Day 186.

Happy Monday! I had a terrible case of insomnia. I eventually fell asleep at 6am. 😬 I was very tired once I woke up. I napped for a bit mid-day.

Had a Whopper for lunch. Saving my Hershey pie for tomorrow.

Good news: I passed my class assignment! I can now proceed with the test and move on to the next module. Exciting!! My goal is to get my certification before the year ends. 2020 has been a trying year, but this is a silver lining for me. ❤️

I was overthinking a text. It was fine. 😂 I just need to breathe.

Just finished my exercise and finished my smoothie. I’m feeling good and accomplished. It takes 21 days to build a habit. I’m doing it!!!!

My Filipina art prints arrived today. So beautiful! 🇵🇭✨ I’m going to put mine up in a bit.

I didn’t take a picture today. I wasn’t feeling super motivated or creative. I’ll have a pic up for tomorrow’s entry.

Doing my best to stay positive. But if I’m feeling sad and overwhelmed, I let myself feel that too. I’ve always been emotional and sensitive even before the pandemic. I’m riding the wave. 🌊 Holistic health is so important during these times.

Btw our dear 🐻 had a vet visit. She gained a bit of weight. She’s gotta exercise and maintain a healthy diet. We’ll do a liver panel in a month or two.

Animal Crossing update: My loan. Same old story! I need to bury some more money. Island is still a mess.

That was my day. I’m ready to take it easy the rest of the night. Take care!

Good night.

b

Day 185.

Football Sunday! It’s back. ❤️💛 The Niners struggled. It’s only one game. Adjustments will be made. Go Niners! 🙂

And the Giants were swept in SD. 😬 Hoping they pick themselves up. These upcoming games will be a challenge. Go Giants! 🖤🧡

Anxiety has been up and down. Still haven’t replied. 🙃

I slept in. I washed the dishes. Ordered boba. I’m hungry again. Might eat a bit more before bed.

Animal Crossing update: Had to time travel again to buy my turnips. I bought 30 this time around. Hoping to make a nice profit this week. My island is still a mess. 😂

I’m going to play my uke. Eventually respond to this text and tidy up. It’s a new week! I’m feeling pretty good. 💜

Hoping my assignment gets approved for my class. I’ve been waiting to take the test, but it’s still locked. Ugh. I think I mentioned this in yesterday’s entry.

Have a great week, everyone! Take care.

Good night.

b

Day 184.

Happy Saturday! I slept in longer than usual. Insomnia. So I stayed up watching the Amanda Knox documentary. It was interesting, but I still have a bunch of questions.

Just finished my workout. 600 squats done for the week! Week 3 ✅ I’m staying consistent. Some days can be really hard, but I stay motivated. I can do anything! It’s all in the mind. Focus.

Animal Crossing update: I time traveled to buy this sweater dress from the Able Sisters. Lol. I also bought a climbing wall. Not sure where to put it on my island. Maybe near the playground? We’ll see. Still paying my loan off. I’m almost there.

I miss baseball. Giants are still postponed. But supposedly the first test that was taken yesterday was a false positive. So we’ll see. 🖤🧡

I ate some really good Chinese food today. Before that I was overthinking. My usual routine. Lol. 🙃 I was brave and sent a text. It’s been more than a week since we talked. Not sure where this is going. But I’m here for the ride. I need to give myself credit for being brave and talking to someone new. We just can’t meet in person and it sucks.

I’m trying to make progress with my class, but my assignment needs to be graded first. Argh! I just wanted to take the test and be done with it. Maybe Monday?

Hopefully I don’t sleep too late. Might practice driving tomorrow. Football is back. Exciting! I think it’ll be a go come game time. It all depends on the air quality. Go Niners! ❤️💛

Still figuring things out. I hope I can clean tomorrow. It’s been a while. Lol.

That was my Saturday. Hope y’all had a nice one!

Good night.

b

Day 183.

TGIF! 🙂 We made it to the weekend. I stayed up watching Julie and the Phantoms. I finished it. So good!! 💗

I always reflect on 9/11. I was a high school freshman. RIP to all the beautiful souls. We remember. I have so much respect for first responders. Thank you. ❤️

The Giants didn’t play today. Someone tested positive for COVID-19 so the game was postponed. I hope our player will be okay. Name wasn’t disclosed. No baseball for us for the next few days. 😢

I’ve been awake for most of the day. I did take a nap after breakfast. I’m in the middle of working on my class assignment. I’m almost done! I just need to type up a paragraph. AQI was very unhealthy today. I hope it improves soon. There’s ash all over our car.

Productive chat with my therapist. She’s always encouraging me! Gotta face things head on. Fear won’t win.

I’ve gotta exercise in a bit. Must get my squats done.

Animal Crossing update: couldn’t find the message in a bottle. What?! This has happened two days in a row. Very odd. My island is doing alright. I’ll tend to it this weekend.

Alright. Time to sweat. Exercising helps me focus. Then I’ll finish my assignment. I can!

Have a great weekend, everyone. Take care!

Good night.

b

Day 182.

I didn’t do much today. Happy Thursday! I’m glad it’s almost the weekend. I need to recollect myself badly. 🙃

I’m really digging Julie and the Phantoms on Netflix. It dropped today. I’m already in the middle of s1. The cast is great!

I’m about to exercise in a bit. I opened Snapchat earlier today and it was a baseball memory! A year ago today I was at Oracle Park. I miss going to sporting events. I’m a little torn right now with a life decision. Not sure what to do! 😭 I’ll figure it out.

Animal Crossing update: nothing new. Still paying off my loan. Forgot to buy the cool washer at the store. Oh well. Maybe it’ll be back in a few weeks?

Giants lose in SD. Winning streak snapped. Pablo was DFA’d. I’m so sad about that. He’ll always be a Giants legend. Thanks for the memories, Pablo! You did well, kid. 🖤🧡

Btw Saweetie’s recent post on IG and Twitter made me cackle. I was so entertained. 🇵🇭❤️😆!

Time to work! If I’m feeling ambitious, I might study. If not, I can shelve it for tomorrow.

Good night.

b

Day 181.

Today was a trip. I woke up to an orange sky. It felt like time didn’t even exist. I was in awe. But the reality is – California is burning. Our beautiful state has already burned 2M acres this year. It’s heartbreaking. We must take care of Mother Earth! Climate change is here and it’s real. 😭💔🌎

I was so tired from the night before that I slept through the day. I even missed my appointment with my therapist. Thankfully I rescheduled for this Friday! 😄 But I’m so embarrassed. 🙈 I honestly thought it was tomorrow or next week. I hope she isn’t too pissed.

Animal Crossing update: Redd stopped by and I bought a new piece of art. Hurrah! Still paying off my loan. Almost there!!!

Giants win! We took both games from the streaking Mariners. We’re looking good. I don’t want to expect too much since we’ve got a long stretch of games with potential postseason contenders. A game at a time is my motto. Go Giants!! 🖤🧡

I’m still very much in my feelings and I’m trying to get through this funk. I exercised to get my mind off of things. I’m keeping up with it! 💪🏼

I watched Last Christmas again. It always makes me cry! I think this is my 4th viewing. Henry Golding is so charming. Emilia Clarke is really cool too. I love them together!! 💕

Well, I’m hoping to do more with my time tomorrow. I really need to finish my assignment and test for my class. I’ve been avoiding it. The anxiety is real, but I know I can do this!

Have a great night. Take care!

b

Day 180.

Still emo. Keeping to myself, but also overthinking. Friends have been supportive. Thank you! So where do I go from here?

I slept for most of the day. I woke up from my nap about an hour ago. I just don’t feel like myself. 😞

I will get some work done and I plan on exercising. Those are the things I can do for myself while I navigate this rough patch. It’s hard to focus, but I must do it.

Animal Crossing update: I’ve played for 255 hours or more since quarantine. Wild! Paid off part of my loan. Leif is at the plaza. I sold him some weeds.

Enough moping. Let’s get shit done!

Have a good night.

b

Day 179.

Happy Labor Day! Thank you to all essential workers during this unprecedented time. ❤️

So the dating scene is scarce. I matched with a mutual friend and that went nowhere. I’m still a little hesitant to continue contact with the guy I guess I’m still keeping in touch with. He’s seeking out marriage. I’m seeking out a relationship. My coworker has told me not to stress about my conversations with him. Do I just reach out again? Sigh. Dating app fatigue is real. I got some pointers from Bumble support, but no luck. I’m going to verify my profile tomorrow. Let’s see if my matches improve.

I went for a walk today to help with some groceries and I needed to clear my head. It was a beautiful day! 🥰

I took a nap once we got back. I couldn’t deal with the warmth at home. I had a cooling blanket. Kinda helped.

Animal Crossing update: so close to paying off my loan! I hope I pay it off this week.

I gotta buckle down and study some more this week. I’m sure I’ll also be provided with a work update. Ah! I’m a little stressed.

Time to take care of trash night. I got my squats done too! ✅ My workout routine is about 15 minutes with my resistance bands.

Still trying to remain positive during this pandemic. I’m up and down. That’s the truth.

Hope y’all had a nice one. Football is pretty much here. Go Niners! ❤️💛 And the Giants beat the Dbacks again. 😎🖤🧡 Back at .500!!!

Good night.

b

Day 178.

Happy Sunday! It’s a new week and I’m ready to conquer it all. I’m still in a weird headspace. Trying to figure it out.

The Giants won! Last game in the series tomorrow. 🖤🧡

I got some work done although I was very distracted. It was also a really hot day in the city. I think we hit 96? Oh dear. 🥵 My window is open and I can still feel the hot air.

I might just take a quick nap. I’m a little emo at the moment. 😞 I played my uke to take my mind off of things.

Animal Crossing update: I’m so close to paying off my loan. I also saw shooting stars! ✨ Had to time travel to get turnips. Success!

My head hurts. I’m going to nap.

Hope y’all had a nice Sunday! Take care.

Good night.

b

Day 177.

I’m still in this weird state of trying to move on and feeling sad. Maybe I am overthinking, but it’s like if a guy was really interested, he’d do anything to stay present and keep connected. Sighhh. I don’t know. I did match with some new people, so that’s cool. And I can always rely on my friends for advice and affirmation. ❤️

I napped the warm day away. I did have some matcha-vanilla swirl with boba from Matcha Cafe Maiko. One of the best places for dessert! Food makes me happy. 😋

I caught the last half of the Giants game. Welcome back, MadBum! Wish he was still with us, but all the best to him. We got the W! 😎🖤🧡

Animal Crossing update: sold items, found the message in a bottle, and paid off part of my loan. I must remember to buy turnips tomorrow!

I’m going to study a bit more tonight. I have energy to get through one more section. I finished my exercise for the day too. 600 squats done for the week! It’s a rest day for me tomorrow. I’ll clean and continue studying.

I wanted to watch a movie tonight, but I might just save it. We’ll see how I’m feeling.

That was my Saturday. I’m thinking of adding another eyeshadow palette to my collection, but I don’t need it. 😩 Conflicted.

Hope y’all had a nice one. Take care!

Good night.

b