Day 195.

Still feeling crappy, but I’m doing my best. 💜💪🏼💜 Angry about the Breonna Taylor news. Absolutely disgusting. Black Lives Matter! 🖤

I slept in. I stayed up watching The Outsiders before bed. Ralph Macchio! My childhood crush. 🥰 Still love him to this day. Might look into watching Cobra Kai.

Indian food for lunch! I love the garlic naan and chicken tikka masala. I ordered a mango lassi too. Everything was delicious!!

Animal Crossing update: I forgot I expanded my house. Got a new loan to pay off, but I now have a room upstairs! Thinking of making that room my bedroom. We’ll see.

Renewed my domain and WP plan. Yay! More blog entries to come.

Watched Remember the Titans this afternoon. One of my favorite Disney movies. Denzel is so good!!! The cast is great and so is the music. ❤️

Giants win! Keeping my fingers crossed for the last few games. We’ll see how it turns out. Go Giants!! 🖤🧡

I caught up with a good friend via text. She’s been encouraging and helping me through my heartache. The feeling still sucks. 😢

Everything is still a waiting game for work. Hopefully we go back in two weeks. I’m anxious because I need to practice driving before then. Eep! I can do this though. I know I can.

That’s my Wednesday. I hope to be more productive tomorrow. I won’t exercise tonight. Maybe tomorrow? Or Friday?

Good night.

b

Day 194.

My heart is broken, but it will be mended. I’d like to think I’m getting closer to the person I’m meant to be with eventually. It stings. It sucks. I’m overlooked yet again and it brings me back to my twenties. I sent him a text message for closure and I gained a new friend out of all of this. Will I ever get a happy ending? I don’t know. 😭

It’s exhausting going through the motions of dating. Just once – I’d like someone to finally pick me. That day will come, but for now, I’ll continue waiting. I’ll allow myself to feel my emotions and feelings. I can’t hold that back. It’ll take time.

I got to see my medical team. I missed them so much! I’ve been given the okay to return to work. PPE must be on at all times. I’ll be driving this time around. I got everything done. I’m feeling proud despite my sadness.

Animal Crossing update: I need to check my island. I lost track of time.

I must continue with my TEFL course. No distractions now, ya know? I guess you can say it was a Summer Love. Happy Fall! It’s a new season and I’m ready for the abundance of blessings. 🎃🍂

My crown was tilted. It’ll be affixed again. I’m powerful! 👸🏻👑 Family and friends are uplifting me. Thank you for your love and support. 💗

Hope y’all had a nice one. Take care!

Good night.

b

Day 193.

Happy Monday! Today would’ve been Laki’s 20th Birthday. I miss him so much. He was one of the sweetest dogs ever. Happy Birthday! 💛🐶 We made mochi pancakes for him. So good!

I slept in. I was tired. I watched Before Sunrise before bed. I loved it! Planning to watch the 2nd film in the series later on this week. A young Ethan Hawke! Great casting.

So some good news. The sister and I were rocking out to One Direction! Then a text from him appears. I haven’t read it. Anxiety…lol. It’s almost been three days since I heard from him. We’re friends, but like I’m interested. And I don’t know where he stands. This pandemic makes everything more awkward and weird. So that’s where I’m at right now. Stay tuned. 🙃

We had Taco Bell in honor of Laki. Hurrah!

Niners injuries have been confirmed. Bosa and Thomas are out – torn ACLs. 😭 I’ll miss seeing them out there. Get well soon! ❤️💛

I still gotta exercise. I can’t nap since I have an important doctor’s appointment tomorrow. I’m looking forward to seeing my medical team and update them about my life. 💜

Giants are losing to the Rockies. Oh well. Let’s do better the rest of the home stand. Postseason or bust. Lol.

Hoping to be more productive this week. Animal Crossing has been okay. I sold a bunch of fish to C.J. today.

Time to work out. Listening to BLACKPINK to get me pumped.

Have a good night!

b

Day 192.

I’m kinda feeling better today. Happy Sunday! It’s a new week and I’m looking forward to what it may bring. I watched Last Christmas again before bed. I can’t remember if it’s my 5th or 6th time watching. And I was at Covent Garden around where they filmed. So cool!

I was pretty tired again. I napped twice. I feel pretty energized since I’m tidying up my room. I’m putting away my luggage, my shoe rack, and I might be returning some things I purchased.

Caught some of the Niners game via their app. So many injuries. 😭😫💔 Bosa looks out for the rest of the season. Thomas might be too. Why?! The turf sucks at MetLife. We play there again next week vs. the Giants.

The Giants beat the A’s. No sweep! 🖤🧡🎃 Eight games remaining. We just need to win 5 to get into the postseason. Who knows?!

I played my uke. Felt like forever. I just needed music to help me feel better. Still in a funk. That’s the truth.

Animal Crossing update: finally paid off my loan! Decided to pull from my savings. Woo!! Truffles has officially moved in. She’s unboxing things, but it’s nice to have a new villager. 🙂

I’m just listening to music while I put things away. I have so much makeup. I put some on at home because why not?! 😊 It’s always fun.

That was my Sunday. I plan on studying a bit tonight. Progress!!

Take care and good night.

b

Day 191.

I’m in a weird state yet again. I’ve been feeling really tired too. I’m also overthinking. Sigh. 😞 My emotions and feelings are everywhere.

I plan on exercising to get rid of the negativity and anxiety.

I helped with dinner which is nice. I took a nap before helping. I think I need another nap.

Animal Crossing update: Caroline has officially moved out. Truffles will be settling in tomorrow. I’m always open to new villagers, but I get attached to the old ones.

Watched the Celtics and Heat play. Very good game. It’s going to be a series. Might even go 7?

The Giants lost again in Oakland. Sighhh. Postseason or not, they’ve played very well considering how unique 2020 has been.

Didn’t take any pictures so this entry is all text.

Hope y’all had a nice Saturday. Take care!

Good night.

b

Day 190.

TGIF! 🥰 Catching up with a friend via IG. Good times.

I had a very busy day. Four appointments in one! It was all a success. My eyes were dilated so that was a trip. I had to wear the roll up shades. Grateful to my aunt for always helping me out when I need a ride. I treated myself to my first PSL of the season. Thee best! 🎃🍂

Once I got home, I ate lunch and took a shower. I’ve made it a habit to get clean after a doctor’s appointment. I also ordered my new shipment of medication. Should get to me on Wednesday. 🙂

Animal Crossing update: Caroline is leaving. Truffles is moving in. I’ll miss Caroline! Thanks for the memories. 💗

Giants lose in Oakland. We’re tied for a playoff spot. Going with the flow. 🖤🧡

I’ve gotta exercise and study before bed. And maybe talk to that guy. 🙃

Enjoy the weekend – y’all have earned it. Take care!

Good night.

b

Day 189.

Happy Thursday! 🥰 It’s almost the weekend. It’s been okay for me. Got my workout done – go me!

Progress is being made at work. I might be back in two weeks. Part of me is anxious, but the other part of me wants to get back to my old routine. It’s going to be different, but I’m ready. I must be extra careful as my doctors have advised. Productive convo with the boss. He’s always reassuring.

Giants win! They take the series as the visiting team at home versus Seattle. Just a few more games left and then the postseason. We’ll see what happens. 🖤🧡

Animal Crossing update: Redd was in town. Got a new piece of art to add to my museum. Exciting! Loan is almost paid off. Like seriously! 😄

I’ve got my eye appointments tomorrow morning. I hope it goes well. I haven’t been super diligent with my drops. Eep!

I was pretty productive today. I washed dishes. Hurrah! I’m hoping to do more tomorrow. Clean and study!! That’s the plan.

Lastly, I wish things were different. I miss going out with friends, seeing family, and doing my own thing. Six months into this and it’s been up and down. There are so many emotions and feelings to sort through. 😞😫😭 But I’m doing my best. It’s been nice to chat with someone new – regardless of if it’s something more or not. Maybe we’re both interested? I don’t know. But I feel like 🥴 every time. 😂

I’m hoping to sleep soon. It’s an early day for me. Must practice driving too. Take care!

Good night.

b

Day 188.

Happy Wednesday! We made it to the middle of the week. 😎

I was feeling quite tired when I woke up, so I took a nap. It turned into 2 more hours of sleep. I felt pretty refreshed. Win!

Animal Crossing update: Things are the same on the island. I’ve saved enough to pay off my loan, but I’m waiting until I get it down to $100k. 🙂

Rare beauty stuff arrived today! I’m digging the lip soufflé and the highlighter. I like my makeup pretty natural and Selena’s line does the job. She’s also a Lupus Warrior! I always support the community. 💜💪🏼💜

I studied today. Made some progress with my class. Planning to read a bit more tonight before bed. I’m pretty productive at night. I’ve always been a night owl!

The Giants were the visiting team tonight. Pretty interesting. Lol. We got the W! 🖤🧡 The win was for the 49ers. ❤️💛 Kruk and Kuip mentioned them during the broadcast. 🥰

My workout was brutal, but I got it done. I wasn’t feeling too motivated. Proud of myself.

That was my Wednesday. Kinda feeling anxious for my call with the boss tomorrow. I’m aware that work will be different. I just need to be overly cautious about my surroundings and the people I interact with. I might be driving to work too. That’s a change! Fingers crossed that all goes well.

We’re still in the first wave. The things I read on social media just upsets me. There’s so much ignorance and selfishness. Absolutely frustrating! So many complaints to go back to “normal”, yet no one wants to listen to science and wear a mask! 😒😞😷 Please do your part. Rant over.

Good night.

b

Day 187.

Not a very Happy Tuesday for me. I dealt with a mosquito flying around in my room before bed. It was the most annoying thing ever! So I tried to fall asleep with my AirPods in my ears. It made me so anxious. I hope I can sleep better tonight.

I decided to clean the bathroom and the kitchen. Clean floors are happy floors! 🙂 I treated myself to a cup of ice cream afterwards. Hurrah!

Animal Crossing update: I’m ready to take money out of my savings account to pay for the rest of my loan. I need more home storage! Labelle stopped by today. The villager I want gone is still on my island. It’s getting old. Lol. I would like a new villager.

I missed out on some NBA games today since I took a nap after cleaning. The Nuggets advance after defeating the Clippers. 😱 The Heat beat the Celtics in Game 1 of the ECF.

The Giants are returning to SF to play the Mariners due to the terrible AQI in the PNW. Seattle will be the home team. This shall be interesting. I believe we have 12 games remaining. Go Giants! 🖤🧡

Speaking of AQI, the skies were finally blue today. That may change leading up to the weekend, but I plan to take advantage of it until then. I’ve got a bunch of doctor’s appointments lined up for this week and into next.

I’ve gotta exercise and shower. Hoping to sleep better tonight as I mentioned earlier.

Text convos are something. Haven’t really checked my phone because of my anxiety. 🙃 And work stuff too. Eep.

Hope y’all had a nice one. Take care!

Good night.

b

Day 186.

Happy Monday! I had a terrible case of insomnia. I eventually fell asleep at 6am. 😬 I was very tired once I woke up. I napped for a bit mid-day.

Had a Whopper for lunch. Saving my Hershey pie for tomorrow.

Good news: I passed my class assignment! I can now proceed with the test and move on to the next module. Exciting!! My goal is to get my certification before the year ends. 2020 has been a trying year, but this is a silver lining for me. ❤️

I was overthinking a text. It was fine. 😂 I just need to breathe.

Just finished my exercise and finished my smoothie. I’m feeling good and accomplished. It takes 21 days to build a habit. I’m doing it!!!!

My Filipina art prints arrived today. So beautiful! 🇵🇭✨ I’m going to put mine up in a bit.

I didn’t take a picture today. I wasn’t feeling super motivated or creative. I’ll have a pic up for tomorrow’s entry.

Doing my best to stay positive. But if I’m feeling sad and overwhelmed, I let myself feel that too. I’ve always been emotional and sensitive even before the pandemic. I’m riding the wave. 🌊 Holistic health is so important during these times.

Btw our dear 🐻 had a vet visit. She gained a bit of weight. She’s gotta exercise and maintain a healthy diet. We’ll do a liver panel in a month or two.

Animal Crossing update: My loan. Same old story! I need to bury some more money. Island is still a mess.

That was my day. I’m ready to take it easy the rest of the night. Take care!

Good night.

b