😔

We have 1.5 days left with Beari. Her send off will be Saturday afternoon. I requested the day off from work to grieve with family and process.

Tried to make the most of Thanksgiving, but it was just so somber. She’s still alert and has an appetite, but she physically can’t keep up anymore. 2022 has been so hard! I really thought things would improve for her after her diagnosis. It was pretty much an uphill battle.

Thankful for the almost 6 years we had with her. It’s going to be tough. I can’t. 💔

I’ll distract myself later, but this chapter of our lives is almost over. I’m so sad. I’ve accepted it, but she’s leaving us too soon.

Good night.

b

The final days.

I didn’t think we’d be saying goodbye so soon. Beari’s cancer has spread and we’re out of options. I wish we had more time, but we had five great years together.

We’re planning for her best week ever! The beach, her fave foods, and whatever else we can think of to send her off.

Losing a pet is never easy. But seeing her in pain is really tough. 😭

I wish her peace and comfort. We love you, Beari. ❤️🐻❤️

I am broken.

b

Depressed.

I’ve always been one to hide my depression. I’ll usually play it off as anxiety. These last two weeks, I’ve dealt with high functioning depression. I’m pretty much on autopilot and faking a smile.

We have a very sick dog at home and I’m feeling helpless. She needs surgery, but we can’t finance it! So what do we do next? 😭💔 It hurts my head and heart thinking about potential scenarios. She’s still very much aware. She’s just in pain. I want to scream!!!!! AHHHHHHH. 😫

I feel hopeless too. I try to stay optimistic but as of late I don’t feel or think it.

Doing my best to hold on. I’m absolutely terrified.

Please keep me and my family in your thoughts. We definitely need lots of prayers. Thank you!

Good night.

b

We need your help!

Beari needs another surgery due to a broken hip. We found out a week ago and we’re just devastated! It might be cancer related. Posting her GoFundMe page again.

If you are able, please donate to our cause! I’ve been a hot mess. I’m sad, depressed, and feeling hopeless.

We just want her to be okay. She’s been through so much. 😭🐻❤️ We love you, Beari.

Thank you.

b

For Beari. ❤️🐻❤️

Hello! Life’s been pretty busy for me these days, but I just want to say hey.

We’ve launched Beari’s chemotherapy fundraiser. If you have the means, please consider donating to our cause. We love her so much!!!! Thank you.

Time is flying, but enjoying the ride. Excited about a lot of things! Staying hopeful. 💜

Hope everyone is doing well! Take care.

Good night.

b

😭😭😭

The news this week has hit me hard. Our dog has cancer. Makes me sad to say or even think about it.

How can she be this sick at five years old? I’m gutted. 💔

Doing my best to stay productive and go about my week. I’m pretty depressed. I’m still crying as the days go on. I feel numb.

Going to try and sleep. Hold your loved ones close. Good night.

b

Life update.

B had her surgery yesterday. She’s alert and comfortable. But she hasn’t eaten yet. I’m hoping her appetite returns. ❤️🐶❤️

It’s been an anxious and overwhelming time. Trying to stay positive through it all. I’ve shed tears already. 😭

We just want her to be okay and back to her usual self. Please send prayers and good vibes.

I’m going to watch some movies and tv shows to take my mind off of things. Not sure if I’ll get much sleep.

Wishing you all a good night.

Bern

Happy Pride! 🏳️‍🌈💗

Wishing all of my dear family and friends a Happy Pride! You are loved always. Blessed to have y’all in my life and to stand proudly as an ally.

It’s been a weird work week. Trying to keep up before I’m off in a few days. 😮‍💨

I’m pretty tired. And unfortunately, Covid is in our household atm. It’s so inconvenient, but we gotta keep our distance!!! Still masking, washing my hands, and keeping away from crowds. But I can’t dodge crowds all the time. Just pls stay away!!!

Hoping to sleep soon. Wishing y’all a great week! 💜

Good night.

b

🤬

What was supposed to be an awesome day became a shit show! Long story short, I wanted to finally meet Buster Posey in person and have him sign my 2014 World Series baseball.

Mom and I got there before 11. Honestly thought there’d be plenty of time for everyone to get their pic and autographs. As the clock approached 12:15pm, it was announced that they wouldn’t be able to take everyone. So disappointing!!! We were all pleading considering the cost and time for everyone. No luck!

Left my baseball to be signed at a later time. Hoping he really does! I’m still pissed. It was a logistical failure on the org’s part. I’ve been venting all over social media about it. Nothing was communicated to us while we waited. There were no signs indicating where to stand. It was so bad!!!! First and last time I ever do a signing that isn’t done by the Giants internally.

The silver lining is that Mom got her pic with him. Happy for her! I hope she gets it soon. 💗

I’m tired. Body is very sore considering I had to head home, eat a quick lunch, and go to work. I can’t even stay awake right now. Ahh!!

Excited for the Dubs parade on Monday! Hope that’s a better experience. They’re estimating 1M people to be there. My goodness! I’m anxious, but this is the first parade in SF. 💙💛🏆

This is good night. Can’t stay awake anymore. Later!!!

b