Day 185.

Football Sunday! It’s back. ❤️💛 The Niners struggled. It’s only one game. Adjustments will be made. Go Niners! 🙂

And the Giants were swept in SD. 😬 Hoping they pick themselves up. These upcoming games will be a challenge. Go Giants! 🖤🧡

Anxiety has been up and down. Still haven’t replied. 🙃

I slept in. I washed the dishes. Ordered boba. I’m hungry again. Might eat a bit more before bed.

Animal Crossing update: Had to time travel again to buy my turnips. I bought 30 this time around. Hoping to make a nice profit this week. My island is still a mess. 😂

I’m going to play my uke. Eventually respond to this text and tidy up. It’s a new week! I’m feeling pretty good. 💜

Hoping my assignment gets approved for my class. I’ve been waiting to take the test, but it’s still locked. Ugh. I think I mentioned this in yesterday’s entry.

Have a great week, everyone! Take care.

Good night.

b

Day 184.

Happy Saturday! I slept in longer than usual. Insomnia. So I stayed up watching the Amanda Knox documentary. It was interesting, but I still have a bunch of questions.

Just finished my workout. 600 squats done for the week! Week 3 ✅ I’m staying consistent. Some days can be really hard, but I stay motivated. I can do anything! It’s all in the mind. Focus.

Animal Crossing update: I time traveled to buy this sweater dress from the Able Sisters. Lol. I also bought a climbing wall. Not sure where to put it on my island. Maybe near the playground? We’ll see. Still paying my loan off. I’m almost there.

I miss baseball. Giants are still postponed. But supposedly the first test that was taken yesterday was a false positive. So we’ll see. 🖤🧡

I ate some really good Chinese food today. Before that I was overthinking. My usual routine. Lol. 🙃 I was brave and sent a text. It’s been more than a week since we talked. Not sure where this is going. But I’m here for the ride. I need to give myself credit for being brave and talking to someone new. We just can’t meet in person and it sucks.

I’m trying to make progress with my class, but my assignment needs to be graded first. Argh! I just wanted to take the test and be done with it. Maybe Monday?

Hopefully I don’t sleep too late. Might practice driving tomorrow. Football is back. Exciting! I think it’ll be a go come game time. It all depends on the air quality. Go Niners! ❤️💛

Still figuring things out. I hope I can clean tomorrow. It’s been a while. Lol.

That was my Saturday. Hope y’all had a nice one!

Good night.

b

Day 182.

I didn’t do much today. Happy Thursday! I’m glad it’s almost the weekend. I need to recollect myself badly. 🙃

I’m really digging Julie and the Phantoms on Netflix. It dropped today. I’m already in the middle of s1. The cast is great!

I’m about to exercise in a bit. I opened Snapchat earlier today and it was a baseball memory! A year ago today I was at Oracle Park. I miss going to sporting events. I’m a little torn right now with a life decision. Not sure what to do! 😭 I’ll figure it out.

Animal Crossing update: nothing new. Still paying off my loan. Forgot to buy the cool washer at the store. Oh well. Maybe it’ll be back in a few weeks?

Giants lose in SD. Winning streak snapped. Pablo was DFA’d. I’m so sad about that. He’ll always be a Giants legend. Thanks for the memories, Pablo! You did well, kid. 🖤🧡

Btw Saweetie’s recent post on IG and Twitter made me cackle. I was so entertained. 🇵🇭❤️😆!

Time to work! If I’m feeling ambitious, I might study. If not, I can shelve it for tomorrow.

Good night.

b

Day 181.

Today was a trip. I woke up to an orange sky. It felt like time didn’t even exist. I was in awe. But the reality is – California is burning. Our beautiful state has already burned 2M acres this year. It’s heartbreaking. We must take care of Mother Earth! Climate change is here and it’s real. 😭💔🌎

I was so tired from the night before that I slept through the day. I even missed my appointment with my therapist. Thankfully I rescheduled for this Friday! 😄 But I’m so embarrassed. 🙈 I honestly thought it was tomorrow or next week. I hope she isn’t too pissed.

Animal Crossing update: Redd stopped by and I bought a new piece of art. Hurrah! Still paying off my loan. Almost there!!!

Giants win! We took both games from the streaking Mariners. We’re looking good. I don’t want to expect too much since we’ve got a long stretch of games with potential postseason contenders. A game at a time is my motto. Go Giants!! 🖤🧡

I’m still very much in my feelings and I’m trying to get through this funk. I exercised to get my mind off of things. I’m keeping up with it! 💪🏼

I watched Last Christmas again. It always makes me cry! I think this is my 4th viewing. Henry Golding is so charming. Emilia Clarke is really cool too. I love them together!! 💕

Well, I’m hoping to do more with my time tomorrow. I really need to finish my assignment and test for my class. I’ve been avoiding it. The anxiety is real, but I know I can do this!

Have a great night. Take care!

b

Day 179.

Happy Labor Day! Thank you to all essential workers during this unprecedented time. ❤️

So the dating scene is scarce. I matched with a mutual friend and that went nowhere. I’m still a little hesitant to continue contact with the guy I guess I’m still keeping in touch with. He’s seeking out marriage. I’m seeking out a relationship. My coworker has told me not to stress about my conversations with him. Do I just reach out again? Sigh. Dating app fatigue is real. I got some pointers from Bumble support, but no luck. I’m going to verify my profile tomorrow. Let’s see if my matches improve.

I went for a walk today to help with some groceries and I needed to clear my head. It was a beautiful day! 🥰

I took a nap once we got back. I couldn’t deal with the warmth at home. I had a cooling blanket. Kinda helped.

Animal Crossing update: so close to paying off my loan! I hope I pay it off this week.

I gotta buckle down and study some more this week. I’m sure I’ll also be provided with a work update. Ah! I’m a little stressed.

Time to take care of trash night. I got my squats done too! ✅ My workout routine is about 15 minutes with my resistance bands.

Still trying to remain positive during this pandemic. I’m up and down. That’s the truth.

Hope y’all had a nice one. Football is pretty much here. Go Niners! ❤️💛 And the Giants beat the Dbacks again. 😎🖤🧡 Back at .500!!!

Good night.

b

Day 177.

I’m still in this weird state of trying to move on and feeling sad. Maybe I am overthinking, but it’s like if a guy was really interested, he’d do anything to stay present and keep connected. Sighhh. I don’t know. I did match with some new people, so that’s cool. And I can always rely on my friends for advice and affirmation. ❤️

I napped the warm day away. I did have some matcha-vanilla swirl with boba from Matcha Cafe Maiko. One of the best places for dessert! Food makes me happy. 😋

I caught the last half of the Giants game. Welcome back, MadBum! Wish he was still with us, but all the best to him. We got the W! 😎🖤🧡

Animal Crossing update: sold items, found the message in a bottle, and paid off part of my loan. I must remember to buy turnips tomorrow!

I’m going to study a bit more tonight. I have energy to get through one more section. I finished my exercise for the day too. 600 squats done for the week! It’s a rest day for me tomorrow. I’ll clean and continue studying.

I wanted to watch a movie tonight, but I might just save it. We’ll see how I’m feeling.

That was my Saturday. I’m thinking of adding another eyeshadow palette to my collection, but I don’t need it. 😩 Conflicted.

Hope y’all had a nice one. Take care!

Good night.

b

Day 176.

Happy Friday!

I’ve been in a weird headspace. Maybe I’m expecting too much? I’m kinda in a funk again, but I’m still getting work done. I just overthink about everything. Sighhh.

I’m making progress with my class. Every second counts. Yes! And I got my squats and exercise in too. 💪🏼

Giants lost tonight. There’s always tomorrow. Go Giants! 🖤🧡

Animal Crossing update: I sold a bunch of things and paid off a good chunk of my home loan. Kicks was in town too.

Music is helping me, but yeah. I’m still thinking about a lot. This pandemic is taking a toll on me mentally, but I’m fighting it. Putting that out into the universe. I’ll be stronger because of this. I’m just frustrated and disappointed. 😢

I need my sleep and I’ll be doing a lot this holiday weekend. I’m ready!

Have a great weekend, everyone! Take care.

Good night.

b

Day 175.

Happy Thursday! Happy Friday Eve. 🙂

I really love lox and cream cheese bagels. The only fish I’m allowed to have because of my food allergies. Salmon’s the best! If I could have another bagel, I would. Lol.

Just woke up from my nap. I’m going to work on some stuff before bed tonight. Glad I finished my workout earlier today. And I’m thinking of splitting my 100 squats into 4. Instead of doing it all at once. It’s more manageable that way. 💪🏼 I’m staying consistent. I’m inspired since I can fit into a pair of jeans I bought last year. Makes me happy!

Animal Crossing update: I did the usual tasks on my island. Leif is visiting today. I got some new recipes too!

I just miss traveling. That hit me today since I saw my suitcase. Some clothes from my London tour were still in there. Sigh. Whenever it’s safe again, I’ll explore. Until then, I’ll just look back on the memories.

Giants were off today. They open a 4 game series with Arizona at home tomorrow. Go Giants! 🖤🧡

It’s time to get to work. Take care!

Good night.

b

Day 174.

How is it almost Thursday?! Happy Wednesday! I stayed up to watch Feel the Beat. It was pretty good. I love dance movies!

I’ve been pretty tired today, but I got my exercise in. 300 squats done. I’m halfway there! 💪🏼 I also had to nap. My sleep was interrupted by our dog. She’s such a rascal, but we love her.

The Giants only scored 6 runs today and that’s okay. The bullpen wasn’t very stable. They’ve played 38 games. The season is winding down. Whether we get to the postseason or not, I’m proud of the 🖤🧡. It’s been an interesting, but progressive season. #BlackLivesMatter

Animal Crossing update: I caught some new bugs. Redd didn’t stop by today. Maybe tomorrow or Friday? I’m always seeking out new art pieces to add to the museum. I want more statues. 😄

I’m still dealing with anxiety and overthinking, but I’m working through it. Sometimes I just sit with my emotions. So many new and exciting things happening – regardless of the outcome. I’m proud for putting myself out there and taking a chance. 💜

My Simpsons print arrived today. Must figure out where to put it.

Caught the last of Game 7 between the Thunder-Rockets. It was a nail biter until the end. Houston is moving on. I really miss the Warriors! 💙💛

My legs feel like Jell-o. 🙃 But I’m making progress each day. I even had two smoothies today! Yay for health and wellness. Everyone’s on their own journey. We’re all works in progress. I’m rooting for y’all! 🥰

Take care, everyone!!

Good night.

b

Day 173.

Happy Tuesday! It’s officially September. 🍂

I had a very productive day. Although I was distracted with a lot of other noise. I eventually got everything done. I hope to be just as productive tomorrow. I took care of emails and finished another lesson for my TEFL course.

Before bed last night I watched a few episodes of Sister, Sister. One of my fave tv shows from childhood. 1. It’s a show about twins. 2. funny and amazing cast! 3. so many classic episodes. Check it out on Netflix if you’ve never seen it before! Mowry twins 💕

Animal Crossing update: It feels like Autumn! I mean it will be very soon, but AC is a little early. There are pine cones, acorns, and pumpkins. I love everything about the Fall! The color scheme is beautiful. There are new bugs and fish too. I’ll try to catch some more tomorrow. I’m excited! 😊

Caught Game 7 of the Utah-Denver series. Hard fought by both teams. Denver came out on top. I love the playoffs! And I miss the Warriors.

Giants won big tonight, 23-5, in Denver! It was nice to see a bunch of runs. Dickerson had himself a night! 😎🖤🧡 Keep going, fellas. Go Giants!

I also got to exercise. It’s week 2 of the 600 squat challenge. I’m on day 2 = 200 squats. 4 more days! I always feel accomplished when I get it done. It’s always hard in the beginning, but it gets easier towards the end. Go me! 💪🏼

Still thinking about a lot of things. I’m just trying to breathe. It helps with my anxiety. Music always helps too. I had to play my uke earlier to help me keep calm.

I’m hoping to clean and organize some more tomorrow. Just gotta plan the day out better. I can do this!

Lastly, my leggings from the Nordstrom Anniversary sale arrived today. Hoping to break them in soon. I’ve worn lipstick for the last 2 days. Instant mood booster!💄

Take care, y’all!

Good night.

b