Day 195.

Still feeling crappy, but I’m doing my best. 💜💪🏼💜 Angry about the Breonna Taylor news. Absolutely disgusting. Black Lives Matter! 🖤

I slept in. I stayed up watching The Outsiders before bed. Ralph Macchio! My childhood crush. 🥰 Still love him to this day. Might look into watching Cobra Kai.

Indian food for lunch! I love the garlic naan and chicken tikka masala. I ordered a mango lassi too. Everything was delicious!!

Animal Crossing update: I forgot I expanded my house. Got a new loan to pay off, but I now have a room upstairs! Thinking of making that room my bedroom. We’ll see.

Renewed my domain and WP plan. Yay! More blog entries to come.

Watched Remember the Titans this afternoon. One of my favorite Disney movies. Denzel is so good!!! The cast is great and so is the music. ❤️

Giants win! Keeping my fingers crossed for the last few games. We’ll see how it turns out. Go Giants!! 🖤🧡

I caught up with a good friend via text. She’s been encouraging and helping me through my heartache. The feeling still sucks. 😢

Everything is still a waiting game for work. Hopefully we go back in two weeks. I’m anxious because I need to practice driving before then. Eep! I can do this though. I know I can.

That’s my Wednesday. I hope to be more productive tomorrow. I won’t exercise tonight. Maybe tomorrow? Or Friday?

Good night.

b

Day 194.

My heart is broken, but it will be mended. I’d like to think I’m getting closer to the person I’m meant to be with eventually. It stings. It sucks. I’m overlooked yet again and it brings me back to my twenties. I sent him a text message for closure and I gained a new friend out of all of this. Will I ever get a happy ending? I don’t know. 😭

It’s exhausting going through the motions of dating. Just once – I’d like someone to finally pick me. That day will come, but for now, I’ll continue waiting. I’ll allow myself to feel my emotions and feelings. I can’t hold that back. It’ll take time.

I got to see my medical team. I missed them so much! I’ve been given the okay to return to work. PPE must be on at all times. I’ll be driving this time around. I got everything done. I’m feeling proud despite my sadness.

Animal Crossing update: I need to check my island. I lost track of time.

I must continue with my TEFL course. No distractions now, ya know? I guess you can say it was a Summer Love. Happy Fall! It’s a new season and I’m ready for the abundance of blessings. 🎃🍂

My crown was tilted. It’ll be affixed again. I’m powerful! 👸🏻👑 Family and friends are uplifting me. Thank you for your love and support. 💗

Hope y’all had a nice one. Take care!

Good night.

b

Day 171.

Happy Sunday! It’s a new week and I’m looking forward to what it brings. 🙏🏼 We watched The Little Mermaid before we slept. A childhood fave. 🧜🏼‍♀️

I took it easy. I slept in and I’ve been lying in bed. It’s been cold.

The highlight of my day was attending a zoom meeting for racial justice. It’s nice to hear and listen to others and their experiences. BLM! 🖤 I’ve got a list of new books to check out. I’m excited.

I’m currently catching up with a friend. So it’s nice to see how she’s doing!

Animal Crossing update: I slept in so I didn’t get my turnips. That’s okay. Lol. I’m taking in the final weekend of fireworks. I’ll miss it, but it’s been fun! 🎇🎆

I might eat a little something before bed. We ordered Korean food and boba. I requested salted cheese and they didn’t put it in. 😞 Next time.

Giants take the series in AZ! Trade deadline is tomorrow. The suspense is making me jumpy. Let’s see if they make a move.

Take care, y’all!

Good night.

b

Day 159.

I’m honestly all over the place. That is the truth. I’m trying to deal with everything currently on my plate. Balance is key! I got this. 😎

I had to get my labs done today. The standing orders weren’t in the computer again so I had to play phone tag with my team. Next time I will give them advance notice so the orders are already in the computer. Yeesh. I think my labs are good. Hurrah! If it looks questionable, they’ll get back to me.

I tried the new ramen packets we have. Had that for lunch. It was really good! Just a lot of salt – so the next time I make it, I’ll adjust it.

August is flying by! I wish time would slow down. I’ve just been super anxious. 🙃

I played a bit of Animal Crossing when I woke up. Haven’t touched it since. I’m in the middle of my TEFL course. Doing my best to make progress daily.

Giants split the series in LAA! And I’m glad they’re returning home. 🖤🧡

I hope tomorrow works out. 🤞🏼 I’m sure it will. Ah!

Good night and take care!

b

Day 158.

Happy Monday! It’s a new week and I’m ready to tackle so many things on my to do list. Must pace myself. Everything is a work in progress.

I’ve been listening to a lot of songs that are in tune with my mood. Most of the songs are uplifting! So many badass female artists and groups. I love it!!! 🥰

Animal Crossing update: I didn’t play for too long today. Caroline wanted to move out and I declined. That means someone will ask again in a few days. I hope it’s the villager I don’t really like.

I’m taking care of my room. So many moving pieces, but it’ll all get done. Breathe.

I did have a decent night’s sleep. There was no lightning or thunder. Our dog did wake me up at a really inconvenient time. I went back to sleep for a few hours.

I went for my afternoon walk. It’s nice to spend a few minutes outside. 😷 I’ve got errands to run tomorrow. It shouldn’t take long though. I hope all my labs are good. Must finish some of my exercises before the day ends.

I’m just all over the place. 🙃 I also caught up with a friend on IG and recommended Last Christmas. She’s watching it right now and we’ll discuss once she’s done.

Well, I hope y’all had a nice one. Take care!

Good night.

b

Day 153.

I can breathe. I was dealing with a lot of anxiety a few hours ago. I’m okay now. Just a lot going on these last couple of days.

Still processing Amado’s passing. What a beautiful soul! ❤️

Online dating is new for me. I’m making the most of it. I was brave and I put myself out there! So whatever happens, no one really knows.

We are still building my IKEA dresser. Hoping to be finished with it tomorrow.

Got to catch up with friends via text. Always eases me and makes me happy! 💗 They keep me grounded.

Giants lost the series in Houston. Ugh. They’re headed home which is nice! We’ve got a lot to work on. Still cheering for them no matter what. 🖤🧡

Well, it’s back to building. Hope y’all had a nice one. Take care!

Good night.

b

Day 151.

How was your Monday? Today was a ride. It’ll be like this all week. I spent most of my time putting together IKEA furnishings with my sisters. We were up for the task! 2 down, so many more to go. I’m confident in our abilities. 💜

Dealing with some anxiety. Internal and external factors. I’m trying not to overthink, but it’s hard. Breathe in and out. Every breath is so important. I won’t take it for granted.

Animal Crossing update: Hopkins is moving in and Ken is leaving. I wanted another villager to leave. He’s still there. 😒 Maybe he’ll be next! Lol. C.J.’s on my island. I completed his challenge and sold all my fish. Hoping for a more eventful day tomorrow.

I rewatched Last Christmas before bed last night. The first time around we kept pausing so the story didn’t mesh well. I cried so much. It’s such a beautiful story! And the setting is the holiday season?! I’m sold.

Work announcement tomorrow. I hope we can stay in and work from home. I haven’t left the house in months. And if I do it’s for a short time and a very significant reason such as a doctor’s appointment. I’m anxious about the announcement too. Can’t control the outcome. I can only control how I react and feel.

I got to catch up with some friends too via text. It’s always nice to check in with folks. I genuinely care about everyone’s safety and well-being. 💕

Lastly, the Giants were almost no-hit in Houston. We were able to score 4 runs, but the Astros got the win. I hope we can win a game in this series. For the rest of the league really! The World Series cheating scandal is the elephant in the room this season. Tsk!!!

Hoping to sleep soon. I need so much energy tomorrow. Take care!

Good night.

b

Day 150.

Happy Sunday! 🥰

The highlight of my day was catching up with my college friends on Zoom. It’s been too long! I enjoy every second with them. 💙💛 Everyone’s doing well.

Animal Crossing update: rearranging furniture in the living room. My storage is full so I’ll have to sell some items. I need new wallpaper. There’s also fireworks tonight! I’ll catch the last of it before midnight. It’s so beautiful to watch. Love it! My island is doing alright.

Kilig. I don’t know if it’s there yet, but we’ll see. It’s a Filipino word. Google it. 😂 I guess stepping out of my comfort zone is helping me gain confidence. Whether this works out or not. Dude seems really nice and understanding. Carpe diem!!!

I got some sad news today and I’m processing it. So heartbreaking. 😭💔

Giants didn’t take the series in LA. I’m just glad we didn’t get swept. 🖤🧡

It’ll be a busy day tomorrow and the rest of the week. Always making progress. But must pace myself.

Hope y’all had a nice one. Have a great week! Take care.

Good night.

b

Day 132.

I’m going to keep it short and simple tonight. Hope everyone had a nice Wednesday! 🧡

  • Woke up at a decent time. Watched a few Glee episodes. I’m almost done with s1! 🙂
  • Took a nap because I still felt tired.
  • Made myself a 🌭 for National Hot Dog Day. Woo!
  • Washed the dishes.
  • Played my uke. I needed the music.
  • Had tacos for dinner.
  • Played some Animal Crossing. Got a new DIY recipe from Pascal. New villager moved in. Yay!
  • Created another dating profile. Trying to be patient with myself and this process.
  • Caught up with the BFFs via text.
  • Took another nap. I just woke up.
  • Now it’s time to really call it a night. May sneak in another Glee epi.

Take care everyone!

Good night.

b

Day 131.

It’s Tuesday. Hurrah! I had a fairly decent day. I slept in again, but that’s my norm.

I wanted to exercise today, but I will finally do that again tomorrow. I’ve been very inconsistent, but that’s okay. I will not beat myself up over it.

Shy me is on a dating app. Dating in person gives me anxiety so it’s about the same online. I’m stepping out of my comfort zone and there’s no time like to present to talk to new people especially during SIP.

Animal Crossing update: Pascal gifted me a mermaid princess dress. I love it! Celeste is currently on my island. I’ll have to look for shooting stars tonight.

Giants are 2-0 this preseason! They’re off to LA for the start of the regular season. Go Giants!!! 🖤🧡

I ate a mix of junk and healthy food today. I’m done consuming junk for the night. I hope to be more productive tomorrow. I watched a lot of Glee episodes and caught up with friends via text tonight. ❤️ I also played my uke again. 🙂

Hope y’all had a nice day. Take care!

Good night.

b