I already miss Japan.

I got home on December 2nd. Still dealing with jet lag. Been sleeping on and off. I’m awake now so I’ve decided to type out some thoughts.

I had a beautiful time out there! I didn’t get to do everything so I’m already planning my second visit. ☺️ The last few months were challenging for me, so I was happy to reward myself with a trip.

Long plane rides are torturous for me. I couldn’t stay in my seat either. I had to get up and walk + use the bathroom. Had to keep the blood flowing. Decent seat neighbors. Plane food was pretty good too.

The goal right now is to save and pay off bills! I spent a lot out there, but I have no regrets. Missing all of the food! 😭

The highlight of my trip was seeing Mt. Fuji! Going to Puroland too. I was also able to navigate transit. I’m so proud of myself!!!

Now I’m back home trying to get back to normal life. Missing some people that I hope to see very soon. Life is already changing. Please slow down just for a bit.

Good night. 💜

b

5 days.

Surgery day is fast approaching and I’m taking care of everything that I can beforehand. That means laundry, cleaning, making sure I’m getting rest, eating well, and packing a bag for the hospital. I’m nervous! Very anxious too, but I know it’s for the best. I wanted to reach out to someone, but I think it’s best not to right now. 🥲

There’s a lot of pre-surgery prep. Need to remind myself to stay away from certain foods and drinks. Can’t have caffeine this week. Gahhh! Not even salmon. I wanted a poke bowl. Next time.

I know I’ll be in good hands. But I’m praying and thinking positive.

Sports is keeping me preoccupied! Go Blue Jays. Been a Springer fan since his Astro days. BEAT LA!!! 🩵

I’ve also bought hella Niner gear. I am not ashamed. I love my damn team. LFG!!!

It’s my Monday. There’s a ton of stuff I need to deal with academically too. This week feels like an eternity. A day at a time.

I’m ready to ko! Good night.

b

☀️🤎

It was a beautiful day in the city yesterday! I love the spring time. I decided to walk over to Dolores Park to enjoy the sunshine. I got a really nice tan.

Then I bought some snacks. Unfortunately, my bag of Cheetos split open. I was craving them too. Ugh! I’ll have to buy another bag elsewhere. 😤

School is winding down! Three more weeks. My final project is in the works. Hoping to catch up with a friend. They said it’s coming. 🤭 You better!!!

Anyway, planning to just rest up before work resumes on Wednesday.

Also I had some of the best poke in my life yesterday. Salmon FTW!!! 🍣

I’ll try to sleep soon. Good night!

b

Let go.

I’ve come to this realization that I’m not a priority. Of course not. You’re not in a relationship. I’m always pushed to the side. An afterthought.

I give so much of myself. I’m done being nice and accommodating when I’m not even considered!!!

Boundaries. I must learn to keep them. I shouldn’t fold. Even with that person. They are not good for you.

Turn inwards. Also, baseball is not helping you atm.

Semester is almost done. Keep your eyes on the prize!!!

Good night. 💜

b

I need to detach.

I’ve been saying this for quite some time now and I haven’t. I’m so, so stubborn.

But I didn’t get a reply back, so I’m going to leave it. Maybe get in touch with him on Friday? I keep initiating. He doesn’t. I’m tired. 😭

Finally practicing yoga again! Need to get stronger. Also doing core work. I’m pretty sore, but it’ll be worth it. Taking day time walks now too. Night time walks are fun, but too many critters out and about. No thanks!

Need to declutter my space. I also got laundry done yesterday!! Proud of me. No one was around. It was really peaceful. 🫧

My goals for this week: getting my mind right! My diet too. Back on the yogurt hype. Haha. Non-dairy!!

SZA has been on repeat. Love her so much!!

Well, time to call it a night.

Later!!

b

Can’t wait to be done. 😭

School is kicking my butt and I’m juggling two jobs at the same time. It will all get done, but I am exhausted!!!

Looking forward to finishing papers, projects, and my finals.

There’s something to look forward to hopefully. 🙂‍↔️ We got to chat. I’ll remind him. Lol.

Willy Adames is a Giant! Physical pending.🤞Traumatized after Carlos Correa tbh.

Anyway, time to ko! It’s my Friday. Yayyy. And Go Niners!!!!!

Good night.

b

Four more weeks!

I’m so tired. Trying to hold myself accountable by eating more than one meal and trying to get sleep. Not working for me atm. 🥲

Looking forward to Sunday being over because that means I can sleep in on Monday!!! It’ll be a short week for me, but there’s still so much to do before the semester ends. Teaching has also been a lot but it’s so rewarding.

WCC later. Catch up with a friend. And the rest of my Saturday will be the usual. Hoping I see him. 😛

The rain has been a lot. It should clear up after Tuesday.

Dealt with really bad heartburn. I was in pain earlier. I’m okay now.

Well, time to sleep.

Good night.

b

Think good thoughts.

This week has been a lot. Trying my best to stay positive despite the negativity!!!

Summer work is winding down and I’m looking forward to a lot these next few weeks. School is right around the corner too, but I will push through like I always do. I got this!!!

Shoe shopping has been fun, but Nordstrom let me down. Repurchased the shoe again, but I’m not sure if I’ll be successful.🤞

Baseball is back! ASG is always whack. Lol.

New music is keeping me on my feet. Also trying this new thing by not comparing myself to others. It does absolutely nothing for me!!! Keep shining, b. 💜💜💜

He told me some positive things last week and it’s made me smile, but I’m also shy now. 😂🥵

I hope I have a good time later! The music mix!!!

Kk time to sleep. Good night.

b

Punched their ticket!

The Niners are back in the Super Bowl!!! 🥹 I followed the game as I worked. Dealt with a lot of emotions: annoyance, anxiety, nerves, excitement, and more!!

BROCK PURDY! Give him his flowers, please. He was amazing! Aiyuk is my dude and I knew he’d be a huge factor. Two weeks until the big game. GO NINERS!!! ❤️

It was a nice work weekend. One more day and then I get to rest up for a few. Not liking the rain that’s being forecasted. 😤 Enjoying all the sunshine and the sun setting at a later time.

Well, I’m tired. Highlight of my day: Saigon sandwiches. 😋 I’ll order again in two weeks!!! Exchanged pleasantries too. Haha.

Good night. #FTTB

b

🙄

Please! No more rain. I can’t take it anymore. 😫 It’s my day off and I wanted to do something fun. I’ve also been very tired. Worked four straight shifts. Thankfully I’m on spring break! No class for me. 😎

Baseball returns this week! Trying to get a ticket to the Dubs game tonight. I’m 50/50 on attending. Wahhh!

Desk swap is happening soon with my sis. My new one arrives today! Can’t wait.

Alrighty, I’m gonna try to go back to sleep. Need to be in the Kelly Clarkson queue in about 45 mins.

Wishing you all a great Tuesday! Gun reform now btw. I’m so upset that more children and people have been killed again by gun violence. 💔 Thinking of Nashville.

b