We were anticipating the day, but I didn’t think it’d be so soon. We got the call early this morning that you passed. 💔
You were an incredible woman! You did so much for us. Thank you isn’t enough.
Rest well. Dakal a salamat. Until we meet again. 🤍
I love you forever and always.
b
I guess that sums up my week! I miss being on vacay. 🥺 I’m playing catch up, but I’m almost caught up. Countdown to my 36th Birthday! OMGGG. Where did the time go?!!!
Missing Beari a lot. My grief comes in waves. I think I dreamt of her yesterday, but I can’t fully remember. She’ll always be with me/us. This adjustment period is rough. We can’t just take in another dog. We’re gonna wait this one out since we have so much to do. I’ll be patient. I’ve got sights to see the world! I know she’d want that for us. Miss you so much, girl. ❤️🐻❤️
I’m off today, so I can finally sleep in a bit. But I’ve got errands to run later. I hope I’m productive!! Planning to just take it easy.
Well, I might watch another show or movie. Something to keep my mind off of things.
I miss football. Like a lot! 😩
Good night.
b
I can remember a relative passing away when I was 12. It was my first real glimpse with death. I can also recall our first pet’s passing. It was a cold and rainy day in January. She was too young. 😭
It’s normal. As you age, the people around you get older and pass on. I lost three grandparents in the 2010s. As a young adult, the loss was palpable. I was sad, angry, and in disbelief. I’ve come to terms with it a decade later, but the void never leaves me. The same can be said about family pets.
Losing Beari has suffocated me at times. I didn’t want to let go, but euthanasia was the best for her. I’m still so angry because cancer took her away from us. I just picked up her chew toys in my room. I miss her so much. Her scent lingers at home. The silence is deafening. I miss her barks. I miss her companionship. I miss everything! 🥺 This is an adjustment period. It’d be nice to take in another dog, but I’m not ready. We’re not ready.
Her birthday is almost here. We’d like to have a special meal for her and maybe some cupcakes to celebrate her life. Change comes with the territory. I’m doing my best to adapt. Owning a pet is one of the greatest feelings in the world! But saying goodbye is the hardest part.
I love you, Beari. ❤️🐻❤️
b
So many great memories were made this year, but losing our dear Beari in November was heartbreaking. I’ll miss her always! ❤️🐻❤️
I hope to do and be better in 2023! It’s the year of the rabbit. Yes!!! I’d like to travel more, excel academically, and continue growing in all areas of my life. I hope to take more risks because why not?! 😎
Wishing all of you a wonderful 2023! 🥂🎆
b
I’m honestly just sad and tired. It’s been two weeks since Beari passed away. Still adjusting without her. I hate it. 🥺
And I’m currently stressing over stupid stuff. I hope it’s nothing. Ahh!
Anyway, time to sleep. Last class of the semester! I did it. 🙏
Good night.
b
Beari passed peacefully at 4:53pm. We miss her already. The house is too quiet. 😭💔
My eyes are swollen as I process my grief. I wish we had more time.
I love you.
b
This week has been a lot to process. 😭💔
I grew up during Columbine. I can recall having an open dialogue with classmates and teachers about it. That was 1999. It’s 2022 and gun laws haven’t changed. America is a dangerous place! Don’t come at me about fear mongering. I don’t want to hear it. There are too many guns and not enough laws. “What are we doing?” NOT ENOUGH. #GunControlNow
I remember fire and earthquake drills. Never had to deal with active shooter drills. I’m scared for this generation, but also hopeful. I believe that there is still so much good in the world!
My heart breaks for Uvalde, TX. I pray for the families and friends who lost a loved one. It could’ve been prevented. And reading the reports is a gut punch. I just don’t understand. It’s one shooting after another. I can’t. These events make me angry and helpless. I know I can vote, but I think it’s time for me to reach out to senators!!! Action >
Sports has been a nice escape, but even leagues are sounding off and asking for change!!! We need to do better. It’s now or never.
RIP angels. You’ll be missed. 🤍
Good night.
b
Hello! It’s been a few weeks and I come with an update.
I’ve attended a few events: Buster Posey Day at the yard, my first concert since 2019, and celebrated Mother’s Day with the fam. I also just signed papers to be a barista/cashier again! I hope it goes well.🤞
I had my interview for the mochi film I decided to help with and l was a mess. I probably should’ve prepared more beforehand and I was nervous! But Kristine was very patient with me. I hope I didn’t embarrass myself. 😬 I overthink a lot. Wahhh!
I need to finish my cert for my TEFL. I’ve put it off for so long. I’m almost there! I need to complete it before the end of June. I’m a little stressed since I start training for my new gig next week. Also nervous for that.
I saw Paul McCartney on Sunday! It was amazing. I’ve seen both living Beatles. George was my favorite. RIP to him and John. Truly missed! 🤍
Getting sleepy. My nap threw me off. And omg the Philippine election. Don’t even get me started! It’s upsetting to me as a Filipino American. I want real leadership to steer the country in the right direction. I want progress! I wasn’t born there, but I’m still very connected to the birthplace of my parents and ancestors. LABAN 🇵🇭💗
There’s a lot to do and I’m feeling overwhelmed sometimes. Taking it a day at a time! Wishing you all well. Until next time.
b 💜
Hello! It’s been a while. Just wanted to type up an update. 🙂 I hope everyone is doing well! The NBA playoffs have started, baseball is back (Go Giants! 🖤🧡), and spring is here!!! ☀️ Love it.
I attended the NCCBF! 🌸 Both weekends. First weekend was to visit our cousin and his partner. She’s running her own small biz! Good times. The second weekend we lined up early for teriburgers! Delicious. Wish we bought more. 😋 Also got to buy Japanese snacks, mochi, and some other goodies. Japantown is one of my fave spots in the city!
A few days ago – we returned to Davis. It was for Dr. Fujimoto’s memorial. So many beautiful stories and memories were shared. I miss college! I was inspired again just being back. I want to do more!!! Aggies 🐴💙💛 We bought all of our favorite food, caught up with familiar faces, and took some nice pics on campus. We bought some new UCD swag to wear and rep. We missed Picnic Day by 2 days! I ended up buying this year’s tee.
I’m in the middle of job hunting again. I’d like to have a summer job if I can find one. Looking for a stable position that also works with my own schedule + energy levels. Being a lupus patient can be a lot, but it’s important to listen to your body! Rest is essential. In my case, I always nap. 💜 Lupus Awareness Month is coming up. I love sharing facts and information!!
I’m playing a lot of Pocket Camp! It’s fun. Too many Animal Crossing games to choose from.
Lots of books on my reading list! I also have tv shows and movies I’ve been meaning to watch. Balance is so important right now! I’m also trying to exercise more. Time management. 😮💨
Wishing you all a great week! 💗
Good night.
b
It’s been three years since your passing. I miss chatting with you! We’re living in some strange times at the moment. Continue to watch over all of us.
Still spreading Lupus Awareness and sharing your story everywhere I go! Miss you so much, my dear.
Please visit me in my dreams. 🦋
Good night.
b
let me think. 