Life update.

Things have been up and down since last Saturday. I had to call out for work to tend to a family emergency. Grandma is stable, but it’s a day at a time for her. 🥺 I’ve accepted that she’s now 93. I miss the days when she would cook, clean, sew, and do her laundry. She raised all of us and I am forever indebted to her.

I wish I had more time. I’m so busy with school and work. These last few days have allowed me to slow down and really spend quality time together. I will always make the time! 💗

I so want a do over. If only it could be that easy! Just reminiscing a lot lately.

Trying to challenge myself with something, but I’m scared. Fear of failure and rejection is what’s stopping me. 😫 It would be cool to be friends with someone new, but I’m scared. I’m so awkward.

Well, that’s my life update. Not much else to say.

Good night.

b

💙💛🐴

Much needed catch up sesh with my college friend, Diana. She’s in town and it’s been so long since we last saw each other! 🫶🏼

Good times and lots of words of encouragement. I’ll try my best! 😆 Just need to continue to be brave.

It was a very long, but productive day for me. Hoping to get plenty of rest. It’s going to be a long week, but I’m looking forward to what it may possibly bring.

I plan to watch the first epi of beef. Woo!

And the Giants beat LA! Shut those bums out. Byeee. 🖤🧡

Good night.

b

Turning the page.

I did a lot of new and exciting things at 35! I traveled to Boston, went to a Warriors championship parade, attended live shows, and went back to school. With all the highs, there were lows.

I lost a big piece of myself when Beari passed away last year. It’s not the same without her, but honoring her memory in every way that I can.

I’m hopeful for 36! I plan to do more. And maybe I’ll even surprise myself. 😎

Good night.

b

The final days.

I didn’t think we’d be saying goodbye so soon. Beari’s cancer has spread and we’re out of options. I wish we had more time, but we had five great years together.

We’re planning for her best week ever! The beach, her fave foods, and whatever else we can think of to send her off.

Losing a pet is never easy. But seeing her in pain is really tough. 😭

I wish her peace and comfort. We love you, Beari. ❤️🐻❤️

I am broken.

b

Back again.

Last weekend I attended Outside Lands! I haven’t been back since 2009. I was so happy and excited to be back again. I spent the day with my sister. We listened to amazing music, ate awesome food, and enjoyed the weather! (We just got exposure notifications for Covid yesterday! So we tested at home and it’s negative. We were masked for most of the festival so🤞). I plan to get tested again.

Planet Booty was fun to listen to as we ate lunch. I was most excited for Griff! We walked over to her set as soon as we were done eating. I wasn’t front row, but I was close enough. This was her first American music festival. I’d love to see her in the UK one of these days. Bummed I didn’t get to meet my friends, but there’s always next time.

We ended up staying for Pusha T’s entire set. I had to sit down and mellow out. I was waiting for Weezer!!! 🥰 They were incredible. I wasn’t in front for that either, but that’s okay. We decided to eat before the last few sets. Quesabirria tacos 😋 So good!

We split our time between ILLENIUM and Post Malone. Glad we caught both! I love live music. Planning to attend again next year, but it depends on the lineup. It was a successful OSL! I’ll share more pics in another post.

Just really thankful I was able to experience it again. 💜

Happy Thursday to all!

b

Happy June!

This month is flying and I’m making the most of it! 🙂 I caught up with friends on Thursday and tried Doppio Zero. Never been before so I wanted to try! I had the oxtail fettuccine and a Bellini. The food was absolutely amazing. I’ll be back for sure!!!

It was nice to see everyone again. We haven’t seen each other in months. Really thankful it all worked out. Afterwards we went to get ice cream. Salt & Straw!!! I went with a new flavor – Baked Brie and Fig Cheesecake. A very nice combo!🍦

I’m almost done with my TEFL cert! Better late than never!!!! That’s my motto. Slowly getting to where I need to be. Taking chances and staying confident despite my anxiety. Breathe.

Warriors won! 2-2 and back to the bay. Yee!!! 💙💛 Giants beat LA. 😎🖤🧡

I’m excited for a lot of things. Can’t wait! Hoping to sleep soon, but I’m such a night owl.

Happy weekend to all! 💗

b

It’s brutal out here.

I decided to venture out and stop by the sour tour bus experience in front of Bill Graham Civic Auditorium on Friday! 💜 I didn’t have a ticket to Olivia Rodrigo’s show, but I wanted to make a day of it. There were a lot of lines and waiting, but I got everything I wanted! Got my chance at the photo booth and bought a tour tee + socks.

Some things were already sold out like hoodies, sweatpants, and jean jackets. There were so many people! Kind of overwhelming, but I survived. The merch line wrapped around the corner. There was another barricade for those attending the show. People started showing up before 8am. Wristbands for that line were distributed on Thursday.

The weather was decent. It was sunny, but then it got gloomy & cold fast. Thankfully I wore enough layers!!!

I wish I took more selfies, but that’s okay. My sisters couldn’t make it out. Next time! Hopefully her next concert will be at an arena. Chase Center would be cool!

I ended up taking Muni to get home. I haven’t been on a train since March 2020. Ultimate throwback!!! I felt pretty safe. I won’t ride it often, but it’s an option for me. Saves money for sure!!

Olivia’s music is great! Can’t wait for her new stuff. The sour tour continues in Europe.✨

Alright time to sleep. Good night!

b

Little Mix. 💗

They’re officially on hiatus and I’m feeling a lot of things. I’m sad, but looking forward to their solo careers! I wish Jade, Leigh-Anne, and Perrie all the best. I hope they crush it!!! 🥰

I set my alarm for 11:20am yesterday. I knew I had to be up by noon. They were running fashionably late. Once the global stream started, I was ecstatic! I never got to see them live so this was the next best thing. Part of me wanted to fly to London, but I had to weigh out my options. And unfortunately I didn’t have the budget to fly. So however long this hiatus lasts, I’ll be ready!!! Planning to save now so I can hopefully see them in 2-3 years.

They sang all of our faves. I watched the stream with my twin sis! We’ve been fans since the start. I lost it during Between Us and Secret Love Song. They’re role models on what it means to be an ally and beyond. They’ve changed my life in so many ways. When I listen to their music I feel like a brand new person. Confident and unstoppable! 💜 A lot has changed for me in the last decade and my only hope is that I continue to grow and carve out my own path.

I already miss them so much! But here’s to the next 10 years. Little Mix Forever! I love y’all to pieces. Would be cool to eventually meet all of them in the future. Until then, I’ll plan for our next trip to London. Covid is still very real so it’s best to be prepared in my case.

So here’s my vow
Starting from here and now
Nothing comes between us
Nothing comes between us
I swear that we won’t lose this thing we found
‘Cause love will never leave us
Nothing comes between us, between us
🦋

Thank you for the music, Little Mix! Continue to shine.✨

Good night.

b