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The news this week has hit me hard. Our dog has cancer. Makes me sad to say or even think about it.

How can she be this sick at five years old? I’m gutted. 💔

Doing my best to stay productive and go about my week. I’m pretty depressed. I’m still crying as the days go on. I feel numb.

Going to try and sleep. Hold your loved ones close. Good night.

b

Life update.

B had her surgery yesterday. She’s alert and comfortable. But she hasn’t eaten yet. I’m hoping her appetite returns. ❤️🐶❤️

It’s been an anxious and overwhelming time. Trying to stay positive through it all. I’ve shed tears already. 😭

We just want her to be okay and back to her usual self. Please send prayers and good vibes.

I’m going to watch some movies and tv shows to take my mind off of things. Not sure if I’ll get much sleep.

Wishing you all a good night.

Bern

Happy Pride! 🏳️‍🌈💗

Wishing all of my dear family and friends a Happy Pride! You are loved always. Blessed to have y’all in my life and to stand proudly as an ally.

It’s been a weird work week. Trying to keep up before I’m off in a few days. 😮‍💨

I’m pretty tired. And unfortunately, Covid is in our household atm. It’s so inconvenient, but we gotta keep our distance!!! Still masking, washing my hands, and keeping away from crowds. But I can’t dodge crowds all the time. Just pls stay away!!!

Hoping to sleep soon. Wishing y’all a great week! 💜

Good night.

b

🤬

What was supposed to be an awesome day became a shit show! Long story short, I wanted to finally meet Buster Posey in person and have him sign my 2014 World Series baseball.

Mom and I got there before 11. Honestly thought there’d be plenty of time for everyone to get their pic and autographs. As the clock approached 12:15pm, it was announced that they wouldn’t be able to take everyone. So disappointing!!! We were all pleading considering the cost and time for everyone. No luck!

Left my baseball to be signed at a later time. Hoping he really does! I’m still pissed. It was a logistical failure on the org’s part. I’ve been venting all over social media about it. Nothing was communicated to us while we waited. There were no signs indicating where to stand. It was so bad!!!! First and last time I ever do a signing that isn’t done by the Giants internally.

The silver lining is that Mom got her pic with him. Happy for her! I hope she gets it soon. 💗

I’m tired. Body is very sore considering I had to head home, eat a quick lunch, and go to work. I can’t even stay awake right now. Ahh!!

Excited for the Dubs parade on Monday! Hope that’s a better experience. They’re estimating 1M people to be there. My goodness! I’m anxious, but this is the first parade in SF. 💙💛🏆

This is good night. Can’t stay awake anymore. Later!!!

b

Happy June!

This month is flying and I’m making the most of it! 🙂 I caught up with friends on Thursday and tried Doppio Zero. Never been before so I wanted to try! I had the oxtail fettuccine and a Bellini. The food was absolutely amazing. I’ll be back for sure!!!

It was nice to see everyone again. We haven’t seen each other in months. Really thankful it all worked out. Afterwards we went to get ice cream. Salt & Straw!!! I went with a new flavor – Baked Brie and Fig Cheesecake. A very nice combo!🍦

I’m almost done with my TEFL cert! Better late than never!!!! That’s my motto. Slowly getting to where I need to be. Taking chances and staying confident despite my anxiety. Breathe.

Warriors won! 2-2 and back to the bay. Yee!!! 💙💛 Giants beat LA. 😎🖤🧡

I’m excited for a lot of things. Can’t wait! Hoping to sleep soon, but I’m such a night owl.

Happy weekend to all! 💗

b

Update.

Hello! It’s been a few weeks and I come with an update.

I’ve attended a few events: Buster Posey Day at the yard, my first concert since 2019, and celebrated Mother’s Day with the fam. I also just signed papers to be a barista/cashier again! I hope it goes well.🤞

I had my interview for the mochi film I decided to help with and l was a mess. I probably should’ve prepared more beforehand and I was nervous! But Kristine was very patient with me. I hope I didn’t embarrass myself. 😬 I overthink a lot. Wahhh!

I need to finish my cert for my TEFL. I’ve put it off for so long. I’m almost there! I need to complete it before the end of June. I’m a little stressed since I start training for my new gig next week. Also nervous for that.

I saw Paul McCartney on Sunday! It was amazing. I’ve seen both living Beatles. George was my favorite. RIP to him and John. Truly missed! 🤍

Getting sleepy. My nap threw me off. And omg the Philippine election. Don’t even get me started! It’s upsetting to me as a Filipino American. I want real leadership to steer the country in the right direction. I want progress! I wasn’t born there, but I’m still very connected to the birthplace of my parents and ancestors. LABAN 🇵🇭💗

There’s a lot to do and I’m feeling overwhelmed sometimes. Taking it a day at a time! Wishing you all well. Until next time.

b 💜

A busy 🐝!

Hello! It’s been a while. Just wanted to type up an update. 🙂 I hope everyone is doing well! The NBA playoffs have started, baseball is back (Go Giants! 🖤🧡), and spring is here!!! ☀️ Love it.

I attended the NCCBF! 🌸 Both weekends. First weekend was to visit our cousin and his partner. She’s running her own small biz! Good times. The second weekend we lined up early for teriburgers! Delicious. Wish we bought more. 😋 Also got to buy Japanese snacks, mochi, and some other goodies. Japantown is one of my fave spots in the city!

A few days ago – we returned to Davis. It was for Dr. Fujimoto’s memorial. So many beautiful stories and memories were shared. I miss college! I was inspired again just being back. I want to do more!!! Aggies 🐴💙💛 We bought all of our favorite food, caught up with familiar faces, and took some nice pics on campus. We bought some new UCD swag to wear and rep. We missed Picnic Day by 2 days! I ended up buying this year’s tee.

I’m in the middle of job hunting again. I’d like to have a summer job if I can find one. Looking for a stable position that also works with my own schedule + energy levels. Being a lupus patient can be a lot, but it’s important to listen to your body! Rest is essential. In my case, I always nap. 💜 Lupus Awareness Month is coming up. I love sharing facts and information!!

I’m playing a lot of Pocket Camp! It’s fun. Too many Animal Crossing games to choose from.

Lots of books on my reading list! I also have tv shows and movies I’ve been meaning to watch. Balance is so important right now! I’m also trying to exercise more. Time management. 😮‍💨

Wishing you all a great week! 💗

Good night.

b

Berkeley.

Quick stop in Berkeley on Friday. We’re rarely in the area! Made the most of our time. The food makes everything worthwhile. 🥰

Third culture bakery is a fave! Got our usual order of mochi doughnuts and muffins. I also ordered a matcha latte with regular milk and honey. SO GOOD. 😋 For lunch, we went to #POKI. I had the cooked salmon over rice. Loved it! Would get it again.

Also got to see our bestie later that day. Always great to hear from her!! 💗

I can’t believe it’s already Sunday! I’m still processing the last two weeks. Trying to improve my life in so many ways. A death reminds me of my own mortality, but to also cherish my time here on earth. We miss our uncle! 🤍

I’ve played a lot of Animal Crossing New Leaf. It’s actually my fave right now compared to New Horizons. Wild! I played everyday in 2020. I haven’t played much as of late.

Well, hoping to ko soon. I’m sleepy. But I also want to watch a movie. Maybe Tall Girl 2?!

Good night.

b

35.

Farewell to 34, hello to 35! Time flies. It was a beautiful day well spent with family and amazing food. We’re still working on leftovers. It was a joyous time celebrating our new year. 💜

Part of me is sad because I’m grieving the passing of our paternal uncle. I really wish we could be with the rest of our family in Canada. Maybe we can visit next year? His first day of visitation was yesterday. Today will be emotional. Holding my dear family close to my heart. We sent over a floral arrangement and it’s beautiful.

I can still hear his voice in my head. Very soft-spoken, but kind. My proudest moments were speaking Kapampángan with him. He’s the only one out of the siblings who was born in Pampanga. I think that’s awesome!!! I hope to see it one day. 🇵🇭

I’m just reminiscing. I’ll have more to say come Friday. I hope I can get through the day later. It’s been heavy since last week. Praying for my uncle’s beautiful soul. 🤍

Good night.

b