Day 170.

I feel like I’m hitting a wall with something. Or maybe I’m just reading into it too much? Hmm. Either way I just gotta keep going – even with all of the distractions. Music is helping me focus!

Happy Saturday! Still processing the sad news of Chadwick Boseman’s passing. What a beautiful soul! He’ll be missed. RIP King. 🖤

I slept a lot today. I was feeling tired since I didn’t fall asleep right away. Hoping to be more productive tomorrow with cleaning and organizing. Maybe even do a load of laundry. I did help with changing the toilet seat! Score. 😎 Very useful skill to have. Check it out on YouTube.

I just finished the 600 day squat challenge with my arena strength booty bands. Difficult, but not impossible. Might do it every week! 💪🏼 YOU. CAN.

Giants win in AZ! Hurrah!! Losing streak is done. 🖤🧡

I just played my uke. It always sounds so beautiful and peaceful. Much needed after this heavy week.

Animal Crossing update: still trying to get the right villager to move out and it hasn’t happened. I’m going to try again since there’s a visitor at the campsite. Lol. Last fireworks show tomorrow! Let me see if I can find a Black Panther design. Would love to honor CB in that way.

That was my Saturday. Mellow, but somewhat productive. The days just go by quickly. Hope y’all had a nice one. Take care!

Good night.

b

Day 169.

TGIF! What a day. I wasn’t feeling well earlier, so I took it easy for the last few hours. I’ve been feeling stressed and anxious. I had to breathe and let go. I exercised too. I got through it.

The news of Chadwick Boseman’s passing has left me heartbroken. What a talent! I enjoyed him in 42 and Black Panther. RIP. ❤️

I finished some work stuff. That’s where my anxiety stems from. I want it to be perfect, but it’s a work in progress. As long as I’m improving – that’s all that matters to me.

Last Christmas is finally in my possession! Now it’s part of our movie collection. Yay!!! 💗

Animal Crossing update: I played for about 30 minutes. Took care of maintenance on my island.

Giants losing streak is at 3. Still cheering for them. 🖤🧡

I might play my uke to give me some peace. I’m just looking forward to the weekend. Deep breaths. Everything will be alright.

Happy weekend to all! Take care.

Good night.

b

Day 168.

It’s been a meh kind of day, but I’m making progress. I finally bought the Sailor Moon blushes from the Colourpop collab! Thanks for the assist, twin. 💜 She was clutch!

The Giants disappointed me today. 0-2 with the doubleheader. I’m just glad we got the first game. We won’t see LA again this season. Phew. Playoffs or not, it’s been fun to watch this very interesting season.

Animal Crossing update: I bought another piece of art from Redd. Yay! He doesn’t stop by often, but when he does I take advantage of it. I’ll try to clean things up on my island this weekend. I’ve been too distracted with work stuff.

Work stuff: I’m finalizing course descriptions and outlines. I’m planning to stay up a bit to finish everything so I can submit it tomorrow. Trying my best to get back to a routine. It still feels like March tbh.

I napped for a few hours. I needed the rest. I’m still very emo, but I’ll be okay. Whatever this is. 🙃 I don’t know. The pandemic has made it hard to meet new people, but I’m making the effort.

It’s so cold now. I miss the warm weather. Might go for a walk tomorrow. We’ll see. I must also keep in touch with my docs. Eep.

Well it’s time to exercise, play my uke, and eat dinner! Hope y’all had a nice one. Take care.

Good night.

b

Day 167.

It’s been a heavy day for me. I had to take a nap after hearing about the current events in sports, politics, and the murder of innocent people protesting for change! I’ve been very vocal about my political views. My blog is a place of love and safety. I will continue to support #BlackLivesMatter. 🖤

I’m also dealing with my own personal issues. I guess I’m trying to figure out what was said. Am I overthinking? Am I overreacting? I’m a strong Piscean womyn. I’ve always had good intuition. Of course people are owed the benefit of the doubt. So we shall see. I had to step away from my phone for the last few hours. I’ll respond when I’m not so emotionally charged and clear headed. This pandemic has become overwhelming. I miss social interaction especially in public settings, but I’m still doing my part and exercising caution no matter how much I want to meet somebody new.

I haven’t found the strength to study and take care of work stuff. Maybe I can work on something for an hour or two. I must play my uke too. I played some Animal Crossing too. I was quite distracted so I didn’t play for long. 🙃

I finished my 100 squats! I’m challenging myself to take care of my body and eat well. So far I’ve done 300. Another 300 more! I can!!! 💜💪🏼💜

Lastly, Happy National Dog Day! To the present and past puppers, thank you for your love and loyalty. We love you always! ❤️

Time to focus. Hope y’all had a nice one. Take care!

Good night.

b

Day 166.

I’m all over the place. But hey, it’s Tuesday! Splendor in the Grass was really good btw. Natalie Wood ❤️

I’ve got work things to think about, some other things to think about, and then some more. I’m kinda in an iffy mood. I hate internalizing things. 😩 At least I got my squats done.

Animal Crossing: I checked my island. I made sure I sold some turnips. Nothing too eventful.

I had ramen for lunch and banh mi for dinner.

I’ve been watching the Giants game since 6:45pm. We’re in extras. Come on, Gigantes!!!! Send us home. 🖤🧡

I gotta study and brainstorm tonight. Might be a long night for me. Must focus on something else to pass the time. I’ll probably play my uke too.

Hope y’all had a nice one. Take care!

Good night.

b

EDIT: Walk-off! Thanks Solano!!! GIANTS! 🖤🧡

Day 165.

Happy Monday! 💕 I stayed up watching Last Christmas again. I love the movie, the music, and the cast! All the feels.

I’ve been exercising consistently and it burns. But I feel better about myself. It boosts my mood. Much needed during these unique times.

Animal Crossing update: I only played a little today. I sold a few things, cleaned up some items, and interacted with my villagers. K.K. was playing at the plaza.

Still in my head a lot, but I’m working through it.

I should’ve cleaned more today, but yesterday wore me out. Will tackle more things tomorrow.

We’re going to be watching Splendor in the Grass. It’ll be my first viewing. So excited! I hope I like it.

I played my Britney Spears vinyl again. MOOD.

Good night.

b

Day 164.

Happy Sunday! ❤️

I spent the day cleaning and organizing. I went ham for about 8 hours with some breaks in between. Had to trash and shred old papers. Tomorrow I’ll be organizing some more. I’ll have to start a donation pile.

I’m currently exercising as I type this. I’m using a resistance band for my legs. The burn!

Highlights of my day: putting up the artwork I’ve collected over the years. I finally played Britney’s debut album on vinyl. Sounds amazing! It was the first album I bought with my own money at Costco back in the day. I’m dating myself! Lol. The Aces and Little Mix have also been on repeat. Soundtracks of my current mood.

I’ve been in my head the last few days. It tends to happen a lot, but I’m aware that it’s because of my anxiety. I’m doing alright. Staying beautiful and confident through the struggle.

The Giants are streaking! Yayyy!!! But today was sad since we had to say farewell to Hunter Pence again. He’s a treasure in SF! I miss him a lot already. He’s contributed so much in the past. It’s hard to see him go, but it’s part of the business. Forever Giant. 🖤🧡

Animal Crossing update: I played early to buy my turnips and then I checked in about a half hour ago to stare at the fireworks. Lol. I’ve been distracted by other things. 🙃

Lastly, Happy Birthday to Kobe! You are missed. 💜

Hope y’all had a nice weekend. Have a kick ass week! Take care.

Good night.

b

Day 163.

It’s been a busy day. Today came and went. The biggest task was building my desk. We’re steps away from completion! Definitely a marathon and a labor of love. Thanks to my sister, Lala, for assisting! 💗

Animal Crossing update: There was another bug-off on my island. I did okay. I just remembered that I didn’t sell the rest of my turnips. So I’m just going to trash them. Man! I missed out on making a profit. Sighhh.

I’ve been tired and just a little moody. Today has been something. I’ve been thinking about a lot. Breathe. Just breathe.

Giants win again! They’re playing really well. 🖤🧡 Yaz has been clutch!!

Hoping tomorrow will be a much better day. I’ve got a lot on my plate, but it’ll all get done.

Thinking of everyone in California who has had to evacuate due to the state fires. Keep safe! 💕

Good night.

b

Day 161.

I was very productive today! Hurrah. 🙂 I’m pacing myself through everything. It’s so important to just take breaks in between everything.

I’m feeling a little under the weather. It might be because of the smoke outside. I didn’t even go out there. I’m also sleepy since I didn’t nap.

Animal Crossing update: nothing new to report. Must reorganize items and figure out what else to put on Mango.

I think the word of the day is reflection. During this pandemic, I’ve done a lot of it. It’s nice getting to talk to someone new these last few weeks. I’ve gained another perspective.

Exciting times for the Giants. Joey Bart was called up! Yay!!! We won tonight and he got his big league hit. 🖤🧡 Glad he’s with us and I can’t wait to see what more he can contribute.

One more IKEA thing to build. My desk! Everything else is done. I’m planning to organize most of my belongings this weekend. Looking forward to it.

I’ve gotta watch the DNC remarks from tonight and Biden’s speech. He’s a sign of hope! ❤️

That was my day. I’m excited for the weekend. Hope y’all had a nice one. The Aces are on repeat btw. Love them!! 💗

Good night.

b

Day 160.

Currently playing: Holiday – Little Mix 🧜🏼‍♀️

How is Wednesday almost over?! 😱 Time went by pretty quickly this week.

California is currently dealing with a number of fires. Scary times in the state along with the pandemic. Stay safe, everyone!

San Francisco could come off the watch list as soon as tomorrow, but we must continue to be vigilant and practice all the guidelines to keep everyone safe. I’m still dealing with a lot of anxiety from all of this. Seeking connection has kind of been my saving grace. Keeping in touch with friends and family has also helped. I miss everyone! ❤️

George Michael, The Aces, and Little Mix have been on repeat. They are the current soundtracks of my life. Figuring things out for myself. I don’t want to jump to conclusions or expect too much. I had a very good teletherapy session with my therapist today and she gave me a lot of input & advice. I may take her up on it. We’ll see. Every risk in life requires being courageous!

Speaking of Little Mix, Happy 9th Anniversary! I love them so much and I still hope to see them live in the future. 💗

Happy World Photography Day!! 📸

Animal Crossing update: my island is pretty much the same. Flick is visiting. I’ve been a bit busy to keep up with my game. It’s good I’m enrolled in a course. It’s all about balance. I still love the game, but I’m investing my energy and time into my potential calling.

Giants defeat the Angels! We’ve got a 2 game winning streak. Woo!!! 🖤🧡

Planning to build my additional storage tomorrow. We’re almost done with all the furnishings. Two more projects!

Hope y’all had a nice one. Take care!

Good night.

b