Day 435.

TGIF! It’s been a week. I made it!

I’m feeling sad right now. My sports teams 😭💔 Warriors were eliminated and the Giants lost. I cannot!!! I’ll be okay. It just stings. Is it football season yet?!!!

It was a typical day. I did the usual. I was waiting for the Sanrio drops and they’re all cute tees! I might buy one. We’ll see. I was a responsible adult today too and paid some bills.

ACNH update: The usual business on Mango. Didn’t sell all my turnips because the prices were too low. Paid some of my loan too.

Today was also put on purple day! I wore my aware necklace and my purple Reeboks. For my fellow Lupus warriors 💜

My assignment was finally graded. I’m going to take my quiz before bed. I’ll be studying all weekend too! I got this.

Have a great weekend! Take care.

Good night.

b

Day 424.

Things are normalizing. But I’ve gotten used to blogging since the pandemic and I really don’t want to stop. We’ll see. 🙃🥲

Happy Monday! The weekend came and went. It’s already been a busy start to the week. I gotta study loads tonight! I fell asleep.

  • I woke up to buy a bag. Secured said bag. Yay! 👜💜
  • I went back to sleep afterwards. I got up in time to get ready for work. I was sluggish.
  • Work went well! It was a really warm day. I’m starting to tan which is great. I decided to sign up for the school’s photo project. I hope it turns out well.
  • I ate pizza and leftovers for dinner. Hurrah! Garlic knots were so good.
  • Animal Crossing update: I sold some turnips. I also helped my sister with some terraforming and waterscaping. It turned out well! I’m trying to work on other parts of my island too. Patience!
  • Today is also World Lupus Day! 💜 I was diagnosed at 17. Can’t stop, won’t stop is still my mentality. But when I’m tired, I’m going to listen to my body and nap! Some Lupus Warriors have passed on so I keep fighting in their memory. 💜💜💜💜🤍
  • Warriors and Giants win! 💙💛🖤🧡
  • Going to get ready to study. Must get a lot done tonight!!

I hope it was a nice day for everyone. Take care!!

Good night.

b

Day 359.

Happy Saturday!! I haven’t done much today. It’s been very mellow.

  • I’m reflecting on life and memories for most of the day. Our Lola is getting older and I hope she’s doing okay. I’m just getting sentimental. 😭❤️
  • I got to sleep in and recharge.
  • I’ve been watching tv all day. We’re currently watching She’s All That. One of our faves!!! 💗
  • Animal Crossing update: Usual business on Mango. I sold the rest of my turnips. Hoping to do more with my island tomorrow.
  • I also started playing Luigi’s Mansion 3. I need to read up on it since I’m not very good at playing it yet. We’ll see.
  • I think the nausea has subsided. I hope it doesn’t happen again because it’s a terrible feeling. Most likely vaccine side effects and my current state.
  • Hoping to rest up again for tomorrow. Hopefully I can get in some exercise.
  • And I remember my friend Sarah today. Missing you lots. 💜🤍
  • Alright, back to the movie.

Hope y’all had a nice one. Take care!

Good night.

b

Day 299.

Happy Tuesday! How was your day?

  • Watched more Gossip Girl! The first season is amazing. I’m going to stick with it and try to finish all the seasons.
  • I didn’t sleep very well or right away because I was anxious for my driving lesson. I haven’t driven since last month.
  • Thankfully, my driving instructor understood and my lesson went well. Still some things to improve on, but I hope I can practice even more. Maybe this weekend? One of my goals is to drive to Japantown. 🙂
  • I finished all of my work trainings! Yay!!! Just need to take care of my COVID test and I’ll be set to return to work next week.
  • Spent time with the dogs. 💕
  • Still thinking of when we can all fly and travel again.
  • Highlight of my day: Followed up with my medical team. I love catching up with everyone from clinic! Thankful for their care and guidance. 💜
  • Savoring my last few days of break. It came and went! 😢
  • Lastly, Happy Birthday to you, Lolo (grandpa)! We never got the chance to meet and get to know you here in the States. Whenever you are – I hope you’re happy and having a grand time! RIP 💗

That was my Tuesday. 😁 Hope y’all had a nice one. Take care!

Good night.

b

Day 203.

I dealt with a lot of pain today. I was sleepy and fatigued for most of my day. I’m boring. 😂

Good news: I got my sunnies face the perfector stick! I can’t wait to try it. Maybe tomorrow? You can blur your skin and add balm. The dewy look.

Animal Crossing update: It’s October! Spooky season is here. I have a mini pumpkin patch on my island. Hopefully the pumpkins grow in a few days. Can’t wait to decorate everything orange and black. 🎃 Bud is gone and Vivian moves in tomorrow.

I watched postseason baseball today. I caught the A’s and the Padres. Everyone except our rivals. Go teams! 😎

I had a very productive session with my therapist today. I was almost on the verge of tears, but I stopped myself. I am valid. I am worthy. I will not dwell on the past. I tried. Now it’s time to move on. 💪🏼 I can!

Today is also the start of Lupus Awareness Month! Sarah used to always spread visibility and awareness. We’ll continue the story. We miss her so much. 💜

I’ve got my flu shot appointment tomorrow. I’m so ready! The AQI is getting bad again. I hope it won’t take long. I’ll walk fast.

That was my Thursday. Hoping to do more this upcoming weekend! Take care, y’all.

Good night.

b

Day 80.

Happy Sunday! I can’t believe it’s June tomorrow. May tested me, but I made it.

My heart and my body have been heavy. My mind has been restless. Although I’m not physically able to march and protest with the country, I’m in solidarity online especially with my social media platforms and my blog. It makes me so mad when people say a lot of ignorant things online. Racism is learned behavior. Let’s dismantle it!!! #BlackLivesMatter

I played some Animal Crossing and I practiced my uke. Video games and music make me happy.

I took care of some chores too. But I need to tackle my room. I really want to be productive this week. It’s a new month!

Lastly, I want to remember my friend Sarah. I miss her dearly and I think of her often. We love you. 💜💜💜💜💜 #lupuswarriors

Hope you all had a nice Sunday. Take care!

Good night.

b

Day 13.

I’m feeling a bit better today. Clarity. And a nice nap helped me out. After many delays, my medication is now in my hands. Thank goodness! I’m so very grateful to my medical team for always being clutch. They really are miracle workers! Shoutout to my pharmacy too for being so patient and helpful with me when I was super upset. That happened yesterday. I already feel better after taking my regular dose. Lastly, thank you to UPS. It was tough, but y’all pulled through during these chaotic times.

I’m also super grateful to my supportive friends and family for letting me vent and checking in. Hi Bianca, Jamie, and Brea! 💕

Broad City is bringing all the laughs. The final season! I’ve got five more episodes to watch. I’ll space it out. 🙂 Gotta be productive these next few days. It doesn’t have to be big tasks. Progress is progress. I’m thinking of taking up a new hobby. Yay!

Hope all your Wednesdays went well. I’m still pretty tired. The stress these last few days have been unreal, but I made it.

Until next time. Good night!

b

Day 12.

Invalidation. That’s all I need to say right now. This day has taken an emotional toll on me. You think people have your back, but at the end of the day they don’t. “Because it isn’t cancer.” What a dumb thing to say. Ignorance at its finest and quite offensive. This isn’t the time to pin health conditions against each other. Every condition matters and we fall into the vulnerable population during this pandemic. In solidarity with all of you. ❤️

I wish I could run away, but there’s nowhere to go.

I’m mad. I’m frustrated, I’m anxious. I’m scared.

Good night.

b

LET ME THINK 31.

It’s been a while since I’ve done this. I’m writing to let go of my anxiety. I’m feeling miserable about myself. I’m trying to breathe. Trying to be rational. But my overthinking always gets the best of me. I hate it.

I’m in dire need of my heart medication. I’ve never been without it. I’m so upset. I’ve cried a bit. When I’m overwhelmed, I cry.

Holding onto hope. There’s so much going on in the world, but this medication is essential to my wellbeing. I’m scared. I’ve contacted my team, I’m in touch with the pharmacy, and I will give UPS a call in the morning.

You’re swamped. I get it. But I’m on the road to getting myself more sick if I don’t take my meds. The life of a chronic condition patient. I don’t have anything to hide. This has been my life since I was 17 and then diagnosed with my heart condition at 20. This pandemic just reemphasizes the struggles of chronic condition patients. This is our reality. Whenever this pandemic passes, our realities remain the same. Struggle and survival.

I’m going to try to sleep, but I don’t know if I can.

b

Day 1.

Today was originally an in service day for work. So until Sunday it’s like a regular weekend. But starting Monday 3/16 up until the 27th work will be closed. It could potentially be for longer, but I’m hoping and praying it isn’t.

I obviously don’t have control over the situation and the same can be said for others. I’m trying to remain positive during this turbulent time in our nation + the world. It’s definitely different from my routine.

I’m planning to work on myself, but at the top of my list is rest & recharging. I will also tackle driving. These next few days will be me time. I also fall into the immunocompromised demographic. I’ve always been good about washing my hands. Touching my face is a different story. I will miss social gatherings, but social distancing is absolutely critical. I plan to blog everyday that I’m off. That way I can remember and reflect.

Sunny has been keeping me busy. I love his films! I Fine..Thank You..Love You is the best. I can watch it forever honestly. 😊🥰

Wishing you all well. Please be safe! ❤️

b