Discouraged.

I guess I need to figure out another way to fundraise for Beari. 🐶 It would be cool to meet our fundraising goal, but I’m aware that may not happen. She’s had a tough week. We need to start chemo soon. It’s making me anxious and worried.

I’m still an emo mess. Life’s been tough and I’m trying to stand tall despite it all at this point in time. Sigh. I’ve been wanting to cry a lot and the tears aren’t coming. So here’s a crying emoji 😭

It’s a new month so I’m hopeful. Been busy with school and work. On top of the other responsibilities I’m juggling. I also need to redo my room! That’s still a work in progress.

Breathe. Take it a day at a time. That’s all I can do. Hoping/praying for the best.

Hope everyone is doing well. Here’s the donation link again. Thank you.

b

My escape.

Sports has always been my saving grace. It was nice to be back at the yard! The Giants did very well. They almost blew it in the end. Perfect day for Will Clark’s retirement number ceremony.

I did have to unmask for a bit while I ate. I’ll probably test myself in a few days. No one around us was masked. Big yikes!!! 😳

It’s been tough these last two weeks, but we’re still standing. I’ll remain hopeful and I’ll continue to pray. My faith guiding me through this very difficult time. Send some love to our darling dog, Bear. ❤️🐻❤️

I’m clean and I’m ready to just unwind before I sleep. Thankful I’m off tomorrow.

Go Giants!!!! 🖤🧡

Good night.

b

Life update.

B had her surgery yesterday. She’s alert and comfortable. But she hasn’t eaten yet. I’m hoping her appetite returns. ❤️🐶❤️

It’s been an anxious and overwhelming time. Trying to stay positive through it all. I’ve shed tears already. 😭

We just want her to be okay and back to her usual self. Please send prayers and good vibes.

I’m going to watch some movies and tv shows to take my mind off of things. Not sure if I’ll get much sleep.

Wishing you all a good night.

Bern

A busy 🐝!

Hello! It’s been a while. Just wanted to type up an update. 🙂 I hope everyone is doing well! The NBA playoffs have started, baseball is back (Go Giants! 🖤🧡), and spring is here!!! ☀️ Love it.

I attended the NCCBF! 🌸 Both weekends. First weekend was to visit our cousin and his partner. She’s running her own small biz! Good times. The second weekend we lined up early for teriburgers! Delicious. Wish we bought more. 😋 Also got to buy Japanese snacks, mochi, and some other goodies. Japantown is one of my fave spots in the city!

A few days ago – we returned to Davis. It was for Dr. Fujimoto’s memorial. So many beautiful stories and memories were shared. I miss college! I was inspired again just being back. I want to do more!!! Aggies 🐴💙💛 We bought all of our favorite food, caught up with familiar faces, and took some nice pics on campus. We bought some new UCD swag to wear and rep. We missed Picnic Day by 2 days! I ended up buying this year’s tee.

I’m in the middle of job hunting again. I’d like to have a summer job if I can find one. Looking for a stable position that also works with my own schedule + energy levels. Being a lupus patient can be a lot, but it’s important to listen to your body! Rest is essential. In my case, I always nap. 💜 Lupus Awareness Month is coming up. I love sharing facts and information!!

I’m playing a lot of Pocket Camp! It’s fun. Too many Animal Crossing games to choose from.

Lots of books on my reading list! I also have tv shows and movies I’ve been meaning to watch. Balance is so important right now! I’m also trying to exercise more. Time management. 😮‍💨

Wishing you all a great week! 💗

Good night.

b

Just listen to the music of the traffic in the city.

Thank you, Petula Clark! Yesterday was a stroll down memory lane. Lots of errands and we ended up downtown. I was downtown a lot pre-Covid. I’m rarely in the area now. It’s different, but in a sense the same.

Blondie’s is back so we decided to buy pizza! We also went to Wetzel’s and KB tarts. 😋 Many eateries we used to go to are now gone such as Beard Papa’s, Loving Hut, and Häagen-Dazs. It was nice to be back! I think the soul of SF is returning. It’ll definitely take work, but it’s progress.

My bracket is officially done. Gonzaga let me down! 😩 But I had a feeling they wouldn’t do well. And I was right. So I finish 2nd this year. My women’s bracket is still going strong, so I might be able to pull out a win. It’s early, but there’s a chance!! Here’s hoping I do better in 2023.

Bridgerton is officially back! I’ll be watching an epi tonight. Yay!!!

Doing my best to take care of myself holistically. Happy to report that I’ve been walking more. It’s tiring, but absolutely necessary for my health. I’m also cleaning up my diet.

Opening Day is two weeks away!!! Can’t wait. I love baseball!! ⚾️

Well, time for Netflix. Woo!

Good night.

b

DST is here!

I’m adjusting to the time change. I think I’ll be fine after a week. Feeling a little anxious right now, so I’m having trouble sleeping.

I hope it’ll be a great week for everyone!! There’s a lot going on in the sports world, so I’ve got my eyes on Twitter 24/7. Mainly my teams: Giants, Niners, and Warriors. Hoping the Giants sign a big bat. I think this is the week we say farewell to Jimmy G. I really wish we won with him at QB. 😭 Dray, Klay, and Steph will be playing together again! It hasn’t happened since 2019. 😱 Time flies!!! My goodness.

Work will keep me busy for sure. Need to go on a shopping trip this week. I love food! I’m also exercising again. Walked yesterday and I’ll most likely do my resistance bands a few times a week. Woo! Holding myself accountable.

Covid. I’m still masking everywhere I go. I feel safer that way and I hope people will respect that. I also have chronic conditions and an immunocompromised family member. Back up! 😷 So many questions to ask my medical team. Travel is on there. If not this year, I’m hoping 2023 will be the year I’m back on a plane. I miss it!! ✈️

Still playing a lot of Animal Crossing New Leaf. 😊 Hoping turnip prices are better this week. Last week was atrocious.

Well, I’ll try to sleep soon. Wishing you all an amazing week! ❤️

Bye.

b

Happy February!

I’ll be blogging daily for the month. February holds a special place in my heart. Bday month! Yay 💜

I’m in a somber mood. One, the Jimmy G era is about to close in SF. I really wanted us/him to get #6 for us and it wasn’t in the cards. 😭💔 I know he’s handsome, but he’s such a classy dude. This year was heavy and he carried himself with grace. 3-5 to the NFC Championship Game! Incredible. I wish him all the best wherever he goes. I’ll be rooting for him always. Thanks for everything, Jimmy! You’ll be missed.

Two, our uncle is very sick. I’m trying to hold it together, but I’ve cried a few times. It’s difficult being separated from each other during this time. The pandemic robbed us of time to be together. I pray for his comfort and peace. I’m so grateful that we’ve been able to share memories together since 2012. That was a life changing year and it’s still felt to this day.

There are other things going on with me and I’m honestly taking it a day at a time. I haven’t been super motivated and I feel a bit hopeless at times with the job search. I yearn to go back a few years when I was really happy and on top of the world! Thankfully, I get to chat with my therapist next week so I hope it’s a good session.

I’m eating comfort food, but also trying to establish an exercise routine that’ll work for me. We finally made Filipino breakfast: rice, eggs, tomatoes, spam, and longanisa. 😋 This is why I gotta work out. Lol.

I look forward to the rest of this month! It’s only day 1. I’m going to make the most of it. 💗

I’m hoping to sleep soon. It’s been hard to fall and stay asleep. My thoughts have been racing.

Good night.

b

Some thoughts.

22 days into 2022 and I’m still feeling a bit blah. Year 3 of this pandemic and it’s exhausting! Shout out to all the healthcare workers. Thank you for all that you do.

Applying to remote jobs has been a drag. Staying hopeful, but lacking motivation. I’m so close to completing my certification for my TEFL, but I’ve put that on hold for now. I have until the summer, yet I’d like to complete it before my birthday next month.

This year is a fresh start! I’m excited for what maybe in store. I’m also emo since we haven’t been able to see family due to Omicron. I think it’s subsiding in the Bay Area. Great news! I’m yearning to travel, but that’s still on hold. I’m doing my best to take care of myself holistically. It’s tough, but baby steps.

I took a nap so I’m awake. It’s officially game day. Niners vs. Packers @ Lambeau Field! I’m nervous excited. Not sure if I’ll get much sleep tbh. 🙃 GO NINERS!!!! #FTTB

Wishing you all a great weekend! Stay safe and be well.

Good night.

b

Self care.

I had an eye appointment today and all went well. Decided to swing by Chase Center to see the tree then Japantown for mochi and snacks.

I’ve been dealing with a lot – mentally and emotionally! I know I’m making the best decision for myself. If people can’t accept that, I’m moving on. 💗

Christmas is almost here and I’m trying to make the most of it!! I still need to finish writing some greeting cards.

I’ve slept a lot. Much needed.

Hope everyone is staying safe and healthy! Take care. 💜

b

Happy Birthday to you, Lola! ❤️

She’s 92 today! Time flies. I just want to say thank you for raising us – cooking, cleaning, and keeping us in check. I remember we used to get nagged if we didn’t change out of our school clothes or clean up after dinner. She taught me how to cook rice too!!

We brought brunch over to her this morning. Filipino food! And then more Filipino food for dinner. 🥰 She liked her presents too, a scarf and a beanie. Temperatures are starting to drop and I really want spring to be here already!!!

I’m emo, but I love our Lola. I was the one attached to her whenever she flew back to the Philippines. Full on tears! 🥺😭 Very grateful for our grandparents.

Going to end it here. I have an interview to prep for before bed. I hope everyone is staying safe! Good night. 💜

b