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I already miss Japan.

I got home on December 2nd. Still dealing with jet lag. Been sleeping on and off. I’m awake now so I’ve decided to type out some thoughts.

I had a beautiful time out there! I didn’t get to do everything so I’m already planning my second visit. ☺️ The last few months were challenging for me, so I was happy to reward myself with a trip.

Long plane rides are torturous for me. I couldn’t stay in my seat either. I had to get up and walk + use the bathroom. Had to keep the blood flowing. Decent seat neighbors. Plane food was pretty good too.

The goal right now is to save and pay off bills! I spent a lot out there, but I have no regrets. Missing all of the food! 😭

The highlight of my trip was seeing Mt. Fuji! Going to Puroland too. I was also able to navigate transit. I’m so proud of myself!!!

Now I’m back home trying to get back to normal life. Missing some people that I hope to see very soon. Life is already changing. Please slow down just for a bit.

Good night. 💜

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Coach Beam.

It’s tragic and heartbreaking what happened to him on Thursday. I was stunned when I saw the headline.

I didn’t know about him until Last Chance U. I watched a bit of that season, but now I’ll have to finish it.

I never formally met him, but we were on the same flight home from JFK to SFO back in 2024. I had to do a double take. He was rocking his green, so I knew it was him!! He was on the phone. I wish I would’ve said hello and shook his hand, but that’s okay.

JUCO football is still fairly new to me because I didn’t pay much attention to it before I transferred to UC Davis. But now, I fully support it!!! I’ve got a friend on the Laney football team who is about to transfer to a D1 school. We’re bay rivals, but I still support him. 😂

It’s hard to wrap my head around everything at the moment. Coach Beam gave so much to Oakland. He was a pillar for the East Bay, the Bay Area, and beyond. Football lost a great one.

His final year of coaching was the 2024 season. I was fortunate enough to see a game at Laney last October. I saw him on the sidelines.

RIP Coach Beam. You’ve touched so many lives!

Photo credit: John Beam

2 claps, ready ready. 🦅💚

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5 days.

Surgery day is fast approaching and I’m taking care of everything that I can beforehand. That means laundry, cleaning, making sure I’m getting rest, eating well, and packing a bag for the hospital. I’m nervous! Very anxious too, but I know it’s for the best. I wanted to reach out to someone, but I think it’s best not to right now. 🥲

There’s a lot of pre-surgery prep. Need to remind myself to stay away from certain foods and drinks. Can’t have caffeine this week. Gahhh! Not even salmon. I wanted a poke bowl. Next time.

I know I’ll be in good hands. But I’m praying and thinking positive.

Sports is keeping me preoccupied! Go Blue Jays. Been a Springer fan since his Astro days. BEAT LA!!! 🩵

I’ve also bought hella Niner gear. I am not ashamed. I love my damn team. LFG!!!

It’s my Monday. There’s a ton of stuff I need to deal with academically too. This week feels like an eternity. A day at a time.

I’m ready to ko! Good night.

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Health stuff.

I’m retaining water in my belly. Ahh! I’m pretty anxious and nervous about it because the radiologist isn’t sure what’s causing it. He advised to get a CT scan to get a better look.🤞I sent a message to my primary care doctor. Hopefully she gets back to me soon. The plan is to drain it. Knew this wasn’t just in my head. I always questioned why my tummy looked like that in the mirror and in pics. Now I know there’s something going on.

It’s officially a new month and I’m thinking about a lot!!! I want the rest of the year to go well, but feeling meh. 😭 Doing my best to stay positive.

Still in a spat with my siblings. I need my space and my peace right now so I’m not engaging. Byeee.

Work is officially back this week and school! Might teach, but depends on the course and the hours. We’ll see.

Giants baseball right now is 🔥🔥🔥! Keep it up, boys.

Just listening to music. Manifesting Ariana tix for the eternal sunshine tour. PLSSS!!! 🩵 I need them.

Good night.

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Portland 2025.🌲

It was an adventure getting up there, but I made it happen!!! Long story short: the booking agency I went through took my money, but they never finalized the reservation. No wonder no one could find it!!! I got to SFO at 4am to figure things out. I was scrambling trying to finalize another flight. Thankfully I was hella resourceful and I made it happen for myself. I did have to fork over some money, but I made it to the original flight I was supposed to be on. 😮‍💨

Isay picked me up at PDX! At this point, I hadn’t slept. I was a little delirious. So after Costco, we had breakfast at their place and we were all able to nap for a few hours. I was just happy to settle in. Cookie made my trip that much more fun! She reminded me so much of Beari. 🥹🐶

We did a little bit of shopping. I was really mindful of what I was going to buy. Most of my money went to food and drinks. I was able to buy postcards at Powell’s and Multnomah Falls. Lived out my Twilight dreamzzz. It was amazing!!! 🩵

I was still dealing with dumb thoughts about these stupid people, but it is what it is. I’m in the bay. Byeee! 😒😤

I’ve been trying to catch up on rest and sleep since I’ve returned. I hated my flight back because I was in the middle seat. My neck was also annoying me. I slept wrong the day before so that didn’t help.

I never want to deal with travel mishaps ever again, especially flying!!! I was so irritated. The booking agency kept gaslighting me too. “The reservation is there.” No, it’s not. Stop pissing me off. Had to file a claim with my bank. Never fucking again!!!

Anyway, I’m tired. Giants won! Woo. Trying to enjoy my time off. Before you know it, I’ll be back to work and school. I am not ready. I need some fun and spontaneity in my life. 😏

Good night.

b

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Japan!

It’s finally happening. I’ve been talking about this trip for so long. I mustered up all of my courage and booked my plane tickets for November. First solo international trip and my first time in Asia!!

I’ve been watching reels, YouTube videos, and everything in between to prep for this adventure. I’m anxious and very excited!!! I’m looking forward to taking all of these pics: food, tourist attractions, shrines, still life of the city, and heck even videos! I’ve been trying to do that more since I don’t do that enough.

I’m hoping I meet a lot of great people out there. The one thing that’s making me a bit nervous is navigating public transit. If I get lost, don’t panic. I’m confident with my sense of direction. It never hurts to ask for help either! ☺️

It’s my Monday today. I don’t want it to be the weekend yet. I’m dealing with a lot of feelings and emotions. Ahh! Part of me knows I shouldn’t. We shall see.

Good night. 💜

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Emo ass.

Yesterday was a long, but productive day! Had a doc appt and work. 💜

During my appt, I found myself getting teary eyed. I’ve been feeling a lot of emotions lately. It means it’s almost that time of month. 🥲 Anyway, I’ve been overthinking. This is all normal for me. Dealing with feelings annoys me. Do I like him more than he likes me? Probably. So I’m trying to create space, but it’s hard.

I’m not good with boundaries. It’s gonna take a lot of practice.

Life is very challenging right now. I feel like every year is tbh. I don’t want things to be this way anymore. How do I change it? Sighhh. I want to be happy truly. I just don’t know what that looks like right now.

I’m just really frustrated. I want things to be better. Change starts within.

Anyway, baseball is back today! Here’s to the second half of the season. GO GIANTS!!!!! 🖤🧡

I’ll try to sleep. Good night.

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In my head.

Been in there a lot the last few days. It’s also that time of month, so I’ve been very emotional and sensitive!

I have the week off which is nice. It’s been great to slow down, take my time, and catch up on rest.

It’s officially summer, but the weather in SF says otherwise. 🥲 I’m still layered up every time I leave the house. I went for a nice walk yesterday at Kezar after my blood draw. Things look okay. Doc might follow up this week.

Orbiting. It’s annoying af. But that person just did. I’m learning to let go and be okay with not doing much with that anymore. It pains me and it makes me sad, but I guess I’ll just leave it. As much as I like them, space is important. Sighhh.

Baseball. It’s brutal af! The Giants have lost games that they shouldn’t have. Offense is still rocky. Pitching is decent. Defense could also use some work. Going to another game this month and I need them to show up!!! 🖤🧡

I’m decluttering and letting go of things that no longer serve me. It’s a lot of work, but it’ll be worth it.

Lots to look forward to the next few days! I’m ready. 🥰

Good night.

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☀️🤎

It was a beautiful day in the city yesterday! I love the spring time. I decided to walk over to Dolores Park to enjoy the sunshine. I got a really nice tan.

Then I bought some snacks. Unfortunately, my bag of Cheetos split open. I was craving them too. Ugh! I’ll have to buy another bag elsewhere. 😤

School is winding down! Three more weeks. My final project is in the works. Hoping to catch up with a friend. They said it’s coming. 🤭 You better!!!

Anyway, planning to just rest up before work resumes on Wednesday.

Also I had some of the best poke in my life yesterday. Salmon FTW!!! 🍣

I’ll try to sleep soon. Good night!

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Let go.

I’ve come to this realization that I’m not a priority. Of course not. You’re not in a relationship. I’m always pushed to the side. An afterthought.

I give so much of myself. I’m done being nice and accommodating when I’m not even considered!!!

Boundaries. I must learn to keep them. I shouldn’t fold. Even with that person. They are not good for you.

Turn inwards. Also, baseball is not helping you atm.

Semester is almost done. Keep your eyes on the prize!!!

Good night. 💜

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