Tag: in memoriam

Coach Beam.

It’s tragic and heartbreaking what happened to him on Thursday. I was stunned when I saw the headline.

I didn’t know about him until Last Chance U. I watched a bit of that season, but now I’ll have to finish it.

I never formally met him, but we were on the same flight home from JFK to SFO back in 2024. I had to do a double take. He was rocking his green, so I knew it was him!! He was on the phone. I wish I would’ve said hello and shook his hand, but that’s okay.

JUCO football is still fairly new to me because I didn’t pay much attention to it before I transferred to UC Davis. But now, I fully support it!!! I’ve got a friend on the Laney football team who is about to transfer to a D1 school. We’re bay rivals, but I still support him. 😂

It’s hard to wrap my head around everything at the moment. Coach Beam gave so much to Oakland. He was a pillar for the East Bay, the Bay Area, and beyond. Football lost a great one.

His final year of coaching was the 2024 season. I was fortunate enough to see a game at Laney last October. I saw him on the sidelines.

RIP Coach Beam. You’ve touched so many lives!

Photo credit: John Beam

2 claps, ready ready. 🦅💚

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Happy 2024!

It’s a new year, but I’d like to reflect on 2023. Proud of myself for the highs, lows, and everything in between. My grief was very very heavy. I feel like I’m still processing the losses and adjusting to all of it. I can’t ever forget the love of my Lola Mila and Beari’s beautiful companionship. I felt the most unconditional love from them. It’s bittersweet to start fresh and they aren’t here. 😭

I’ll always share their stories and pictures. I miss having lunch with Lola. I miss being greeted by Beari when I get home from school or work. It’s truly all of the little things. Doing my best to be strong, but also gentle with myself on my most difficult days. I’m ready for the ride! I know 2024 will be a very important year. 💜

2023 was the year of concerts and music! Still cherishing those moments and memories.

I am tentatively the winner of my FF league, but waiting on official confirmation. I spent hours watching most of the games yesterday. That’s how my NYE went. Thankfully I had time to cook dinner for the fam. I’m pretty tired now. I’ll try to sleep, but I’m anxious. One more week of holiday break! Ready to tackle it all.

Good night and I wish you all well!

b

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A year today.

Time has moved so quickly since we had to say goodbye. The house is still too quiet without you. We’re keeping your memory alive by sharing stories, pictures, and videos.

Five years with you was a short amount of time, but it was filled with so much love and laughter. I often say you were too beautiful for this world and it’s absolutely true.

I miss you every day, Beari. I hope you’re running free and enjoying the endless treats wherever you are. Forever a good girl. 🤍🐶✨

Love,

Bernadette

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Doozy.

I guess that sums up my week! I miss being on vacay. 🥺 I’m playing catch up, but I’m almost caught up. Countdown to my 36th Birthday! OMGGG. Where did the time go?!!!

Missing Beari a lot. My grief comes in waves. I think I dreamt of her yesterday, but I can’t fully remember. She’ll always be with me/us. This adjustment period is rough. We can’t just take in another dog. We’re gonna wait this one out since we have so much to do. I’ll be patient. I’ve got sights to see the world! I know she’d want that for us. Miss you so much, girl. ❤️🐻❤️

I’m off today, so I can finally sleep in a bit. But I’ve got errands to run later. I hope I’m productive!! Planning to just take it easy.

Well, I might watch another show or movie. Something to keep my mind off of things.

I miss football. Like a lot! 😩

Good night.

b

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Grief.

I can remember a relative passing away when I was 12. It was my first real glimpse with death. I can also recall our first pet’s passing. It was a cold and rainy day in January. She was too young. 😭

It’s normal. As you age, the people around you get older and pass on. I lost three grandparents in the 2010s. As a young adult, the loss was palpable. I was sad, angry, and in disbelief. I’ve come to terms with it a decade later, but the void never leaves me. The same can be said about family pets.

Losing Beari has suffocated me at times. I didn’t want to let go, but euthanasia was the best for her. I’m still so angry because cancer took her away from us. I just picked up her chew toys in my room. I miss her so much. Her scent lingers at home. The silence is deafening. I miss her barks. I miss her companionship. I miss everything! 🥺 This is an adjustment period. It’d be nice to take in another dog, but I’m not ready. We’re not ready.

Her birthday is almost here. We’d like to have a special meal for her and maybe some cupcakes to celebrate her life. Change comes with the territory. I’m doing my best to adapt. Owning a pet is one of the greatest feelings in the world! But saying goodbye is the hardest part.

I love you, Beari. ❤️🐻❤️

b

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Farewell 2022!

So many great memories were made this year, but losing our dear Beari in November was heartbreaking. I’ll miss her always! ❤️🐻❤️

I hope to do and be better in 2023! It’s the year of the rabbit. Yes!!! I’d like to travel more, excel academically, and continue growing in all areas of my life. I hope to take more risks because why not?! 😎

Wishing all of you a wonderful 2023! 🥂🎆

b

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