Reset.

Things are getting calmer on my end. Final project and final exam have concluded. Work is slowing down and I’ve only got a few more weeks of teaching. I need a vacay, but I’ll take going to concerts as my getaway!!! Ari in 13 days ahh 🩵

Missing someone and not being able to talk to them because I might be bothering them or they don’t want to hear from me is a bit discouraging so I’m just doing my own thing atm. 😭 I’m such a Pisces, lol

Yesterday was a rare Saturday off for me so I had brunch with my sister and we played tourist for the day. Wore the wrong shoes. 😂 Now my feet are paying for it. Oh well

Ate a lot of delicious food and snacks! I love you, San Francisco.

I don’t want anyone trying to piss me off later. I know how I can get. 😒

So many changes and moving pieces right now. I’m feeling a lot. It’s truly bittersweet, but maybe I just need a new chapter. Tapping into my hobbies and itching to be creative again.

Got my hair done almost a week ago. I’m summer ready!!! It’s so pretty. Here’s to the long weekend.

Good night!

b

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I can’t again.

Sally was diagnosed with mammary cancer yesterday. Brings me back to 2022! I can’t. 😭 I’ve been processing it. I cried before I tackled the day. I was on the verge of tears at work.

She’s such a sweet dog. I’m hoping we get more time with her.

Day by day. That’s the motto.

Then other stuff is bothering me too. I don’t like it when people get in my business and I didn’t ask them for their opinion. 😒😤

I know I’m stubborn. Let me be. Mistakes, lessons, etc.

I’m just sad. Feeling quite anxious and lonely.

Sighhh. I’ll figure it out.

Time to sleep. Good night!

b

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Life lately.

Been taking a mini break from social media. It’s been nice not looking at stories, lolll.

First drone flight yesterday! I was nervous, anxious, and excited. Classmates were way too close to each other. I was the second person there and everyone started crowding.

Learning a lot! It’s fun. Just need to read more. Did well on my midterm too. 😎 Spring break next week, but I work. Ahh!

Doing my best to show up for myself. My Lyft driver rephrased “I’m tired” to “I’m active”. He also gave me a confidence boost. Something I’ve been lacking these last few weeks.

I still miss him. 🥲

Sutro Tower! 🧡 Looking forward to flying more. The more practice, the better.

Still awake. Should probably ko soon.

Later!

b

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♓️✨

I’ve been a year older for a week already. I guess I’m wiser. 😂

I’m coming down with a cold and it’s awful. I was sick back in January. Ahh!

Hoping I can stop it. Emergen-C to the rescue.

Life’s been okay. I’m looking forward to the next two weeks. We shall see! ☺️

Time to sleep. Good night.

b

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Finals week.

I’m all over the place right now and processing a lot of feelings and emotions. It started a few days ago. I’m sitting with it, but I’m unsure what to do with myself.

I’m in need of a mental break from work and school. It’s coming, but I have a few more days! Can’t wait to be done with finals.

This year came and went. I was on survival mode the last few months: hospital stays + major surgery. As I’m trying to get back to my usual way of life, lots of changes have popped up. I’m feeling some type of way. 😭 Goodbyes are hard for me. I’ve never liked them.

So I’m in this weird place of trying to be okay with the change, still holding on, but I know it’s time to let go. 💔 It all feels rushed and I think I need to be okay with not getting proper closure.

I’m stubborn and I want it done my way, but we all know that’s not how life works!!! Yeah, I’m still processing.

I cried a few days ago because I was really sad. Now I feel okay, but I’m still sad. Sighhh.

I know I’ll be alright. It’s just going to take a bit of time.

That’s all I wanted to say. Good night.

b

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I already miss Japan.

I got home on December 2nd. Still dealing with jet lag. Been sleeping on and off. I’m awake now so I’ve decided to type out some thoughts.

I had a beautiful time out there! I didn’t get to do everything so I’m already planning my second visit. ☺️ The last few months were challenging for me, so I was happy to reward myself with a trip.

Long plane rides are torturous for me. I couldn’t stay in my seat either. I had to get up and walk + use the bathroom. Had to keep the blood flowing. Decent seat neighbors. Plane food was pretty good too.

The goal right now is to save and pay off bills! I spent a lot out there, but I have no regrets. Missing all of the food! 😭

The highlight of my trip was seeing Mt. Fuji! Going to Puroland too. I was also able to navigate transit. I’m so proud of myself!!!

Now I’m back home trying to get back to normal life. Missing some people that I hope to see very soon. Life is already changing. Please slow down just for a bit.

Good night. 💜

b

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Coach Beam.

It’s tragic and heartbreaking what happened to him on Thursday. I was stunned when I saw the headline.

I didn’t know about him until Last Chance U. I watched a bit of that season, but now I’ll have to finish it.

I never formally met him, but we were on the same flight home from JFK to SFO back in 2024. I had to do a double take. He was rocking his green, so I knew it was him!! He was on the phone. I wish I would’ve said hello and shook his hand, but that’s okay.

JUCO football is still fairly new to me because I didn’t pay much attention to it before I transferred to UC Davis. But now, I fully support it!!! I’ve got a friend on the Laney football team who is about to transfer to a D1 school. We’re bay rivals, but I still support him. 😂

It’s hard to wrap my head around everything at the moment. Coach Beam gave so much to Oakland. He was a pillar for the East Bay, the Bay Area, and beyond. Football lost a great one.

His final year of coaching was the 2024 season. I was fortunate enough to see a game at Laney last October. I saw him on the sidelines.

RIP Coach Beam. You’ve touched so many lives!

Photo credit: John Beam

2 claps, ready ready. 🦅💚

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Life update.

Hi!

It’s been a few weeks. I’m now two weeks post-op. Things are healing nicely and I got the pathology report/results yesterday during my follow-up. All good news!!! I’m relieved. I’ve also been cleared to fly. I’m ready!!! 🇯🇵

Still not working atm. Might squeeze in a few shifts before my trip. We’ll see.

Need to catch up on school stuff later. It’s been raining heavily in the Bay Area today. Sighhh.

I haven’t slept at all. I was feeling restless. But I’ll try to knockout after this call. I’m sleepy now!!! I wasn’t a few hours ago. Ugh. 😒

Alright. Ttyl!

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5 days.

Surgery day is fast approaching and I’m taking care of everything that I can beforehand. That means laundry, cleaning, making sure I’m getting rest, eating well, and packing a bag for the hospital. I’m nervous! Very anxious too, but I know it’s for the best. I wanted to reach out to someone, but I think it’s best not to right now. 🥲

There’s a lot of pre-surgery prep. Need to remind myself to stay away from certain foods and drinks. Can’t have caffeine this week. Gahhh! Not even salmon. I wanted a poke bowl. Next time.

I know I’ll be in good hands. But I’m praying and thinking positive.

Sports is keeping me preoccupied! Go Blue Jays. Been a Springer fan since his Astro days. BEAT LA!!! 🩵

I’ve also bought hella Niner gear. I am not ashamed. I love my damn team. LFG!!!

It’s my Monday. There’s a ton of stuff I need to deal with academically too. This week feels like an eternity. A day at a time.

I’m ready to ko! Good night.

b

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