I need to start thinking with my head and not my heart. I’m a lover girl. He isn’t a lover boy. Lolll. Need to get over him. 🥲 It’ll be challenging, but I think it’s for the best.
I’m a mess.
At least I have my new camera. Got through my first teaching gig too! Proud of myself.
Doing my best to finish strong this semester. 💜
And please exercise your right to vote if you choose to tomorrow!!!
Byeee.
b
I’ve been juggling work and school! The usual. I’m pretty exhausted, but I always push through. It’s been really nice the last few days. I’m content even if I’m tired. That guy has a lot to do with it. 🥰 Building on our friendship.
I got to watch football, catch up with a really good friend, and finished my midterms. Did the Lupus Walk too. I did it all!!! 💜
Baseball is annoying me right now. Go Yankees!!!
Hoping this week is decent. I know I’ll be tired again. Just gotta pace myself. Can’t believe Halloween is pretty much here!!! 🎃 Where did the year go?!!
I should probably sleep soon. I teach later.
Good night.
b
hi! it’s me. juggling school and work. it’s a doozy, but i think i’m doing fairly well. i just need to focus on getting sleep. that’s been tough. energy levels have been depleted most of the week. i have my midterm on tuesday. more stuff to tend to come thursday & sunday.
had brunch with isay and matin! that made my morning. 🐰🍳🧇
got to leave work a little early since i had to catch griff! 🥰🌀 one of her demo tracks made me cry. it spoke to me. glad i did something nice for myself. decided to buy a dad cap from her merch stand. love it! live music is forever.
had a late dinner and watched music videos with the twin. good times!
also got to see him yesterday which was nice. got him and mel ube horchatas. i’m so clutch! plus it was really hot. 🥵 heat wave is pretty much done in the city. i’ll miss you, summer.
time to ko! long day ahead of me. oh man. throw me a bone, universe.
good night. 💜
b
Yesterday’s hang out was a lot of fun! I got confirmation. 🥰 Nerves were there initially, but I was able to calm down once we got to the yard. We were running a little late, but that’s okay. I forgive him! 😆
We got chicken lumpia, dole whips, a spicy chicken sandwich, and a Coke. Good food and great company! I always told myself to take a risk. I was quite scared in 22/23. I was dealing with a lot mentally. Things changed for me in 23/24!
I’d like to believe this is a start for a blooming friendship. I’m content with where I’m at atm. July was fun, but I hope August will be even better!!
I’m really proud of myself. 💜
Good night.
b
This week has been a lot. Trying my best to stay positive despite the negativity!!!
Summer work is winding down and I’m looking forward to a lot these next few weeks. School is right around the corner too, but I will push through like I always do. I got this!!!
Shoe shopping has been fun, but Nordstrom let me down. Repurchased the shoe again, but I’m not sure if I’ll be successful.🤞
Baseball is back! ASG is always whack. Lol.
New music is keeping me on my feet. Also trying this new thing by not comparing myself to others. It does absolutely nothing for me!!! Keep shining, b. 💜💜💜
He told me some positive things last week and it’s made me smile, but I’m also shy now. 😂🥵
I hope I have a good time later! The music mix!!!
Kk time to sleep. Good night.
b
It’s been a year since you were called home and I find myself looking for signs from you. A moth?! I’ll take it. A butterfly? Yes. Anything from nature really. I miss your voice, your cooking, and your calm nature.
Continue to guide us wherever you are. I love you! Always. 🥰
Bodetski
Proud of the journey, but damn it hurts. ❤️🩹 Especially because I had an inkling and I was spot on. I’m tired. I think I need to throw in the towel. I’m traumatized again. I really don’t know why this continues to happen to me. I just have a type and I always go for the wrong ones. This time I didn’t need to ask for help because I’m beautiful and I’m capable. But honestly it’s him, not me.
Part of me still wants an answer. I’m stubborn okay! Once I know what it is, I guess I can move on. Rip off the bandage!! I’m scared, but like take the jump. This crush has lasted a while. I’m anxious again. 😭 Help!!!
Still awake because I’m annoyed and sad. I saw it with my own eyes. I hurt my own feelings again.
Time to ko. It’s a new week!
Good night.
b
Are all guys really bad at communicating? I think it’s rude to not reply to a text message. I originally thought, “maybe he’ll return the same energy to me?” It took me two days to respond, but I responded. I never heard back!!! It drives me nuts because now I’m internalizing it. A double text and no response. Feeling like an idiot.
I got through 6/6 shifts!!! 😮💨 I’m exhausted, but it’s worth it. Anything for baseball. 🫶🏼
Going to create tough boundaries this week. I need to follow through! No matter what.
I need to submit some apps too. Also I’ve been winging my eyeliner and it’s been great. Lots of practice, patience, and a steady hand!!
Kk, I’m tired. Good night. 🧡
BEAT LA!!!!
b
I’d like to be a rational adult about everything. Am I jumping to conclusions? Maybe. But like the universe gave me a sign. What else is there to see?!
Still bummed out. Music is calming me, but also making me super emo.
I just want Friday and Saturday to be over and done with honestly. I’ve been through worse. I can get through it!!! But I’ll have to face the music. Sighhh.
But first, baseball! I’m so ready. 🖤🧡
Good night.
b
It’s been a while since I’ve typed anything up. Life is good, but it could be better. 😝
My trip to NYC was amazing! I wish I would’ve stayed an extra day or two. Dealt with rain flying in and dealt with it again when I flied out. The best part of my trip was catching up with friends! But we also got to shop, eat, and navigate the subway. Lots of walking, but it was fun! Got to see a handful of tourist attractions. Stayed in Manhattan. Will have to venture out to the other boroughs in the future.
So I think I’m in for a blooming friendship. Part of me is like, “What am I doing?” The other part of me is like go for it! 😂 We shall see where this goes. I’m curious, but also a little terrified. Pray for me! LOL. NYC was the catalyst.✨
Giants aren’t very good atm. Dubs beat the Lakers in LA yesterday!!!
The last few days have taken me out, but I will take advantage of my day off today. Not sure if I can sleep in because I need to cook brunch and take care of other errands.
I think April AND May will be a lot of fun! Just go with the flow and then some. 😘
Looking forward to all of the sunshine later!!! Good night. 💜
b
let me think. 