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Day 13.

I’m feeling a bit better today. Clarity. And a nice nap helped me out. After many delays, my medication is now in my hands. Thank goodness! I’m so very grateful to my medical team for always being clutch. They really are miracle workers! Shoutout to my pharmacy too for being so patient and helpful with me when I was super upset. That happened yesterday. I already feel better after taking my regular dose. Lastly, thank you to UPS. It was tough, but y’all pulled through during these chaotic times.

I’m also super grateful to my supportive friends and family for letting me vent and checking in. Hi Bianca, Jamie, and Brea! 💕

Broad City is bringing all the laughs. The final season! I’ve got five more episodes to watch. I’ll space it out. 🙂 Gotta be productive these next few days. It doesn’t have to be big tasks. Progress is progress. I’m thinking of taking up a new hobby. Yay!

Hope all your Wednesdays went well. I’m still pretty tired. The stress these last few days have been unreal, but I made it.

Until next time. Good night!

b

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Day 12.

Invalidation. That’s all I need to say right now. This day has taken an emotional toll on me. You think people have your back, but at the end of the day they don’t. “Because it isn’t cancer.” What a dumb thing to say. Ignorance at its finest and quite offensive. This isn’t the time to pin health conditions against each other. Every condition matters and we fall into the vulnerable population during this pandemic. In solidarity with all of you. ❤️

I wish I could run away, but there’s nowhere to go.

I’m mad. I’m frustrated, I’m anxious. I’m scared.

Good night.

b

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LET ME THINK 31.

It’s been a while since I’ve done this. I’m writing to let go of my anxiety. I’m feeling miserable about myself. I’m trying to breathe. Trying to be rational. But my overthinking always gets the best of me. I hate it.

I’m in dire need of my heart medication. I’ve never been without it. I’m so upset. I’ve cried a bit. When I’m overwhelmed, I cry.

Holding onto hope. There’s so much going on in the world, but this medication is essential to my wellbeing. I’m scared. I’ve contacted my team, I’m in touch with the pharmacy, and I will give UPS a call in the morning.

You’re swamped. I get it. But I’m on the road to getting myself more sick if I don’t take my meds. The life of a chronic condition patient. I don’t have anything to hide. This has been my life since I was 17 and then diagnosed with my heart condition at 20. This pandemic just reemphasizes the struggles of chronic condition patients. This is our reality. Whenever this pandemic passes, our realities remain the same. Struggle and survival.

I’m going to try to sleep, but I don’t know if I can.

b

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Day 10.

It was a really mellow Sunday for me. I slept a lot and I woke up to eat. Nourishment is important. 🙂 I had toast with peanut butter, a banana, and decaf Tim Hortons coffee.

I rewatched the 2016 NCAA National Championship – Villanova vs. UNC. Still so epic! One of the best games I’ve ever seen.

And then I took a nap. Much needed. Had dinner a little late, but it was worth it. I had an instant pho bowl. We got it from Costco. Pretty legit. Finished leftovers from Wingstop.

I’m hoping to have a much more productive week. I wish you all well.

Good night.

b

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Day 6.

I was pretty tired today, so I slept in. My sleeping schedule is messed up. I did take care of some important business regarding bills especially my student loans. 🙏🏼 Family and friends checked in on us today too. Everyone is doing well and I hope the same for everyone else.

I watched the news. I like to stay informed. And when I’m not watching TV, I’m on Twitter getting my info.

It was a pretty chill day. I did watch Crazy Beautiful You. Filipino movies always make me laugh. Forevermore was my fave back in the day. Jericho Rosales! ❤️

Dinner was good – Spam, eggs, and rice. Comfort food ftw!

Lastly, I finally watched Doja Cat’s mv for Say So. Super fun and retro! The song is so catchy. And that dude 😍 but he’s supposedly a mystery. Lol.

That was my Wednesday. Until next time.

b

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Day 5.

Anxiety was real today. I mean I create my own problems by overthinking. All of a sudden, it’s this entire domino effect. Calm down, B. Lol. Thankfully, I was able to place an order for my medication because the test was processed. Whew. Delivery is scheduled for Friday. Hurrah!

I slept in again today. I had Chipotle for lunch. Leftovers for dinner. I’ve got a list of shows to watch on Hulu and Netflix. Becoming is really good btw. Tackling my reading list too. I watched The Wedding Singer tonight. I got to catch up with friends via text as well. Oh yeah, I also had Boba Guys as a treat. Still supporting businesses from afar. ☺️ And I can’t forget The Powerpuff Girls! I miss the 90s. Thee best.

Trying my best to stay positive. Doing my part social distancing! Keep it up, folks.

Be safe and be well. ❤️

b

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Day 4.

Today officially starts my two weeks off from work. Sigh. I miss working, but it’s for the best.

I left the house today for a short time. I had to go to the lab to get my bloodwork done. No one was at the lab. Not typical for a Monday. 😬 It was nice to leave the house for a bit.

Shelter-in-place has been ordered for San Francisco. The twin and I will not be able to leave unless it’s for essential business, such as our doctor’s appointments. Social distancing is important! I will continue to emphasize that. Please do it for the greater good, especially for the vulnerable populations. Please be safe and well!

3/16 isn’t an easy day. Three years ago, our dog passed away. I always reflect and remember him. He was a loyal companion. He’ll never be forgotten. We love you, Laki! 💛

Taking it easy for now. I’m going to make a list of things to watch and read. Time to tackle that. I also want to clean and organize. Hoping for a nice and mellow week. But it’s tough trying to make ends meet for me personally. My anxiety is through the roof.

Take care!

b

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Day 2.

I give credit to the original artist for the movie poster. I was unable to find the name on myhotposters.com. I’m in the middle of the movie. I have about an hour remaining. I like it so far. I can resonate with the film. I miss the old SF. The familiarity and the wonders of it. It’s kinda lost its spark, but I will always love the city. No one can take away my memories and what I remember.

Good old Saturday. I slept in. I felt alright once I had to really get up. I decided to make myself some fried eggs, sliced up an avocado, and topped it off with the everything but the elote seasoning from Trader Joe’s. I really like it! Definitely a nice addition to eggs. Then I had strawberries as a small dessert. My favorite fruit!

I decided to wash some dishes too. Washing dishes is my favorite chore. I put my music on and I’m in the zone. It’s calming for me.

Had Taco Bell for linner. Nachos BellGrande is my classic order & a supreme taco. 👌🏼 Perfection.

I was on social media for a bit. It helps with connection during this time. I even got to chat with some friends via text.

My last thoughts for the night. I will continue to support small businesses! I admire their craftsmanship and the love they put into their work. Thank you!

Planning to finish up the movie. Hope you’ve all had a good day. 💜

b

Edit: The movie poster is by Akiko Stehrenberger. She can be found on Akikomatic.com. I found her work on IG. It’s a dope poster. 👍🏼

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It’s almost here.

Super Bowl Sunday! Ahhhh. I’m nervous, anxious, and excited. It’s going to be a good one.

The city has been lit in red & gold. It’s so pretty! I want one more photo shoot with city hall. I’m ready! 😂❤️💛

I’m thankful to be home this time around. Our last SB appearance, I was in Davis for a youth conference. Shout out to PYC! 🇵🇭❤️

I get to relax for now. I love the weekend.

Good night.

GO NINERS! ❤️💛❤️💛

b

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