The final days.

I didn’t think we’d be saying goodbye so soon. Beari’s cancer has spread and we’re out of options. I wish we had more time, but we had five great years together.

We’re planning for her best week ever! The beach, her fave foods, and whatever else we can think of to send her off.

Losing a pet is never easy. But seeing her in pain is really tough. 😭

I wish her peace and comfort. We love you, Beari. ❤️🐻❤️

I am broken.

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Depressed.

I’ve always been one to hide my depression. I’ll usually play it off as anxiety. These last two weeks, I’ve dealt with high functioning depression. I’m pretty much on autopilot and faking a smile.

We have a very sick dog at home and I’m feeling helpless. She needs surgery, but we can’t finance it! So what do we do next? 😭💔 It hurts my head and heart thinking about potential scenarios. She’s still very much aware. She’s just in pain. I want to scream!!!!! AHHHHHHH. 😫

I feel hopeless too. I try to stay optimistic but as of late I don’t feel or think it.

Doing my best to hold on. I’m absolutely terrified.

Please keep me and my family in your thoughts. We definitely need lots of prayers. Thank you!

Good night.

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Discouraged.

I guess I need to figure out another way to fundraise for Beari. 🐶 It would be cool to meet our fundraising goal, but I’m aware that may not happen. She’s had a tough week. We need to start chemo soon. It’s making me anxious and worried.

I’m still an emo mess. Life’s been tough and I’m trying to stand tall despite it all at this point in time. Sigh. I’ve been wanting to cry a lot and the tears aren’t coming. So here’s a crying emoji 😭

It’s a new month so I’m hopeful. Been busy with school and work. On top of the other responsibilities I’m juggling. I also need to redo my room! That’s still a work in progress.

Breathe. Take it a day at a time. That’s all I can do. Hoping/praying for the best.

Hope everyone is doing well. Here’s the donation link again. Thank you.

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