It’s all too much.

This week has been a lot to process. 😭💔

I grew up during Columbine. I can recall having an open dialogue with classmates and teachers about it. That was 1999. It’s 2022 and gun laws haven’t changed. America is a dangerous place! Don’t come at me about fear mongering. I don’t want to hear it. There are too many guns and not enough laws. “What are we doing?” NOT ENOUGH. #GunControlNow

I remember fire and earthquake drills. Never had to deal with active shooter drills. I’m scared for this generation, but also hopeful. I believe that there is still so much good in the world!

My heart breaks for Uvalde, TX. I pray for the families and friends who lost a loved one. It could’ve been prevented. And reading the reports is a gut punch. I just don’t understand. It’s one shooting after another. I can’t. These events make me angry and helpless. I know I can vote, but I think it’s time for me to reach out to senators!!! Action >

Sports has been a nice escape, but even leagues are sounding off and asking for change!!! We need to do better. It’s now or never.

RIP angels. You’ll be missed. 🤍

Good night.

b

Update.

Hello! It’s been a few weeks and I come with an update.

I’ve attended a few events: Buster Posey Day at the yard, my first concert since 2019, and celebrated Mother’s Day with the fam. I also just signed papers to be a barista/cashier again! I hope it goes well.🤞

I had my interview for the mochi film I decided to help with and l was a mess. I probably should’ve prepared more beforehand and I was nervous! But Kristine was very patient with me. I hope I didn’t embarrass myself. 😬 I overthink a lot. Wahhh!

I need to finish my cert for my TEFL. I’ve put it off for so long. I’m almost there! I need to complete it before the end of June. I’m a little stressed since I start training for my new gig next week. Also nervous for that.

I saw Paul McCartney on Sunday! It was amazing. I’ve seen both living Beatles. George was my favorite. RIP to him and John. Truly missed! 🤍

Getting sleepy. My nap threw me off. And omg the Philippine election. Don’t even get me started! It’s upsetting to me as a Filipino American. I want real leadership to steer the country in the right direction. I want progress! I wasn’t born there, but I’m still very connected to the birthplace of my parents and ancestors. LABAN 🇵🇭💗

There’s a lot to do and I’m feeling overwhelmed sometimes. Taking it a day at a time! Wishing you all well. Until next time.

b 💜

A busy 🐝!

Hello! It’s been a while. Just wanted to type up an update. 🙂 I hope everyone is doing well! The NBA playoffs have started, baseball is back (Go Giants! 🖤🧡), and spring is here!!! ☀️ Love it.

I attended the NCCBF! 🌸 Both weekends. First weekend was to visit our cousin and his partner. She’s running her own small biz! Good times. The second weekend we lined up early for teriburgers! Delicious. Wish we bought more. 😋 Also got to buy Japanese snacks, mochi, and some other goodies. Japantown is one of my fave spots in the city!

A few days ago – we returned to Davis. It was for Dr. Fujimoto’s memorial. So many beautiful stories and memories were shared. I miss college! I was inspired again just being back. I want to do more!!! Aggies 🐴💙💛 We bought all of our favorite food, caught up with familiar faces, and took some nice pics on campus. We bought some new UCD swag to wear and rep. We missed Picnic Day by 2 days! I ended up buying this year’s tee.

I’m in the middle of job hunting again. I’d like to have a summer job if I can find one. Looking for a stable position that also works with my own schedule + energy levels. Being a lupus patient can be a lot, but it’s important to listen to your body! Rest is essential. In my case, I always nap. 💜 Lupus Awareness Month is coming up. I love sharing facts and information!!

I’m playing a lot of Pocket Camp! It’s fun. Too many Animal Crossing games to choose from.

Lots of books on my reading list! I also have tv shows and movies I’ve been meaning to watch. Balance is so important right now! I’m also trying to exercise more. Time management. 😮‍💨

Wishing you all a great week! 💗

Good night.

b

Berkeley.

Quick stop in Berkeley on Friday. We’re rarely in the area! Made the most of our time. The food makes everything worthwhile. 🥰

Third culture bakery is a fave! Got our usual order of mochi doughnuts and muffins. I also ordered a matcha latte with regular milk and honey. SO GOOD. 😋 For lunch, we went to #POKI. I had the cooked salmon over rice. Loved it! Would get it again.

Also got to see our bestie later that day. Always great to hear from her!! 💗

I can’t believe it’s already Sunday! I’m still processing the last two weeks. Trying to improve my life in so many ways. A death reminds me of my own mortality, but to also cherish my time here on earth. We miss our uncle! 🤍

I’ve played a lot of Animal Crossing New Leaf. It’s actually my fave right now compared to New Horizons. Wild! I played everyday in 2020. I haven’t played much as of late.

Well, hoping to ko soon. I’m sleepy. But I also want to watch a movie. Maybe Tall Girl 2?!

Good night.

b

35.

Farewell to 34, hello to 35! Time flies. It was a beautiful day well spent with family and amazing food. We’re still working on leftovers. It was a joyous time celebrating our new year. 💜

Part of me is sad because I’m grieving the passing of our paternal uncle. I really wish we could be with the rest of our family in Canada. Maybe we can visit next year? His first day of visitation was yesterday. Today will be emotional. Holding my dear family close to my heart. We sent over a floral arrangement and it’s beautiful.

I can still hear his voice in my head. Very soft-spoken, but kind. My proudest moments were speaking Kapampángan with him. He’s the only one out of the siblings who was born in Pampanga. I think that’s awesome!!! I hope to see it one day. 🇵🇭

I’m just reminiscing. I’ll have more to say come Friday. I hope I can get through the day later. It’s been heavy since last week. Praying for my uncle’s beautiful soul. 🤍

Good night.

b

20 years.

Photo credit: Getty Images

I was a 14 year old freshman in high school ready to take a math test and then everything was canceled. TVs were on in every classroom. The horrific images of that day. Everyone was sent home. 💔

I still feel sadness and anger. RIP to all the beautiful souls. Thinking of their families and loved ones. You are loved, missed, and remembered. 🤍

I’ve been doing a lot of reflecting today. My good deed of the day was donating to a fundraiser for a dear friend. 💜

I’m going to call it a night. I’m very tired.

Good night.

b