😭💔

I’ll continue to stay faithful, but the NFCCG was ass. As soon as Purdy went down, we had no chance. I’m numb at this point. We get so close, but still so far.

I’m currently on vacation and I should be enjoying myself, but nah. Other things are on my mind. I try to be kind and to do my best with everything by putting others before myself and somehow I’m called a narcissist. Far from it! 😒🙄

Anyway, I’ll really miss football. Bring on, basketball and baseball!

I’ve got school and work to focus on in a few days. Back to reality shortly. Going to milk the last few days in Hawaii.

Good night.

b

Grief.

I can remember a relative passing away when I was 12. It was my first real glimpse with death. I can also recall our first pet’s passing. It was a cold and rainy day in January. She was too young. 😭

It’s normal. As you age, the people around you get older and pass on. I lost three grandparents in the 2010s. As a young adult, the loss was palpable. I was sad, angry, and in disbelief. I’ve come to terms with it a decade later, but the void never leaves me. The same can be said about family pets.

Losing Beari has suffocated me at times. I didn’t want to let go, but euthanasia was the best for her. I’m still so angry because cancer took her away from us. I just picked up her chew toys in my room. I miss her so much. Her scent lingers at home. The silence is deafening. I miss her barks. I miss her companionship. I miss everything! 🥺 This is an adjustment period. It’d be nice to take in another dog, but I’m not ready. We’re not ready.

Her birthday is almost here. We’d like to have a special meal for her and maybe some cupcakes to celebrate her life. Change comes with the territory. I’m doing my best to adapt. Owning a pet is one of the greatest feelings in the world! But saying goodbye is the hardest part.

I love you, Beari. ❤️🐻❤️

b

Farewell 2022!

So many great memories were made this year, but losing our dear Beari in November was heartbreaking. I’ll miss her always! ❤️🐻❤️

I hope to do and be better in 2023! It’s the year of the rabbit. Yes!!! I’d like to travel more, excel academically, and continue growing in all areas of my life. I hope to take more risks because why not?! 😎

Wishing all of you a wonderful 2023! 🥂🎆

b

Updates.

Carlos Correa is no longer a Giant. Slim chance he could be, but who knows at this point. 🤷🏻‍♀️

Happy Holidays to you and yours! It’s been a trying year so I wasn’t in a festive mood. I guess you can say I was the Grinch. Maybe next year? I miss Beari too much. We didn’t even decorate. 😭

Resting as much as I can before school and work start up again. I’m also cleaning and hoping to donate + sell things I don’t need anymore.

I’m crushing hard. But I guess I can save that story for another day. Lol. I’m shy. Really!!!!

I’ve been eating a lot of junk food. Why not?! And I’m playing for 3rd place in FF. LFG!!!! 🏈

Hope all is well! 💜

b

CARLOS CORREA!!!

photo cred and edit: NBCSBA

We finally landed a big name. I’m so excited! 13 years with the Giants, $350M. 🤩

The rivalry next season is going to be epic. #beatla I was disappointed after Judge said no, but Farhan worked his magic. LFG!!! Can’t wait for baseball to return. Now I’m kicking myself for not buying the $5 ticket deal. 😂 Oh well.

I’m tired. Glad I get another day to myself. Yay!

Good night and Go Giants! 🖤🧡

b

😔

We have 1.5 days left with Beari. Her send off will be Saturday afternoon. I requested the day off from work to grieve with family and process.

Tried to make the most of Thanksgiving, but it was just so somber. She’s still alert and has an appetite, but she physically can’t keep up anymore. 2022 has been so hard! I really thought things would improve for her after her diagnosis. It was pretty much an uphill battle.

Thankful for the almost 6 years we had with her. It’s going to be tough. I can’t. 💔

I’ll distract myself later, but this chapter of our lives is almost over. I’m so sad. I’ve accepted it, but she’s leaving us too soon.

Good night.

b