Day 208.

Happy Tuesday! 💕

It was a day for me. I didn’t sleep very well because I was dealing with anxiety. I always get pretty anxious for my doctor’s appointments. This one was a bit different since it’s the dermatologist! I rarely go.

Fast forward to 9:45am. We were running a bit late, but I got there in time. Thankful that my aunt can provide me with rides. Anyway, I arrive and there are a few people ahead of me. Once I check in, the receptionist leads me to the back room. This is where the magic happens!

I’ve dealt with skin tags for the last few years. Both were removed today! Huzzah!!! I hope my insurance processes it because 1. They were painful and 2. absolutely necessary for my own well-being since one of them was close to my left eye. I’m wearing a bandage there right now. I’m unable to get it wet for the next 24 hours. I must clean and dry it for the next 2-3 weeks! The doctors were really nice too. Thanks for your help.

Once I got home, I took a very long nap. The lidocaine wore off and I could feel the sting. I didn’t get up until 5ish in the afternoon.

I ate my lunch and then I tuned in online for the livestream of my uncle’s services. His passing was untimely. Makes me sad. Given that we’re still in the middle of the pandemic, I’m unable to attend his funeral. I’ve been praying for him. RIP Tito Rino. 🤍

Had In-N-Out for dinner. Decided to wash the dishes too since I wasn’t super productive today. I plan on studying tomorrow and finally get to my laundry.

I’m still dealing with my emotions and feelings. It’s a rough patch. Ugh! But I’ll make it. I’m strong!! 💜

Lastly, my Animal Crossing update. Must look for a new villager. Al has left my island. More Halloween decor is going up this week! Yeah!!

Take care, everyone!

Good night.

b

Day 207.

Happy Monday!

Today is always a heavy day. 2011 was such a sad year. I still grieve. I wish I had more time with our Lola. I can’t believe it’s been 9 years since her passing. We miss you and we love you. ❤️

My time off is winding down. I need to get back to routine! And I’ll be driving this time around. I’ve gotta practice and always remain confident. I know I can!!!!

Animal Crossing update: Al is finally moving out! He’s been on my island since April. Happy trails to him! I’m excited to see which new villager will be moving in. I got more DIY recipes for Halloween. All my pumpkins have grown! Ready to decorate some more for Halloween. 👻

I’ve got my dermatology appointment tomorrow. I hope something can be done about my skin tags. Freeze them and then snip it off please!! I’m so self-conscious. 🥴

Watched the ALDS. Rooting for Oakland. They’re the only Bay Area reps left. Boo Houston! 😒 And I’m cheering hard for SD!!

I’m hoping to sleep soon. I was supposed to do my laundry, but I can save it for tomorrow. It’s getting colder in the city. I miss the summer!

Hope y’all had a nice one. Take care!

Good night.

b

Day 170.

I feel like I’m hitting a wall with something. Or maybe I’m just reading into it too much? Hmm. Either way I just gotta keep going – even with all of the distractions. Music is helping me focus!

Happy Saturday! Still processing the sad news of Chadwick Boseman’s passing. What a beautiful soul! He’ll be missed. RIP King. 🖤

I slept a lot today. I was feeling tired since I didn’t fall asleep right away. Hoping to be more productive tomorrow with cleaning and organizing. Maybe even do a load of laundry. I did help with changing the toilet seat! Score. 😎 Very useful skill to have. Check it out on YouTube.

I just finished the 600 day squat challenge with my arena strength booty bands. Difficult, but not impossible. Might do it every week! 💪🏼 YOU. CAN.

Giants win in AZ! Hurrah!! Losing streak is done. 🖤🧡

I just played my uke. It always sounds so beautiful and peaceful. Much needed after this heavy week.

Animal Crossing update: still trying to get the right villager to move out and it hasn’t happened. I’m going to try again since there’s a visitor at the campsite. Lol. Last fireworks show tomorrow! Let me see if I can find a Black Panther design. Would love to honor CB in that way.

That was my Saturday. Mellow, but somewhat productive. The days just go by quickly. Hope y’all had a nice one. Take care!

Good night.

b

RIP Sarah. 💜

I’ve been processing so much in the last 24 hours. I’m so sad. Today was a heavy day for me, but I went about with my routine. I thought of you throughout the day.

Ultimately, I just want to say thank you. When I transferred to UC Davis, it took a lot of adjustment with upper division classes, making friends, socializing, and getting used to Davis itself. When Kengar connected us, I was grateful. I didn’t feel so isolated and I had someone to lean on about everything. Thank you for reaching out. I still remember chatting on FB Messenger and sharing our stories with each other.

I’ll remember the Lupus walks we participated in together. It was empowering to be in that shared space. Your advocacy was inspiring. The picture above was the last walk we did together before you went off to SD and then Hawaii. Social media kept us connected. Even from afar, you were a cheerleader!

You’ve impacted my life in so many ways. I’ll miss your presence, your smile, and especially your laugh. Thank you again for your friendship. You’ll truly be missed. Rest well, beautiful warrior. I love you. 💜💜💜💜💜 #LupusWarriors

Bernadette

RIP Coco.

Coco (2001-2018) passed away peacefully on Monday, November 19, 2018.

It’s been somber at home. But we all know she’s in a better place. We just miss her presence. She was the sweetest dog ever. It really won’t be the same without her especially with the holiday season approaching.

Run free, girl. I hope you’re enjoying all the food and treats. Until we meet again, darling.

I love you.

b