For Lolo.

I feel compelled to write before bed. Yes, I’m tired and not feeling the greatest, but I came across his program tonight. Brought back many memories, happy & sad. โค๏ธ

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I am Bernadette Bonifacio, the granddaughter of the great Hermogenes V. Datu.

I’ll always remember tuning into Jeopardy to watch with you, even if it was for a few days out of the week.

I’ll remember you turning the page as you read the daily newspaper.

I’ll remember your daily walks with Lola around the neighborhood. It was stop and go anytime you saw a baby or toddler with their family.

I’ll remember your consumption of Hershey’s Kisses after a meal. Passing a few over to us just because.

I’ll remember attempting to teach you how to operate a cellphone. You really tried. It made me laugh.

I’ll remember how you wanted to look at every picture from Dad’s camera making sure you had the perfect smile. ๐Ÿ˜Šโค๏ธ

I’ll remember the music and how you always loved to dance. Please save me a waltz!

I’ll remember your stories as you grew up in the Philippines.

Lastly, I’ll always remember your laughter, your kindness, your strength, and your bravery to move to a country and start anew.

Thank you for everything, Lolo. I love you.

b

Iโ€™m scared.

I’m dealing with a bunch of question marks right now in regards to my health. I’m scared. Going back to my specialist. I haven’t seen them in almost 2 years.

Anxiety. It’s real.

All I can do right now is breathe and just think positive thoughts. I can’t jump to conclusions.

I’ve been meaning to post my previous blog, but I haven’t gotten around to doing it. I was in the middle of it. I’m lacking inspiration. I mentioned this a few weeks or maybe months ago.

This year has been hard. Social media is only a highlight reel. I like to dive right in when I’m blogging. My fears are real. My fears are valid. But I’m going to face them head on. There’s no running.

I need to sleep and recollect myself.

Good night.

b

Stressed.

I hate that feeling. I hope I find this lost item. It’s crucial. And the person who could possibly know is out of town.

So I think I just need sleep and start again later. Sighhh.

How about those Giants?! Won’t say anything else. Log onto social media and read all about it. ๐Ÿ™‚

Good night and enjoy the weekend!

b

Lacking inspiration.

Hiiii!

I’m better! Thank you, antibiotics. On another note, I’m dealing with some pain. It’s been lingering since I came down with a terrible cold back in May. I’m a little worried, but I must be brave. ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿผ

It’s summer vacay and I’ve been off the grid. I’m catching up on sleep and TV. Movies too! I’m hoping to find my inspiration again with photography. I think I discussed this in my previous posts. I can’t even remember! ๐Ÿ˜ฌ This year has been trying. It feels like too much. It’s isolating. These feelings aren’t new. It’s chronic. I speak to my therapist every few weeks. I think my body is still in shock. It’s lonely. It’s scary. But I remain hopeful. Always.

That’s my short update. Baseball is keeping me afloat and spending time with doggies.

Here’s to a lovely weekend! โค๏ธ

b

The results are in.

I’ve had food poisoning these last few days! It sucks. Almost at 100%. I’m ready for antibiotics. I miss real food. Legit!

I think it might’ve been the airplane food. What a trip! ๐Ÿ˜ฌ๐Ÿ˜ซ๐Ÿ˜‚ What a week since returning home.

NBA free agency is keeping me busy + Giants baseball + the Women’s World Cup.

RIP Tyler Skaggs. โค๏ธ

Back to recovery. Hope you’re all having a great week!

b

Thank you, London and Paris! โค๏ธ

Hello!

I’m back from my Euro Trip. I’m not feeling the greatest right now. It could be due to the time change and being on the plane for so long. I’m planning to recover this week. I just took a Tylenol. I’ve been awake since 7am.

I had so much fun! I’ll write a much more thorough post in the next couple of days or so. But for now, here’s an image of the Eiffel Tower.

Happy Monday to all!

b

Weโ€™re trailing.

It hurts, but it’s not over.

When my brother and I were at Scotiabank Arena for Game 2, it was hard to cheer. We were surrounded and people gave us an earful for clapping. Absolutely obnoxious. ๐Ÿ˜’๐Ÿ‘Ž๐Ÿผ

I’ll continue to cheer for the Dubs, win or lose. It’s good with the highs and bad with the lows. I’ll always stand by them. I would do the same for the Giants and Niners. I don’t give up on my teams. EVER.

So much to do this weekend, but a day at a time. It’ll all get done. Summer vacation is close. I can’t believe it!

Well, it’s time for bed. Must recover from my sleep debt.

Happy weekend to all!

b

DUBSSSSS!!!!

Life’s been pretty hectic. I’m disappointed in myself for not keeping up with either of my photo projects. I’ll make up for it soon. โ˜บ๏ธ

Recovery mode from this cold was brutal. Good news is I’m all better!

I’m currently on a plane headed to Atlanta. After that, Toronto!!!! My brother and I decided at the last minute to see the Dubs. Can’t believe we’re doing this. I’m so excited and anxious! It’s gonna be a fun experience. I know it.

Happy weekend to all!

GO DUBS!!!!! ๐Ÿ’™๐Ÿ’›

b

Iโ€™m sick.

I’ve fallen behind on my P365. I feel terrible. Currently dealing with a cold. Thankfully, I don’t have a fever. Must’ve caught it from work or something. Maybe public transit too?

I picked up some extra hours for work today. Then I went straight home. It was pouring this afternoon. It’s like it’s winter all over again in the city. Rain, please go away!

I slept for 6 hours straight. Just had some soup and a bit of rice, meat, and veggies. I’ve been drinking water and orange juice.

Netflix has been my entertainment. I’ve quarantined myself in my room. Don’t want to expose the family to my germs.

Warriors and Giants won. Woo! That’s my Saturday. Hope everyone had a great day!

Good night.

b

Reminiscing.

now playing: Sleep All Day – Jason Mraz

I haven’t listened to his old stuff in a while. Jason Mraz was a big part of my teenage years and into my twenties. His music was my comforter.

There’s been a lot of self reflection this week. I’ve found myself on the verge of tears sometimes. The feeling of loss is something. There’s a lot of sadness, but it puts everything into perspective. I’m doing my best to live well! I may lack sleep sometimes, but despite feeling tired I still keep going.

I tried to get back into “dating”, but I’m pretty much dating myself. What I mean by that is simply this. Well, my sister made this connection. My chronic conditions are my relationship. Ups and downs! Pretty much what a relationship entails. Didn’t ever see it that way. I’m not sure if anyone will ever come along for the ride, but I’m okay with that. I’m content knowing that I’m taking care of myself. And hey, if someone comes along, that’s fine. Just keep up with me. I’m unstoppable. ๐Ÿ™‚

That’s my word vomit for the night. I also had quite a day. To keep it short: people with terrible attitudes suck. Super toxic. But that’s on them, not me.

Getting sleepy. Good night.

b