LET ME THINK 17.

I’m gonna switch this one up a bit. Anyway, I’m sleepy, but I can’t sleep. Not until I get this off of my chest.

Am I hard to love? Am I looking for love in all of the wrong places? Am I being proactive about love? Some of the many questions that go on in my anxiety filled mind.

I think I do my best to be my most genuine self and sometimes it still doesn’t feel enough. I feel like putting myself out there will just be disappointing every time. Am I not opening myself up enough? I have my reservations. I’ve been hurt in the past, so my walls are very high. I might’ve mentioned this in a previous entry. I easily am hurt when people disrespect me. At times, I feel like I’m not being taken seriously. On top of that, I’ve encountered people who pose as your wing person only to have them betray you. I understand that everyone isn’t the same, but that one incident stung. I really thought I could trust her. I revisit it a lot and I wish I could’ve done it differently. Instead of telling her that it was okay. Because it wasn’t.

In the words of Kylo Ren, “Let the past die.” Oh believe me, I’m trying.

Now I’m ready to sleep.

Good night.

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MY WEEK IN PHOTOS: APRIL 30-MAY 6, 2018.

Family is not an important thing, it’s everything. -Michael J. Fox

There was a lot of reflection, processing, and crying this week. Grief is a part of life and everyone deals with it differently. Being with family during somber times is comforting.

Despite the sadness, I carried on with the rest of my week. We took Beari to the vet for her ultrasound, I finally rode one of the new Muni trains, and volunteered for another Growing Up Asian In America Ceremony at the Asian Art Museum. It’s always an empowering space.

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MY WEEK IN PHOTOS: APRIL 16-22, 2018.

SPRING BREAK!!! πŸ˜€

What did I do all week? I slept in, stayed up, hung out, and kept up with my walking goals. I also volunteered. It was nice to have a week off.

I also went to the 51st Annual NCCBF (Northern California Cherry Blossom Festival) and reconnected with old friends. It was great! And the PHA Walk. YES!!

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MY WEEK IN PHOTOS: APRIL 9-15, 2018.

The highlights of my week were attending TWO Giants games and the Glossier pop-up at Rhea’s Cafe! I got to spend time with Bianca and Loretta. Sister time is quality time. πŸ™‚

I watched more baseball on TV. That’s a given! And it was the last week of work before spring break. Hurrah!

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MY WEEK IN PHOTOS: MARCH 26-APRIL 1, 2018.

It was a short (work) week for me! Time flew, but it was nice to have a few days off. The highlight of my week was catching up with college friends and meeting Blake. It’s been a while. So much laughter and jokes.

And of course, Easter! Spring is my favorite season. Baseball returns, longer days of sunshine, and sometimes less layers. LOL.

Photo credit to Dale for the featured image.

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