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Finals week.

I’m all over the place right now and processing a lot of feelings and emotions. It started a few days ago. I’m sitting with it, but I’m unsure what to do with myself.

I’m in need of a mental break from work and school. It’s coming, but I have a few more days! Can’t wait to be done with finals.

This year came and went. I was on survival mode the last few months: hospital stays + major surgery. As I’m trying to get back to my usual way of life, lots of changes have popped up. I’m feeling some type of way. 😭 Goodbyes are hard for me. I’ve never liked them.

So I’m in this weird place of trying to be okay with the change, still holding on, but I know it’s time to let go. 💔 It all feels rushed and I think I need to be okay with not getting proper closure.

I’m stubborn and I want it done my way, but we all know that’s not how life works!!! Yeah, I’m still processing.

I cried a few days ago because I was really sad. Now I feel okay, but I’m still sad. Sighhh.

I know I’ll be alright. It’s just going to take a bit of time.

That’s all I wanted to say. Good night.

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Le sighhh.

I’m typing this out with a heavy heart. As entertaining and fun sports can be, someone has to lose at the end of the day. Unfortunately, it was the Niners. 💔 We were in the same position four years ago. This was the “revenge” game. I can’t bring myself to rewatch the game. I was too stressed and anxious during my shift yesterday to fully process everything. Glad I’m off today to be gentle with myself. And hey, I have my birthday to look forward to, so that’s a plus.

Mom got me into football and so did my brother! I will stick with the Niners. Our time will come. Not sure when, but they will get #6. I hope it’s in my lifetime. Faithful forever.

Time to go back to sleep. Byeee!

❤️ #FTTB

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Day 167.

It’s been a heavy day for me. I had to take a nap after hearing about the current events in sports, politics, and the murder of innocent people protesting for change! I’ve been very vocal about my political views. My blog is a place of love and safety. I will continue to support #BlackLivesMatter. 🖤

I’m also dealing with my own personal issues. I guess I’m trying to figure out what was said. Am I overthinking? Am I overreacting? I’m a strong Piscean womyn. I’ve always had good intuition. Of course people are owed the benefit of the doubt. So we shall see. I had to step away from my phone for the last few hours. I’ll respond when I’m not so emotionally charged and clear headed. This pandemic has become overwhelming. I miss social interaction especially in public settings, but I’m still doing my part and exercising caution no matter how much I want to meet somebody new.

I haven’t found the strength to study and take care of work stuff. Maybe I can work on something for an hour or two. I must play my uke too. I played some Animal Crossing too. I was quite distracted so I didn’t play for long. 🙃

I finished my 100 squats! I’m challenging myself to take care of my body and eat well. So far I’ve done 300. Another 300 more! I can!!! 💜💪🏼💜

Lastly, Happy National Dog Day! To the present and past puppers, thank you for your love and loyalty. We love you always! ❤️

Time to focus. Hope y’all had a nice one. Take care!

Good night.

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