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Freedom!

I was officially Covid free on March 4th! I was relieved. 🥰 Isolation taught me to enjoy the little things. I missed all types of cuisine. I’m eating and taking in every scent and flavor!!!

Dealing with some worries, but I just need to start. I’m lacking motivation. Still dealing with some fatigue from the virus.

Looking forward to a lot of new and great things! The weather is making me moody though. More rain in the SF Bay Area. Please make it stop! 😩

Baseball is almost back! I’m so excited. As for basketball, the Dubs aren’t doing so great. 😞

I had a long day and I just want to sleep. 😴 But I have a feeling this light rain will keep me up.

Good night.

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Farewell February.

I had a lot of hope and excitement in the beginning of the month! But of course, life happens.

Still isolating from school, work, and the fam. I resume normal activities in a few days! I hope I’m Covid negative soon. I’m restless. Yearning to be independent again. I’ll never take doing my laundry, making my own food, and running my own errands for granted.

Not the best start for 36, but that’s okay. Patience! I’m almost there. I can feel it.

Now I need to read and type up a reflection. Still slaying even when I’m not 100%. Still missing Beari a lot. ❤️🐻❤️

Good night and Go Dubs!

b

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36! 🥳

Officially 36. And I tested positive for Covid on my bday. 😫 After avoiding it for 3 years! I was so proud of that. SMH. Retested today and I’m still positive. Sense of smell and taste are almost 100% and no fever! Hurrah. It’s just the cough and fatigue left. Please leave my body.

Isolating is tough! When everyone else is around and you’re stuck in your room. Hopefully just a few more days of this! I miss my routine and independence. Please send good thoughts and prayers. I ordered delivery – Korean food and boba to cheer me up. 😋

Good night.

b

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Turning the page.

I did a lot of new and exciting things at 35! I traveled to Boston, went to a Warriors championship parade, attended live shows, and went back to school. With all the highs, there were lows.

I lost a big piece of myself when Beari passed away last year. It’s not the same without her, but honoring her memory in every way that I can.

I’m hopeful for 36! I plan to do more. And maybe I’ll even surprise myself. 😎

Good night.

b

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Back to reality.

I’m home from vacay and I already miss it! The food, the people, and the culture. The spirit of aloha is beautiful.

I cried yesterday thinking of Beari. It’s going on three months and I hate it! She was a beautiful dog. Missing her a lot these days. ❤️🐻❤️

Working later and I’m okay with it. Time to buckle down and focus on school too. Can it be spring already?! So over the winter. Bring me back to the humidity and 79 degree weather. 🌺

Well, I’m tired. Need to get as much rest as I can.

Good night.

b

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😭💔

I’ll continue to stay faithful, but the NFCCG was ass. As soon as Purdy went down, we had no chance. I’m numb at this point. We get so close, but still so far.

I’m currently on vacation and I should be enjoying myself, but nah. Other things are on my mind. I try to be kind and to do my best with everything by putting others before myself and somehow I’m called a narcissist. Far from it! 😒🙄

Anyway, I’ll really miss football. Bring on, basketball and baseball!

I’ve got school and work to focus on in a few days. Back to reality shortly. Going to milk the last few days in Hawaii.

Good night.

b

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Grief.

I can remember a relative passing away when I was 12. It was my first real glimpse with death. I can also recall our first pet’s passing. It was a cold and rainy day in January. She was too young. 😭

It’s normal. As you age, the people around you get older and pass on. I lost three grandparents in the 2010s. As a young adult, the loss was palpable. I was sad, angry, and in disbelief. I’ve come to terms with it a decade later, but the void never leaves me. The same can be said about family pets.

Losing Beari has suffocated me at times. I didn’t want to let go, but euthanasia was the best for her. I’m still so angry because cancer took her away from us. I just picked up her chew toys in my room. I miss her so much. Her scent lingers at home. The silence is deafening. I miss her barks. I miss her companionship. I miss everything! 🥺 This is an adjustment period. It’d be nice to take in another dog, but I’m not ready. We’re not ready.

Her birthday is almost here. We’d like to have a special meal for her and maybe some cupcakes to celebrate her life. Change comes with the territory. I’m doing my best to adapt. Owning a pet is one of the greatest feelings in the world! But saying goodbye is the hardest part.

I love you, Beari. ❤️🐻❤️

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Farewell 2022!

So many great memories were made this year, but losing our dear Beari in November was heartbreaking. I’ll miss her always! ❤️🐻❤️

I hope to do and be better in 2023! It’s the year of the rabbit. Yes!!! I’d like to travel more, excel academically, and continue growing in all areas of my life. I hope to take more risks because why not?! 😎

Wishing all of you a wonderful 2023! 🥂🎆

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