Day 213.

Happy Sunday! What a fun weekend. Today was the final day of the Pinayista Summit. I learned so much, caught up with friends, and met new faces. I’m so empowered and proud to be Pinay! I now know the history behind the word. My mind is blown.

The lightning talks were everything to me. I’m inspired and it’s leading me in the right direction of what I want to do creatively. I have so much to learn, but it’ll be worth it. Next on the list: learn about the pin process and read up on graphic design. 🙂 YAY!!!

Today is also my 13th Anniversary since my Pulmonary Hypertension diagnosis. I was 20 years old. It was a life-changing day, but I also consider it a blessing. I’m still thriving, hustling, and elevating myself despite the doubts and fear. I am powerful! That’s what this weekend taught me. My story matters and so does yours. 💜

In addition to my anniversary – it’s also #dayofthegirl, #internationaldayofthegirl, and #nationalcomingoutday. Sending LOVE to all! There’s so much to celebrate.

It wasn’t a good sports day for the SF Bay Area. YEESH! I caught some of the Niners game. What happened?!! I’m still sticking with them. They are FOREVER! ❤️

Congrats to the Lakers. For Kobe!

I gotta tidy up a bit before bed. Going to play a little Animal Crossing first. 😀 I hope y’all had a nice one. Take care!

Good night.

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Day 1.

Today was originally an in service day for work. So until Sunday it’s like a regular weekend. But starting Monday 3/16 up until the 27th work will be closed. It could potentially be for longer, but I’m hoping and praying it isn’t.

I obviously don’t have control over the situation and the same can be said for others. I’m trying to remain positive during this turbulent time in our nation + the world. It’s definitely different from my routine.

I’m planning to work on myself, but at the top of my list is rest & recharging. I will also tackle driving. These next few days will be me time. I also fall into the immunocompromised demographic. I’ve always been good about washing my hands. Touching my face is a different story. I will miss social gatherings, but social distancing is absolutely critical. I plan to blog everyday that I’m off. That way I can remember and reflect.

Sunny has been keeping me busy. I love his films! I Fine..Thank You..Love You is the best. I can watch it forever honestly. 😊🥰

Wishing you all well. Please be safe! ❤️

b

LET ME THINK 22.

I’m still processing the passing of my friend. I knew this time would come, but it was too soon.

I miss our conversations. Being able to connect with someone who also has the same heart condition gave me comfort. I didn’t feel so alone and misunderstood. There were shared frustrations and fears. Despite that, we were able to talk about tv, makeup, and food. It was nice. From there, we connected with other individuals like us. We became a community.

Her writing was strong. And I always resonated with it. When she mentions milestones, I totally get it. Some of those are (still) unattainable for me. At times, I can’t help but feel guilty, unloved, and envious of my peers. I always ask myself, “Why did my life turn out this way?” Sometimes I just overly obsess about it to no avail. Unfortunately, I still don’t have an answer.

I’ll continue to hold out hope for a cure. It is absolutely needed. I don’t want to hear about life expectancies and limitations. You create your own future. Your thoughts are powerful. And I’ll continue to keep going. This is my reality.

This quote is all over social media: “If you get tired, learn to rest, not to quit.” I intend to do just that.

Can’t stop, won’t stop. #PHighters

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