Been tired. Been sleepy. Been running around everywhere!
School is winding down. Work is too. I hope I can do some fun things in a few weeks.
I can’t forget to live in whimsy! 😎
Time to sleep. Good night!!
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Tag: sf
I can’t again.
Sally was diagnosed with mammary cancer yesterday. Brings me back to 2022! I can’t. 😭 I’ve been processing it. I cried before I tackled the day. I was on the verge of tears at work.
She’s such a sweet dog. I’m hoping we get more time with her.
Day by day. That’s the motto.
Then other stuff is bothering me too. I don’t like it when people get in my business and I didn’t ask them for their opinion. 😒😤
I know I’m stubborn. Let me be. Mistakes, lessons, etc.
I’m just sad. Feeling quite anxious and lonely.
Sighhh. I’ll figure it out.
Time to sleep. Good night!
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Life lately.
Been taking a mini break from social media. It’s been nice not looking at stories, lolll.
First drone flight yesterday! I was nervous, anxious, and excited. Classmates were way too close to each other. I was the second person there and everyone started crowding.
Learning a lot! It’s fun. Just need to read more. Did well on my midterm too. 😎 Spring break next week, but I work. Ahh!
Doing my best to show up for myself. My Lyft driver rephrased “I’m tired” to “I’m active”. He also gave me a confidence boost. Something I’ve been lacking these last few weeks.
I still miss him. 🥲
Sutro Tower! 🧡 Looking forward to flying more. The more practice, the better.
Still awake. Should probably ko soon.
Later!
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♓️✨
I’ve been a year older for a week already. I guess I’m wiser. 😂
I’m coming down with a cold and it’s awful. I was sick back in January. Ahh!
Hoping I can stop it. Emergen-C to the rescue.
Life’s been okay. I’m looking forward to the next two weeks. We shall see! ☺️
Time to sleep. Good night.
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I already miss Japan.
I got home on December 2nd. Still dealing with jet lag. Been sleeping on and off. I’m awake now so I’ve decided to type out some thoughts.
I had a beautiful time out there! I didn’t get to do everything so I’m already planning my second visit. ☺️ The last few months were challenging for me, so I was happy to reward myself with a trip.
Long plane rides are torturous for me. I couldn’t stay in my seat either. I had to get up and walk + use the bathroom. Had to keep the blood flowing. Decent seat neighbors. Plane food was pretty good too.
The goal right now is to save and pay off bills! I spent a lot out there, but I have no regrets. Missing all of the food! 😭
The highlight of my trip was seeing Mt. Fuji! Going to Puroland too. I was also able to navigate transit. I’m so proud of myself!!!
Now I’m back home trying to get back to normal life. Missing some people that I hope to see very soon. Life is already changing. Please slow down just for a bit.
Good night. 💜
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Life update.
Hi!
It’s been a few weeks. I’m now two weeks post-op. Things are healing nicely and I got the pathology report/results yesterday during my follow-up. All good news!!! I’m relieved. I’ve also been cleared to fly. I’m ready!!! 🇯🇵
Still not working atm. Might squeeze in a few shifts before my trip. We’ll see.
Need to catch up on school stuff later. It’s been raining heavily in the Bay Area today. Sighhh.
I haven’t slept at all. I was feeling restless. But I’ll try to knockout after this call. I’m sleepy now!!! I wasn’t a few hours ago. Ugh. 😒
Alright. Ttyl!
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5 days.
Surgery day is fast approaching and I’m taking care of everything that I can beforehand. That means laundry, cleaning, making sure I’m getting rest, eating well, and packing a bag for the hospital. I’m nervous! Very anxious too, but I know it’s for the best. I wanted to reach out to someone, but I think it’s best not to right now. 🥲
There’s a lot of pre-surgery prep. Need to remind myself to stay away from certain foods and drinks. Can’t have caffeine this week. Gahhh! Not even salmon. I wanted a poke bowl. Next time.
I know I’ll be in good hands. But I’m praying and thinking positive.
Sports is keeping me preoccupied! Go Blue Jays. Been a Springer fan since his Astro days. BEAT LA!!! 🩵
I’ve also bought hella Niner gear. I am not ashamed. I love my damn team. LFG!!!
It’s my Monday. There’s a ton of stuff I need to deal with academically too. This week feels like an eternity. A day at a time.
I’m ready to ko! Good night.
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Life update.
Doc called me yesterday. More testing needs to be done. I’m being referred to another specialist. I’ve cried a few times already. I’m anxious and I’m scared. Just trying to breathe through it all. 😭
I’m grateful to my medical team, my family, and my friends. I know they’re supporting me as best as they can.
Lots of things are distracting me right now: sports, music, and a bit of retail therapy!
I’m just hoping things work out for me in November. I’m looking forward to getting away.🤞
The eternal sunshine tour presale is in a few hours. I really hope I get tickets!! That would make me so, so happy. PLSSS. 🩵
Well, I bid you all adieu.
Later!
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Health stuff.
I’m retaining water in my belly. Ahh! I’m pretty anxious and nervous about it because the radiologist isn’t sure what’s causing it. He advised to get a CT scan to get a better look.🤞I sent a message to my primary care doctor. Hopefully she gets back to me soon. The plan is to drain it. Knew this wasn’t just in my head. I always questioned why my tummy looked like that in the mirror and in pics. Now I know there’s something going on.
It’s officially a new month and I’m thinking about a lot!!! I want the rest of the year to go well, but feeling meh. 😭 Doing my best to stay positive.
Still in a spat with my siblings. I need my space and my peace right now so I’m not engaging. Byeee.
Work is officially back this week and school! Might teach, but depends on the course and the hours. We’ll see.
Giants baseball right now is 🔥🔥🔥! Keep it up, boys.
Just listening to music. Manifesting Ariana tix for the eternal sunshine tour. PLSSS!!! 🩵 I need them.
Good night.
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Portland 2025.🌲
It was an adventure getting up there, but I made it happen!!! Long story short: the booking agency I went through took my money, but they never finalized the reservation. No wonder no one could find it!!! I got to SFO at 4am to figure things out. I was scrambling trying to finalize another flight. Thankfully I was hella resourceful and I made it happen for myself. I did have to fork over some money, but I made it to the original flight I was supposed to be on. 😮💨
Isay picked me up at PDX! At this point, I hadn’t slept. I was a little delirious. So after Costco, we had breakfast at their place and we were all able to nap for a few hours. I was just happy to settle in. Cookie made my trip that much more fun! She reminded me so much of Beari. 🥹🐶
We did a little bit of shopping. I was really mindful of what I was going to buy. Most of my money went to food and drinks. I was able to buy postcards at Powell’s and Multnomah Falls. Lived out my Twilight dreamzzz. It was amazing!!! 🩵
I was still dealing with dumb thoughts about these stupid people, but it is what it is. I’m in the bay. Byeee! 😒😤
I’ve been trying to catch up on rest and sleep since I’ve returned. I hated my flight back because I was in the middle seat. My neck was also annoying me. I slept wrong the day before so that didn’t help.
I never want to deal with travel mishaps ever again, especially flying!!! I was so irritated. The booking agency kept gaslighting me too. “The reservation is there.” No, it’s not. Stop pissing me off. Had to file a claim with my bank. Never fucking again!!!
Anyway, I’m tired. Giants won! Woo. Trying to enjoy my time off. Before you know it, I’ll be back to work and school. I am not ready. I need some fun and spontaneity in my life. 😏
Good night.
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let me think. 