at 5 items a day, so I’ll get more things tomorrow.
  • I’m hoping things turn out okay for everyone. This pandemic has taken a toll on folx. Sending love to everyone!! It’s much needed.
  • Lastly, Happy Birthday to my cousin, Ben! He’s 18 today. I don’t believe it. Time flies!! 🥳🎂🎉

Hope y’all had a nice one. Take care!

Good night.

b

Day 348.

Happy Tuesday! It’s been an emo type of day – at least the end of it. People just running their mouths today. 😒

  • I had an early morning – a spleen ultrasound, took care of my labs, and ordered my meds.
  • Treated myself to Starbucks – tall decaf vanilla latte, birthday cake pop, and a slice of red velvet loaf cake. I was called Vern. People can’t hear me when I wear my mask. 😂
  • I got home and then I ate my lunch fairly quickly and got ready for work.
  • It was a short day for me. Grateful!
  • Trying to find an appointment for the Covid vaccine. Everything is booked at the moment! I hope I find a slot in March. Fingers crossed.
  • Had another Popeye’s chicken sandwich. No one wanted it so I took it.
  • Watched some of Teen Witch and now watching Adventures in Babysitting.
  • Animal Crossing update: Helped the twin out with her inventory. My island is doing okay. I’m trying to figure out what else I need. A quaint spot would be nice. Flowers are still driving me mad!!
  • It’s been a heavy day. Memorial services were held for our uncle. Unfortunately, I’m unable to attend because of Covid. RIP Tito Timmy. 🤍

I’m pretty spent. I need a nice shower, read my book, and sleep. Take care!!

Good night.

b