Day 192.

I’m kinda feeling better today. Happy Sunday! It’s a new week and I’m looking forward to what it may bring. I watched Last Christmas again before bed. I can’t remember if it’s my 5th or 6th time watching. And I was at Covent Garden around where they filmed. So cool!

I was pretty tired again. I napped twice. I feel pretty energized since I’m tidying up my room. I’m putting away my luggage, my shoe rack, and I might be returning some things I purchased.

Caught some of the Niners game via their app. So many injuries. 😭😫💔 Bosa looks out for the rest of the season. Thomas might be too. Why?! The turf sucks at MetLife. We play there again next week vs. the Giants.

The Giants beat the A’s. No sweep! 🖤🧡🎃 Eight games remaining. We just need to win 5 to get into the postseason. Who knows?!

I played my uke. Felt like forever. I just needed music to help me feel better. Still in a funk. That’s the truth.

Animal Crossing update: finally paid off my loan! Decided to pull from my savings. Woo!! Truffles has officially moved in. She’s unboxing things, but it’s nice to have a new villager. 🙂

I’m just listening to music while I put things away. I have so much makeup. I put some on at home because why not?! 😊 It’s always fun.

That was my Sunday. I plan on studying a bit tonight. Progress!!

Take care and good night.

b

Day 190.

TGIF! 🥰 Catching up with a friend via IG. Good times.

I had a very busy day. Four appointments in one! It was all a success. My eyes were dilated so that was a trip. I had to wear the roll up shades. Grateful to my aunt for always helping me out when I need a ride. I treated myself to my first PSL of the season. Thee best! 🎃🍂

Once I got home, I ate lunch and took a shower. I’ve made it a habit to get clean after a doctor’s appointment. I also ordered my new shipment of medication. Should get to me on Wednesday. 🙂

Animal Crossing update: Caroline is leaving. Truffles is moving in. I’ll miss Caroline! Thanks for the memories. 💗

Giants lose in Oakland. We’re tied for a playoff spot. Going with the flow. 🖤🧡

I’ve gotta exercise and study before bed. And maybe talk to that guy. 🙃

Enjoy the weekend – y’all have earned it. Take care!

Good night.

b

Day 189.

Happy Thursday! 🥰 It’s almost the weekend. It’s been okay for me. Got my workout done – go me!

Progress is being made at work. I might be back in two weeks. Part of me is anxious, but the other part of me wants to get back to my old routine. It’s going to be different, but I’m ready. I must be extra careful as my doctors have advised. Productive convo with the boss. He’s always reassuring.

Giants win! They take the series as the visiting team at home versus Seattle. Just a few more games left and then the postseason. We’ll see what happens. 🖤🧡

Animal Crossing update: Redd was in town. Got a new piece of art to add to my museum. Exciting! Loan is almost paid off. Like seriously! 😄

I’ve got my eye appointments tomorrow morning. I hope it goes well. I haven’t been super diligent with my drops. Eep!

I was pretty productive today. I washed dishes. Hurrah! I’m hoping to do more tomorrow. Clean and study!! That’s the plan.

Lastly, I wish things were different. I miss going out with friends, seeing family, and doing my own thing. Six months into this and it’s been up and down. There are so many emotions and feelings to sort through. 😞😫😭 But I’m doing my best. It’s been nice to chat with someone new – regardless of if it’s something more or not. Maybe we’re both interested? I don’t know. But I feel like 🥴 every time. 😂

I’m hoping to sleep soon. It’s an early day for me. Must practice driving too. Take care!

Good night.

b

Day 187.

Not a very Happy Tuesday for me. I dealt with a mosquito flying around in my room before bed. It was the most annoying thing ever! So I tried to fall asleep with my AirPods in my ears. It made me so anxious. I hope I can sleep better tonight.

I decided to clean the bathroom and the kitchen. Clean floors are happy floors! 🙂 I treated myself to a cup of ice cream afterwards. Hurrah!

Animal Crossing update: I’m ready to take money out of my savings account to pay for the rest of my loan. I need more home storage! Labelle stopped by today. The villager I want gone is still on my island. It’s getting old. Lol. I would like a new villager.

I missed out on some NBA games today since I took a nap after cleaning. The Nuggets advance after defeating the Clippers. 😱 The Heat beat the Celtics in Game 1 of the ECF.

The Giants are returning to SF to play the Mariners due to the terrible AQI in the PNW. Seattle will be the home team. This shall be interesting. I believe we have 12 games remaining. Go Giants! 🖤🧡

Speaking of AQI, the skies were finally blue today. That may change leading up to the weekend, but I plan to take advantage of it until then. I’ve got a bunch of doctor’s appointments lined up for this week and into next.

I’ve gotta exercise and shower. Hoping to sleep better tonight as I mentioned earlier.

Text convos are something. Haven’t really checked my phone because of my anxiety. 🙃 And work stuff too. Eep.

Hope y’all had a nice one. Take care!

Good night.

b

Day 183.

TGIF! 🙂 We made it to the weekend. I stayed up watching Julie and the Phantoms. I finished it. So good!! 💗

I always reflect on 9/11. I was a high school freshman. RIP to all the beautiful souls. We remember. I have so much respect for first responders. Thank you. ❤️

The Giants didn’t play today. Someone tested positive for COVID-19 so the game was postponed. I hope our player will be okay. Name wasn’t disclosed. No baseball for us for the next few days. 😢

I’ve been awake for most of the day. I did take a nap after breakfast. I’m in the middle of working on my class assignment. I’m almost done! I just need to type up a paragraph. AQI was very unhealthy today. I hope it improves soon. There’s ash all over our car.

Productive chat with my therapist. She’s always encouraging me! Gotta face things head on. Fear won’t win.

I’ve gotta exercise in a bit. Must get my squats done.

Animal Crossing update: couldn’t find the message in a bottle. What?! This has happened two days in a row. Very odd. My island is doing alright. I’ll tend to it this weekend.

Alright. Time to sweat. Exercising helps me focus. Then I’ll finish my assignment. I can!

Have a great weekend, everyone. Take care!

Good night.

b

Day 176.

Happy Friday!

I’ve been in a weird headspace. Maybe I’m expecting too much? I’m kinda in a funk again, but I’m still getting work done. I just overthink about everything. Sighhh.

I’m making progress with my class. Every second counts. Yes! And I got my squats and exercise in too. 💪🏼

Giants lost tonight. There’s always tomorrow. Go Giants! 🖤🧡

Animal Crossing update: I sold a bunch of things and paid off a good chunk of my home loan. Kicks was in town too.

Music is helping me, but yeah. I’m still thinking about a lot. This pandemic is taking a toll on me mentally, but I’m fighting it. Putting that out into the universe. I’ll be stronger because of this. I’m just frustrated and disappointed. 😢

I need my sleep and I’ll be doing a lot this holiday weekend. I’m ready!

Have a great weekend, everyone! Take care.

Good night.

b

Day 164.

Happy Sunday! ❤️

I spent the day cleaning and organizing. I went ham for about 8 hours with some breaks in between. Had to trash and shred old papers. Tomorrow I’ll be organizing some more. I’ll have to start a donation pile.

I’m currently exercising as I type this. I’m using a resistance band for my legs. The burn!

Highlights of my day: putting up the artwork I’ve collected over the years. I finally played Britney’s debut album on vinyl. Sounds amazing! It was the first album I bought with my own money at Costco back in the day. I’m dating myself! Lol. The Aces and Little Mix have also been on repeat. Soundtracks of my current mood.

I’ve been in my head the last few days. It tends to happen a lot, but I’m aware that it’s because of my anxiety. I’m doing alright. Staying beautiful and confident through the struggle.

The Giants are streaking! Yayyy!!! But today was sad since we had to say farewell to Hunter Pence again. He’s a treasure in SF! I miss him a lot already. He’s contributed so much in the past. It’s hard to see him go, but it’s part of the business. Forever Giant. 🖤🧡

Animal Crossing update: I played early to buy my turnips and then I checked in about a half hour ago to stare at the fireworks. Lol. I’ve been distracted by other things. 🙃

Lastly, Happy Birthday to Kobe! You are missed. 💜

Hope y’all had a nice weekend. Have a kick ass week! Take care.

Good night.

b

Day 160.

Currently playing: Holiday – Little Mix 🧜🏼‍♀️

How is Wednesday almost over?! 😱 Time went by pretty quickly this week.

California is currently dealing with a number of fires. Scary times in the state along with the pandemic. Stay safe, everyone!

San Francisco could come off the watch list as soon as tomorrow, but we must continue to be vigilant and practice all the guidelines to keep everyone safe. I’m still dealing with a lot of anxiety from all of this. Seeking connection has kind of been my saving grace. Keeping in touch with friends and family has also helped. I miss everyone! ❤️

George Michael, The Aces, and Little Mix have been on repeat. They are the current soundtracks of my life. Figuring things out for myself. I don’t want to jump to conclusions or expect too much. I had a very good teletherapy session with my therapist today and she gave me a lot of input & advice. I may take her up on it. We’ll see. Every risk in life requires being courageous!

Speaking of Little Mix, Happy 9th Anniversary! I love them so much and I still hope to see them live in the future. 💗

Happy World Photography Day!! 📸

Animal Crossing update: my island is pretty much the same. Flick is visiting. I’ve been a bit busy to keep up with my game. It’s good I’m enrolled in a course. It’s all about balance. I still love the game, but I’m investing my energy and time into my potential calling.

Giants defeat the Angels! We’ve got a 2 game winning streak. Woo!!! 🖤🧡

Planning to build my additional storage tomorrow. We’re almost done with all the furnishings. Two more projects!

Hope y’all had a nice one. Take care!

Good night.

b

Day 159.

I’m honestly all over the place. That is the truth. I’m trying to deal with everything currently on my plate. Balance is key! I got this. 😎

I had to get my labs done today. The standing orders weren’t in the computer again so I had to play phone tag with my team. Next time I will give them advance notice so the orders are already in the computer. Yeesh. I think my labs are good. Hurrah! If it looks questionable, they’ll get back to me.

I tried the new ramen packets we have. Had that for lunch. It was really good! Just a lot of salt – so the next time I make it, I’ll adjust it.

August is flying by! I wish time would slow down. I’ve just been super anxious. 🙃

I played a bit of Animal Crossing when I woke up. Haven’t touched it since. I’m in the middle of my TEFL course. Doing my best to make progress daily.

Giants split the series in LAA! And I’m glad they’re returning home. 🖤🧡

I hope tomorrow works out. 🤞🏼 I’m sure it will. Ah!

Good night and take care!

b

Day 157.

My sleep schedule was messed up. There was thunder and lightning! Throw in a very anxious dog and that equals insomnia. It was cool to see the lights in the sky. But the rumbling – not so much. I ended up sleeping in. I set an alarm, but I couldn’t even get up. I hope I get a better night’s sleep tonight.

I wanted to build something tonight, but it’s late and I’m pretty tired. Maybe the floor lamp? That’s fairly easy.

Highlight of my day: catching up with my coworkers! It’s been so long. It was nice to check in and see how everyone is doing. I miss them! ❤️

The Giants are a hot mess. We got swept! It pains me. Thankfully this season is short. Our bullpen is atrocious and our defense is nonexistent. 🤦🏻‍♀️ Back to fundamentals I guess. In happier sports news – Alex Smith has been cleared to play! I’m so happy for him. After his injury in 2018, he went through so much. When he was with the Niners I always cheered for him. I will continue to because he’s awesome!

Played Animal Crossing with Cristina. I gotta clean up my island. It’s a hot mess, but she got what she needed. Glad I could help.

Anyway, I’m hoping this week will be great! I’m anticipating for Wednesday, but breathe. I got this! 💁🏻‍♀️

Hope y’all had a nice one. Take care!

Good night.

b