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Life update.

Hi!

It’s been a few weeks. I’m now two weeks post-op. Things are healing nicely and I got the pathology report/results yesterday during my follow-up. All good news!!! I’m relieved. I’ve also been cleared to fly. I’m ready!!! 🇯🇵

Still not working atm. Might squeeze in a few shifts before my trip. We’ll see.

Need to catch up on school stuff later. It’s been raining heavily in the Bay Area today. Sighhh.

I haven’t slept at all. I was feeling restless. But I’ll try to knockout after this call. I’m sleepy now!!! I wasn’t a few hours ago. Ugh. 😒

Alright. Ttyl!

b

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5 days.

Surgery day is fast approaching and I’m taking care of everything that I can beforehand. That means laundry, cleaning, making sure I’m getting rest, eating well, and packing a bag for the hospital. I’m nervous! Very anxious too, but I know it’s for the best. I wanted to reach out to someone, but I think it’s best not to right now. 🥲

There’s a lot of pre-surgery prep. Need to remind myself to stay away from certain foods and drinks. Can’t have caffeine this week. Gahhh! Not even salmon. I wanted a poke bowl. Next time.

I know I’ll be in good hands. But I’m praying and thinking positive.

Sports is keeping me preoccupied! Go Blue Jays. Been a Springer fan since his Astro days. BEAT LA!!! 🩵

I’ve also bought hella Niner gear. I am not ashamed. I love my damn team. LFG!!!

It’s my Monday. There’s a ton of stuff I need to deal with academically too. This week feels like an eternity. A day at a time.

I’m ready to ko! Good night.

b

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Life update.

Doc called me yesterday. More testing needs to be done. I’m being referred to another specialist. I’ve cried a few times already. I’m anxious and I’m scared. Just trying to breathe through it all. 😭

I’m grateful to my medical team, my family, and my friends. I know they’re supporting me as best as they can.

Lots of things are distracting me right now: sports, music, and a bit of retail therapy!

I’m just hoping things work out for me in November. I’m looking forward to getting away.🤞

The eternal sunshine tour presale is in a few hours. I really hope I get tickets!! That would make me so, so happy. PLSSS. 🩵

Well, I bid you all adieu.

Later!

b

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Health stuff.

I’m retaining water in my belly. Ahh! I’m pretty anxious and nervous about it because the radiologist isn’t sure what’s causing it. He advised to get a CT scan to get a better look.🤞I sent a message to my primary care doctor. Hopefully she gets back to me soon. The plan is to drain it. Knew this wasn’t just in my head. I always questioned why my tummy looked like that in the mirror and in pics. Now I know there’s something going on.

It’s officially a new month and I’m thinking about a lot!!! I want the rest of the year to go well, but feeling meh. 😭 Doing my best to stay positive.

Still in a spat with my siblings. I need my space and my peace right now so I’m not engaging. Byeee.

Work is officially back this week and school! Might teach, but depends on the course and the hours. We’ll see.

Giants baseball right now is 🔥🔥🔥! Keep it up, boys.

Just listening to music. Manifesting Ariana tix for the eternal sunshine tour. PLSSS!!! 🩵 I need them.

Good night.

b

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Emo ass.

Yesterday was a long, but productive day! Had a doc appt and work. 💜

During my appt, I found myself getting teary eyed. I’ve been feeling a lot of emotions lately. It means it’s almost that time of month. 🥲 Anyway, I’ve been overthinking. This is all normal for me. Dealing with feelings annoys me. Do I like him more than he likes me? Probably. So I’m trying to create space, but it’s hard.

I’m not good with boundaries. It’s gonna take a lot of practice.

Life is very challenging right now. I feel like every year is tbh. I don’t want things to be this way anymore. How do I change it? Sighhh. I want to be happy truly. I just don’t know what that looks like right now.

I’m just really frustrated. I want things to be better. Change starts within.

Anyway, baseball is back today! Here’s to the second half of the season. GO GIANTS!!!!! 🖤🧡

I’ll try to sleep. Good night.

b

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In my head.

Been in there a lot the last few days. It’s also that time of month, so I’ve been very emotional and sensitive!

I have the week off which is nice. It’s been great to slow down, take my time, and catch up on rest.

It’s officially summer, but the weather in SF says otherwise. 🥲 I’m still layered up every time I leave the house. I went for a nice walk yesterday at Kezar after my blood draw. Things look okay. Doc might follow up this week.

Orbiting. It’s annoying af. But that person just did. I’m learning to let go and be okay with not doing much with that anymore. It pains me and it makes me sad, but I guess I’ll just leave it. As much as I like them, space is important. Sighhh.

Baseball. It’s brutal af! The Giants have lost games that they shouldn’t have. Offense is still rocky. Pitching is decent. Defense could also use some work. Going to another game this month and I need them to show up!!! 🖤🧡

I’m decluttering and letting go of things that no longer serve me. It’s a lot of work, but it’ll be worth it.

Lots to look forward to the next few days! I’m ready. 🥰

Good night.

b

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Life lately.

I’ve been juggling work and school! The usual. I’m pretty exhausted, but I always push through. It’s been really nice the last few days. I’m content even if I’m tired. That guy has a lot to do with it. 🥰 Building on our friendship.

I got to watch football, catch up with a really good friend, and finished my midterms. Did the Lupus Walk too. I did it all!!! 💜

Baseball is annoying me right now. Go Yankees!!!

Hoping this week is decent. I know I’ll be tired again. Just gotta pace myself. Can’t believe Halloween is pretty much here!!! 🎃 Where did the year go?!!

I should probably sleep soon. I teach later.

Good night.

b

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Infinite Love.

I was able to see a sneak peek of Yayoi Kusama’s exhibit at the SFMOMA on Monday, 10/9! Thank you to my friend, Rachael. She invited me since I really wanted to go and she’s a member. It officially opens this Saturday, October 14. This was my first Kusama exhibit. I wanted to see the one in LA, but I’ll have to plan for that next time.

I gravitate towards her artwork! I love polka dots too. Here are a few pics from Monday. 🟡🔵🔴🟢🎃

I’m off today, but I did have class! Just had lunch and rewatched *NSync music videos. 🥰

Time for a nap and then I’m cleaning! I hope I can tackle some schoolwork too.

Today is also my 16th PH Anniversary. I always reflect and show gratitude for how far I’ve come. I plan to keep going. Can’t stop, won’t stop. 💜

Byeee.

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Baby steps.

Proud of myself for putting forth some effort and challenging my thought patterns as of late. I’m capable! The only thing stopping me is me. I don’t want to jump to conclusions or anything like that, but I’m also trying to be rational about the situation.

It’s fun trying to get to know someone new. Maybe I’ll have some more opportunities these next few days. But until then, I’m going to chill out, take care of school work, and catch up on sports!

I’m just very curious right now, but let’s not get too excited. Be cool. 🤪😎

Covid-19 is back in the household. I hope it’s completely gone in a week! Oh my goodness. It’s so inconvenient. 😫 Patience. Tested myself and I’m negative.

Well, back to A Tourist’s Guide to Love.

Good night.

b

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