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Day 34.

Sleep update: I’m improving little by little. Anxiety is still messing with me. Doing my best to breathe and take it a day at a time.

Bought a Switch Lite. Not really on a whim. I’ve been looking. Excited to get it in the next few days. I want all the games. 🙂

Washed some more dishes. Yeah! It’s the best.

Watched Center Stage. Preteen memories. Still love the film to this day. The cast and the music are everything! ❤️

We got our groceries delivered. Not everything was accounted for due to low stock or just completely out of stock. That’s alright. Thankful to be able to purchase from an app and the convenience of necessities to be dropped off at our door. Thank you to all essential workers!!! 💪🏼

Took a much needed nap. I hope I don’t sleep too late tonight. But I was really run down. Rest is important.

We’re going to be playing Scene It tonight. It’s been years. It should be a lot of fun. I also gotta practice my uke. Woo!

Hope y’all had a great day! Take care and be well.

Good night.

April 15, 2020April 15, 2020 by bernadette Categories: 2020, lifeTags: covid19, family, groceries, life, sf, shelter in place, social distancing, switch lite Leave a comment

Day 19.

Photo credit goes to the owner. I believe this is from the Quintanilla Family.

We made it to the end of the month! ☺️ March seemed like an eternity. Shelter in place for the Bay Area has been extended to May 3rd. I believe we’re flattening the curve. Good job, Bay Area! ❤️

Today marks the 25th Anniversary of Selena Quintanilla-Perez’s untimely passing. Growing up we went to the local taqueria with the family. Her songs were always playing on the jukebox. That’s my earliest memory of her. Bianca and I were obsessed with her music. We still are to this day. So much talent, beauty, and grace. Gone too soon. RIP Selena. 💜

RIP Nip. Gone, but never forgotten. I’ve listened to both artists simultaneously today. Thank you for sharing your artistry with the world.

I’d like to take a moment to think of my trans brothers and sisters. I’m in solidarity with you today during International Transgender Day of Visibility. Sending love and light. 💕

I’ve been so tired today. I slept a lot again. I did get the chance to watch Selena Live! The Last Concert on YouTube. So much stage presence.

I finished the Bridget Jones series. Loved the films. I want to read the books. I’m now watching Zoey’s Extraordinary Playlist. It’s pretty good.

My new shampoo and conditioner were delivered too. Excited to try it. That was my Tuesday.

Good night.

March 31, 2020 by bernadette Categories: 2020, lifeTags: bridget jones, intl transgender day of visibility, life, music, nipsey hussle, selena quintanilla-perez, sf, shelter in place, social distancing, tv Leave a comment

Day 17.

I’m going to keep this short. I slept for most of the day. I’ve been super tired. I’m grieving with the world. 💔

Hoping for a better week – regardless of if I’m productive or not. Rest is so important right now. Before this shelter in place, I was already quite familiar with resting throughout the day. I consider myself a nap queen! Seriously. If it was ever a sport, sign me up! 😂

Chipotle filled my belly today. I didn’t eat too much. It’s the fatigue.

I’m trying to be creative at this time. I’ve been brainstorming a lot. We’ll see what comes of it.

Peace and love.

March 29, 2020March 29, 2020 by bernadette Categories: 2020, lifeTags: covid19, fatigue, food, health, life, sf, shelter in place, social distancing Leave a comment

Day 15.

TGIF! We made it. I stayed up watching Step By Step. Lol. Childhood memories. And then I eventually fell asleep. Woke up to messages from family, friends, and work. Closure will extend to May 1st. I’ve got a lot of free time on my hands now.

I’m hoping to learn the uke now. I need to find a good beginner one. I’m doing some research and I’m already trying to figure out chords.

I’m trying my best to disconnect from social media, but it’s hard because family and friends are on there. People tagging you left and right. Lol.

I’ll keep this entry short. And I just want to sincerely thank those on the front lines: doctors, nurses, everyone in the healthcare field, grocery store workers, delivery persons, and all essential employees! Also to those who have donated medical supplies and sewed masks. You are our heroes! #stayhome

Enjoy the rest of your night. Later!

March 27, 2020March 27, 2020 by bernadette Categories: 2020, lifeTags: covid19, life, sf, sf giants, shelter in place, social distancing, tgif Leave a comment

Day 14.

It’s been two weeks. I’m doing okay. Everything is repetitive, but I can’t complain. I’m at home where we have access to water, electricity, food, and facilities. All of that is a blessing. ❤️

I’ve been thinking a lot about enamel pins. I’m hoping to design one for a good cause. I haven’t figured out what it’ll look like. Things are brewing and it’s a process. I’ll continue to be patient with myself.

I slept a lot today. I woke up at a decent time, but decided to nap twice. Lol. I’m okay with that. I also watched another episode of Broad City. Abbi and Ilana are BFF goals. Haha.

Traveling dreams are real. I went through my camera roll looking at pictures from our family visit to Canada in 2018. Good times. I miss flying. I miss discovering new places. This too shall pass, but until then I’ll continue looking at pictures to remind me of better days ahead.

And I want to learn the uke! I’m looking for a nice beginner one to purchase. I played the piano for two years when I was a teen and I was in choir in high school. Other than that, I don’t have a lot of background in music. There’s always time to learn something new. I’m looking forward to it! 🙂

And Happy Air Max Day! I love Nike. ☺️

That was my Thursday. Thanks for reading!

March 26, 2020March 26, 2020 by bernadette Categories: 2020, lifeTags: air max day, canada 2018, covid19, family, life, nike, photography, sf, shelter in place, social distancing, tbt, throwback, traveling, tv Leave a comment

Day 13.

I’m feeling a bit better today. Clarity. And a nice nap helped me out. After many delays, my medication is now in my hands. Thank goodness! I’m so very grateful to my medical team for always being clutch. They really are miracle workers! Shoutout to my pharmacy too for being so patient and helpful with me when I was super upset. That happened yesterday. I already feel better after taking my regular dose. Lastly, thank you to UPS. It was tough, but y’all pulled through during these chaotic times.

I’m also super grateful to my supportive friends and family for letting me vent and checking in. Hi Bianca, Jamie, and Brea! 💕

Broad City is bringing all the laughs. The final season! I’ve got five more episodes to watch. I’ll space it out. 🙂 Gotta be productive these next few days. It doesn’t have to be big tasks. Progress is progress. I’m thinking of taking up a new hobby. Yay!

Hope all your Wednesdays went well. I’m still pretty tired. The stress these last few days have been unreal, but I made it.

Until next time. Good night!

March 25, 2020March 25, 2020 by bernadette Categories: 2020, lifeTags: broad city, life, lupus awareness, lupus warriors, phighter, sf, shelter in place, social distancing, sony a6000, tv Leave a comment

Day 12.

Invalidation. That’s all I need to say right now. This day has taken an emotional toll on me. You think people have your back, but at the end of the day they don’t. “Because it isn’t cancer.” What a dumb thing to say. Ignorance at its finest and quite offensive. This isn’t the time to pin health conditions against each other. Every condition matters and we fall into the vulnerable population during this pandemic. In solidarity with all of you. ❤️

I wish I could run away, but there’s nowhere to go.

I’m mad. I’m frustrated, I’m anxious. I’m scared.

Good night.

March 24, 2020March 25, 2020 by bernadette Categories: 2020, lifeTags: chronic condition, family, health, invalidated, life, lupus awareness, lupus warriors, phighter, sf, social distancing Leave a comment

Day 10.

It was a really mellow Sunday for me. I slept a lot and I woke up to eat. Nourishment is important. 🙂 I had toast with peanut butter, a banana, and decaf Tim Hortons coffee.

I rewatched the 2016 NCAA National Championship – Villanova vs. UNC. Still so epic! One of the best games I’ve ever seen.

And then I took a nap. Much needed. Had dinner a little late, but it was worth it. I had an instant pho bowl. We got it from Costco. Pretty legit. Finished leftovers from Wingstop.

I’m hoping to have a much more productive week. I wish you all well.

Good night.

March 22, 2020 by bernadette Categories: lifeTags: keroppi, life, sanrio, sf, shelter in place, social distancing Leave a comment

Day 9.

I really thought it was day 10. LOL. Like I said, the days are just blending together. I’m losing count. Typical Saturday for me. I didn’t sleep well because I was worried about my medication delivery. It’s being held at a center here in the city, so I’m hoping it’ll be out for delivery again on Monday. From what I’m told, it was some kind of an emergency. I hope everything is okay. Thank you, UPS for delivering! This hasn’t happened to me before, but I understand. It’s the new normal for everyone.

I’m planning to figure out my routine in the next few days. I find myself to be more productive when I’m dressed and ready for the day. I just gotta put it into practice. Nothing compares to a cozy & warm bed though. Netflix is my fallback too. My screen time is horrendous. I’m putting that out into the world.

I rewatched a bit of Lost in Translation. It’s the next best thing. We’ll all eventually get to see Japan. But until then, movies, tv, and books will have to do.

I got my Cadbury chocolate! Easter candy, woo!! 🙂 Target was clutch with the online orders. It’s such a good alternative to leaving the house. I’m a freaking hermit nowadays.

Highlight of my day: catching up with friends on Zoom! It was nice to see what everyone is up to during this shelter in place. We’re all on the same boat. We can get through this together! Cheers to video games especially Nintendo! And a shoutout to Bern. We missed you! Hope dinner was delicious. Catch you next time.

I need a good night’s sleep. I’m ready, haha.

Be safe and well! ❤

March 21, 2020March 21, 2020 by bernadette Categories: lifeTags: family, friends, life, shelter in place, social distancing, weekend, zoom Leave a comment

Day 8.

Hope is still alive! I’ve been restless. Didn’t sleep well at all. Doing my best to keep my anxiety at bay.

I cleaned a bit today, but I’m planning to do more tomorrow. I’m just worried about my medicine delivery. It was originally supposed to arrive by the end of the day, but now there’s a delay. I hope it arrives tomorrow. I’ve reached out to customer service. The odd thing is that it’s already in the city. I understand the current situation at hand, but the medication is essential to my wellbeing. I don’t want to stress.

I miss my family and friends so I dedicated a post to them on my personal IG. The love is reciprocated. We’ll get through this together! 💕

Photography is keeping me sane. Not much to write about today. I’m just all up in my own feelings.

Until next time.

March 20, 2020 by bernadette Categories: lifeTags: chronic condition, family, friends, life, phighter, photography Leave a comment