LET ME THINK 21.

  1. Disneyland, you’re always so much fun! But I’m drained by the end of it. Until next time. ❀️
  2. My summer vacation is winding down. It’s almost back to school!
  3. I must catch up on blog entries. I’ve said it time and time again. I really do need to bounce back.
  4. I’ve watched To All The Boys I’ve Loved Before multiple times. I absolutely love the movie. I want my own Peter!!
  5. I’m pretty out of it. Time to sleep. Good night!

xoxo,

b

LET ME THINK 20.

There’s a lot going on, but it’s all good! One day at a time. πŸ™‚

I’m doing my best to enjoy my time off! I love being busy, but we all need a break now and then.

I’m prepping for my medical procedure. Looking at the positives. I should be okay. But man, do I miss regular food. And wine πŸ˜›

Always a great time catching up with friends! So much positivity all around ❀️ I’m so grateful.

Well, this is good night. Happy weekend to all!!

b

LET ME THINK 19.

I’m sleepless sometimes and then I crash. These last few weeks have been something. I must confront everything at this point. Avoidance doesn’t work. 😦 Staying positive is difficult. I must block out the noise and negativity. I tell myself to keep going and I will.

Prayer has helped me. Reading is also comforting.

Please send good vibes.Β 

Thank you.

b

LET ME THINK 18.

It was a long week. The weekend was restless for me.

The next couple of weeks are going to test my patience, mentality, and focus. I just have to keep going! #resilience Family is keeping me afloat. There will be better days. I know it!!!

On another note, I’ve been thinking about love. All my past crushes and unrequited love. I wish them all well! But wouldn’t it be crazy if I randomly bumped into one of them and suddenly we reconnected?! Yeah, right. Haha. Stranger things have happened.

This is also a reminder that I can do anything! Reach for the stars.

I’m tired. Good night and have a great week!

b

LET ME THINK 17.

I’m gonna switch this one up a bit. Anyway, I’m sleepy, but I can’t sleep. Not until I get this off of my chest.

Am I hard to love? Am I looking for love in all of the wrong places? Am I being proactive about love? Some of the many questions that go on in my anxiety filled mind.

I think I do my best to be my most genuine self and sometimes it still doesn’t feel enough. I feel like putting myself out there will just be disappointing every time. Am I not opening myself up enough? I have my reservations. I’ve been hurt in the past, so my walls are very high. I might’ve mentioned this in a previous entry. I easily am hurt when people disrespect me. At times, I feel like I’m not being taken seriously. On top of that, I’ve encountered people who pose as your wing person only to have them betray you. I understand that everyone isn’t the same, but that one incident stung. I really thought I could trust her. I revisit it a lot and I wish I could’ve done it differently. Instead of telling her that it was okay. Because it wasn’t.

In the words of Kylo Ren, “Let the past die.” Oh believe me, I’m trying.

Now I’m ready to sleep.

Good night.

b

LET ME THINK 16.

  1. This day has come. I’m so sad. Today is our cousin’s funeral. I don’t want to say goodbye. 😦
  2. I’ve been processing the last few days. Family is everything.
  3. Relatives still can’t tell Bianca and I apart. Lol. #twinlife #twins
  4. It’s been great catching up with everyone.
  5. Maria(n) was strong and I will continue to be.

Good night. I have to be up in a few hours.

b

LET ME THINK 15.

  1. It’s been a while since I’ve done this.
  2. Heavy week for me. I’m filled with sadness, but comforted with peace.
  3. I’ll be seeing family this weekend. Three days of togetherness. Much needed.
  4. I’m learning to let the little things go. After Marian’s passing, life isn’t the same.
  5. We miss her so much. I wish we had more time. Where did the years go?

Good night!

b

LET ME THINK 14.

  1. Still pumped because of our extra innings victory. Go Giants! πŸ™‚ #beatla #andrewmcclutchen
  2. Why does the weekend always go by so quickly?
  3. Looking forward to the warm weather today!
  4. I’ve been cutting out junk food. It’s so hard! Especially sweets. Ahhhhh.
  5. I dislike losing my things. Where did I put my cardigan? Random, I know.

Have a great week! Good night.

b

LET ME THINK 12.

  1. Beer and pizza is always a good pick me up. Chill times with great people.
  2. I love dogs! I really do.
  3. I need more Easter candy in my life. Time to bulk up.
  4. This time of the year is always tough. Laki’s death anniversary is tomorrow. It’ll be a year since he went away. 😦
  5. Keep your loved ones close. Always.

Good night. It’ll be a busy day!

b