Some thoughts.

22 days into 2022 and I’m still feeling a bit blah. Year 3 of this pandemic and it’s exhausting! Shout out to all the healthcare workers. Thank you for all that you do.

Applying to remote jobs has been a drag. Staying hopeful, but lacking motivation. I’m so close to completing my certification for my TEFL, but I’ve put that on hold for now. I have until the summer, yet I’d like to complete it before my birthday next month.

This year is a fresh start! I’m excited for what maybe in store. I’m also emo since we haven’t been able to see family due to Omicron. I think it’s subsiding in the Bay Area. Great news! I’m yearning to travel, but that’s still on hold. I’m doing my best to take care of myself holistically. It’s tough, but baby steps.

I took a nap so I’m awake. It’s officially game day. Niners vs. Packers @ Lambeau Field! I’m nervous excited. Not sure if I’ll get much sleep tbh. 🙃 GO NINERS!!!! #FTTB

Wishing you all a great weekend! Stay safe and be well.

Good night.

b

Self care.

I had an eye appointment today and all went well. Decided to swing by Chase Center to see the tree then Japantown for mochi and snacks.

I’ve been dealing with a lot – mentally and emotionally! I know I’m making the best decision for myself. If people can’t accept that, I’m moving on. 💗

Christmas is almost here and I’m trying to make the most of it!! I still need to finish writing some greeting cards.

I’ve slept a lot. Much needed.

Hope everyone is staying safe and healthy! Take care. 💜

b

Happy Birthday to you, Lola! ❤️

She’s 92 today! Time flies. I just want to say thank you for raising us – cooking, cleaning, and keeping us in check. I remember we used to get nagged if we didn’t change out of our school clothes or clean up after dinner. She taught me how to cook rice too!!

We brought brunch over to her this morning. Filipino food! And then more Filipino food for dinner. 🥰 She liked her presents too, a scarf and a beanie. Temperatures are starting to drop and I really want spring to be here already!!!

I’m emo, but I love our Lola. I was the one attached to her whenever she flew back to the Philippines. Full on tears! 🥺😭 Very grateful for our grandparents.

Going to end it here. I have an interview to prep for before bed. I hope everyone is staying safe! Good night. 💜

b

Covid blues.

It’s year two and now we’re inching closer to year three. I’ve had to adapt and it’s exhausting! I have a number of chronic conditions. I’m always masked up and fully vaccinated + boosted!! I’m very particular about where I go and I keep my exposure minimal. I still don’t dine indoors.

There’s a nice demographic of vaccinated people and the not so nice demographic who are still unvaccinated and spreading false information. At this point, these people are part of a cult and don’t even know it. GET OUT OF THE RABBIT HOLE PLS!!! They’re endangering the public and the rest of society. This is my soapbox. Let me rant! We all want to get back to our “regular and normal” lives, but we won’t get there if the ignorance and hatred continues.

This is a broken record! Please educate yourselves and think critically. I can’t even talk to some family members. I’m protected yes, but I’m worried for their own safety and well-being. They have no protection or shield from this.

I’m tired just typing this up. Please do your part so we can finally get out of this pandemic. I have a progressive heart & lung condition. I want to see more of the world!!! I won’t get that chance until this pandemic globally ends. I’ve been battling since I was 17.

That’s my late night rant. Good night. 💜

b

Annoyed and anxious.

There’s been a lot going on mentally for me. I need to take a step back and recollect myself. I didn’t get the job I applied for. A rejection always serves as a stepping stone for whatever else I may encounter. It’s discouraging, but I believe there’s a silver lining. There’s bound to be something out there for me, right?!

Part of me wants to give up, but the other part is telling me to keep going. So I’ll keep going. It’s the holiday season and I’m trying to have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year with my family.

On top of that – I need to keep myself healthy! I’m overwhelmed. Job hunting always does this to me.

Fantasy Football didn’t help me today. I was doing well and now I’m losing. 😭 It’s part of the game, but still. Don’t even get me started with the Niners. 🤬😤

I just need a good night’s sleep and to press reset. I was on the verge of tears earlier. Sighhh.

Wishing you all a great week! Take care. Good night. 💜

b

Hello November!

October came and went. I can’t believe it. Hope everyone had a nice Halloween! 🎃

I’m finishing up my class, still job searching, and helping my family. Sometimes it’s tough to balance, but I got this. 💪

Baseball is winding down. I’m very happy the Astros were able to push it to a game 6! More baseball on Tuesday. Can’t wait!!! I’m also following football and basketball. The time change happens in 6 days 😱 I’ll miss having the sun out up until 7pm.

Taking it a day at a time. I’m just very anxious 😩😢 I also need to breathe. When I’m stressed, I get very tense.

Just some thoughts before I sleep. Wishing you all a great week!

Good night.

b

Insomniac.

My sleep has been irregular for the last few months. I’m dealing with a lot of uncertainties. I’m trying to enjoy the ride, but those moments when I’m alone is when I feel it most. 😭 I’m so anxious too so that doesn’t help.

I’m keeping busy so I can make progress. So far it’s going alright.

Currently listening to Meg & Dia. I revert back to my twenties. Ups and downs, but I learned and experienced so much during those years! I hope the rest of my thirties will be just as eventful.

There’s just a lot to do in this lifetime, but taking it a day at a time. That’s all I can do. Onward! Keeping the faith and hoping for better days. I don’t like to dwell on the pandemic, but it’s impacted my life just like everyone else. I’m not able to freely do what I used to do. I’m changing my patterns and habits. I miss traveling. Probably won’t be able to until 2023. I always think of the future because of my health. Will I be healthy enough? Can I keep up? 😢

I’m doing my best to take care of myself and sometimes it doesn’t work out. I’m stubborn!

I’m getting sleepy so I’ll end it here. This is what’s been going on in my head.

Good night. 💜

b

Day 465.

Happy Sunday and Happy Father’s Day! 💗 It can be a tough day for many, but know that people are thinking of you and sending love.

I slept in, had a nice Father’s Day brunch at home. watched baseball, played ACNH, and took a nap. It was also Graham’s birthday today so that was nice.

Giants won! Took 2 of 3 from Philly. They’re on the road again, but it’s short. Go Giants!!! 🖤🧡

I’ve been putting off my assignment, but I’m going to get some of it done tonight! Time is just flying. It’s officially summer today too!! ☀️

I’m hoping to have a great week! Wishing you all the same.

Lastly, thinking of my uncle tonight. He’s in the hospital. I hope he’ll be alright. It’s also his bday today too. Sending love to you, Tito Roland!!! 💖

Good night.

b

Day 462.

Happy Thursday!

Today was so much fun. We got to watch the Giants in person. We haven’t been since September 2019! Bruce Bochy’s last game. I’m really proud of our team. I know it’s early, but they’re doing so well!!! 🥲🖤🧡

We were running pretty late in the beginning. We missed the first pitch, but that’s okay. We pregamed in the parking lot. I tried Pliny the Elder for the first time. It was good! I just wish I had snacks, a burger, or pizza to enjoy it with.

Our view was great! It was also a really warm day in SF. I’m a little sunburnt, but I was well protected with sunscreen and my cap. I took a decent amount of pics on my phone, Fujifilm instax camera, and my digital camera!! I got to have a hot dog and a Ghirardelli sundae.

I am in a bit of pain. There was a small piece of needle or even a staple that pierced my right foot. It still hurts now. 😭💔 I hope it heals quickly! Not even sure how it got into my shoe. Still confused about it.

ACNH update: I got Lucky’s photo! 💛 So happy about it. My turnip prices were decent. I must sell off the rest either tomorrow or Saturday.

The last of my Sanrio goodies arrived today. Hurrah! I’m done with buying stuff for now. Must save!!!

I’m tired, but I think we’re going to watch a movie. Always down to bond with my fam.

It was a good day!! Blessed.

Good night.

b

Day 457.

Happy Saturday! It was a day well spent celebrating our cousin’s high school graduation!! Congrats Ben! 👨‍🎓💚 And Happy Philippine Independence Day!! 🇵🇭

Today was the first time we got to gather as a family. Sometimes I wish we can go back to 2019! Thankful to science and medicine. We’re missing a bunch of people. I hope we can see each other soon!!

I stayed up watching the second season of Love, Victor! FELIX AND PILAR!!!! All the feels. Ahh. 🥲 I might just rewatch it again. OMG!!!

Giants split the doubleheader vs. the Nationals!! 🖤🧡

ACNH update: I sold all of my turnips. We celebrated with Bettina! Good times. Got a new K.K. song too. Yay!!!

Hoping to be well rested and much more productive tomorrow. Take care everyone!!

Good night.

b