Updates.

Carlos Correa is no longer a Giant. Slim chance he could be, but who knows at this point. 🤷🏻‍♀️

Happy Holidays to you and yours! It’s been a trying year so I wasn’t in a festive mood. I guess you can say I was the Grinch. Maybe next year? I miss Beari too much. We didn’t even decorate. 😭

Resting as much as I can before school and work start up again. I’m also cleaning and hoping to donate + sell things I don’t need anymore.

I’m crushing hard. But I guess I can save that story for another day. Lol. I’m shy. Really!!!!

I’ve been eating a lot of junk food. Why not?! And I’m playing for 3rd place in FF. LFG!!!! 🏈

Hope all is well! 💜

b

Depressed.

I’ve always been one to hide my depression. I’ll usually play it off as anxiety. These last two weeks, I’ve dealt with high functioning depression. I’m pretty much on autopilot and faking a smile.

We have a very sick dog at home and I’m feeling helpless. She needs surgery, but we can’t finance it! So what do we do next? 😭💔 It hurts my head and heart thinking about potential scenarios. She’s still very much aware. She’s just in pain. I want to scream!!!!! AHHHHHHH. 😫

I feel hopeless too. I try to stay optimistic but as of late I don’t feel or think it.

Doing my best to hold on. I’m absolutely terrified.

Please keep me and my family in your thoughts. We definitely need lots of prayers. Thank you!

Good night.

b

Triggered.

Don’t ever comment on someone’s physical appearance! This happened to me at work yesterday. You’re a shit person if you do that. This person isn’t aware of my own personal health struggles. And I don’t care to inform her because it’s none of her damn business. I’ve always dealt with self-esteem issues even before I got sick. It doesn’t cost a thing to be kind!

I am strong. I am worthy! I’m proud of myself. 💜

b

Sick.

I returned from Boston on Monday. I started to lose my voice that night. I was on vocal rest for a few days. Returned to work on Thursday and doing my best to get healthy! I tested myself for Covid and it came back negative. Doing another PCR test later.

I’m still coughing which sucks. Tea and throat drops are helping. I just want my normal voice back!

I’ve been quite tired too and I need to catch up on school work. Still going through vacation pics and trying to figure out which ones to share. It takes me forever.

Had a good therapy session! Cut it short because of my throat. I hope I’m in the clear in about a week.

Following postseason baseball on Twitter and the MLB app. BEAT LA 😎

I can’t stay awake anymore. Good night.

b

Discouraged.

I guess I need to figure out another way to fundraise for Beari. 🐶 It would be cool to meet our fundraising goal, but I’m aware that may not happen. She’s had a tough week. We need to start chemo soon. It’s making me anxious and worried.

I’m still an emo mess. Life’s been tough and I’m trying to stand tall despite it all at this point in time. Sigh. I’ve been wanting to cry a lot and the tears aren’t coming. So here’s a crying emoji 😭

It’s a new month so I’m hopeful. Been busy with school and work. On top of the other responsibilities I’m juggling. I also need to redo my room! That’s still a work in progress.

Breathe. Take it a day at a time. That’s all I can do. Hoping/praying for the best.

Hope everyone is doing well. Here’s the donation link again. Thank you.

b

My escape.

Sports has always been my saving grace. It was nice to be back at the yard! The Giants did very well. They almost blew it in the end. Perfect day for Will Clark’s retirement number ceremony.

I did have to unmask for a bit while I ate. I’ll probably test myself in a few days. No one around us was masked. Big yikes!!! 😳

It’s been tough these last two weeks, but we’re still standing. I’ll remain hopeful and I’ll continue to pray. My faith guiding me through this very difficult time. Send some love to our darling dog, Bear. ❤️🐻❤️

I’m clean and I’m ready to just unwind before I sleep. Thankful I’m off tomorrow.

Go Giants!!!! 🖤🧡

Good night.

b

Life update.

B had her surgery yesterday. She’s alert and comfortable. But she hasn’t eaten yet. I’m hoping her appetite returns. ❤️🐶❤️

It’s been an anxious and overwhelming time. Trying to stay positive through it all. I’ve shed tears already. 😭

We just want her to be okay and back to her usual self. Please send prayers and good vibes.

I’m going to watch some movies and tv shows to take my mind off of things. Not sure if I’ll get much sleep.

Wishing you all a good night.

Bern

A busy 🐝!

Hello! It’s been a while. Just wanted to type up an update. 🙂 I hope everyone is doing well! The NBA playoffs have started, baseball is back (Go Giants! 🖤🧡), and spring is here!!! ☀️ Love it.

I attended the NCCBF! 🌸 Both weekends. First weekend was to visit our cousin and his partner. She’s running her own small biz! Good times. The second weekend we lined up early for teriburgers! Delicious. Wish we bought more. 😋 Also got to buy Japanese snacks, mochi, and some other goodies. Japantown is one of my fave spots in the city!

A few days ago – we returned to Davis. It was for Dr. Fujimoto’s memorial. So many beautiful stories and memories were shared. I miss college! I was inspired again just being back. I want to do more!!! Aggies 🐴💙💛 We bought all of our favorite food, caught up with familiar faces, and took some nice pics on campus. We bought some new UCD swag to wear and rep. We missed Picnic Day by 2 days! I ended up buying this year’s tee.

I’m in the middle of job hunting again. I’d like to have a summer job if I can find one. Looking for a stable position that also works with my own schedule + energy levels. Being a lupus patient can be a lot, but it’s important to listen to your body! Rest is essential. In my case, I always nap. 💜 Lupus Awareness Month is coming up. I love sharing facts and information!!

I’m playing a lot of Pocket Camp! It’s fun. Too many Animal Crossing games to choose from.

Lots of books on my reading list! I also have tv shows and movies I’ve been meaning to watch. Balance is so important right now! I’m also trying to exercise more. Time management. 😮‍💨

Wishing you all a great week! 💗

Good night.

b

Just listen to the music of the traffic in the city.

Thank you, Petula Clark! Yesterday was a stroll down memory lane. Lots of errands and we ended up downtown. I was downtown a lot pre-Covid. I’m rarely in the area now. It’s different, but in a sense the same.

Blondie’s is back so we decided to buy pizza! We also went to Wetzel’s and KB tarts. 😋 Many eateries we used to go to are now gone such as Beard Papa’s, Loving Hut, and Häagen-Dazs. It was nice to be back! I think the soul of SF is returning. It’ll definitely take work, but it’s progress.

My bracket is officially done. Gonzaga let me down! 😩 But I had a feeling they wouldn’t do well. And I was right. So I finish 2nd this year. My women’s bracket is still going strong, so I might be able to pull out a win. It’s early, but there’s a chance!! Here’s hoping I do better in 2023.

Bridgerton is officially back! I’ll be watching an epi tonight. Yay!!!

Doing my best to take care of myself holistically. Happy to report that I’ve been walking more. It’s tiring, but absolutely necessary for my health. I’m also cleaning up my diet.

Opening Day is two weeks away!!! Can’t wait. I love baseball!! ⚾️

Well, time for Netflix. Woo!

Good night.

b

DST is here!

I’m adjusting to the time change. I think I’ll be fine after a week. Feeling a little anxious right now, so I’m having trouble sleeping.

I hope it’ll be a great week for everyone!! There’s a lot going on in the sports world, so I’ve got my eyes on Twitter 24/7. Mainly my teams: Giants, Niners, and Warriors. Hoping the Giants sign a big bat. I think this is the week we say farewell to Jimmy G. I really wish we won with him at QB. 😭 Dray, Klay, and Steph will be playing together again! It hasn’t happened since 2019. 😱 Time flies!!! My goodness.

Work will keep me busy for sure. Need to go on a shopping trip this week. I love food! I’m also exercising again. Walked yesterday and I’ll most likely do my resistance bands a few times a week. Woo! Holding myself accountable.

Covid. I’m still masking everywhere I go. I feel safer that way and I hope people will respect that. I also have chronic conditions and an immunocompromised family member. Back up! 😷 So many questions to ask my medical team. Travel is on there. If not this year, I’m hoping 2023 will be the year I’m back on a plane. I miss it!! ✈️

Still playing a lot of Animal Crossing New Leaf. 😊 Hoping turnip prices are better this week. Last week was atrocious.

Well, I’ll try to sleep soon. Wishing you all an amazing week! ❤️

Bye.

b