I’d like to be a rational adult about everything. Am I jumping to conclusions? Maybe. But like the universe gave me a sign. What else is there to see?!
Still bummed out. Music is calming me, but also making me super emo.
I just want Friday and Saturday to be over and done with honestly. I’ve been through worse. I can get through it!!! But I’ll have to face the music. Sighhh.
But first, baseball! I’m so ready. 🖤🧡
Good night.
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My feelings have been all over the place as of late. My anger is displaced. I’m frustrated. And I’m tired. I don’t want to try anymore. I opened up only for it to kick my ass.
I’ve become very distant and cold. I think people can probably pick up on it. It’s hard being in said environment and trying to go about things as if it’s all “okay”. This crush is crushing. I just want to detach, hide, and not deal with anyone atm.
Going to watch the Giants on Wednesday to keep my mind off of things. Kinda dreading the weekend. I’ve cried plenty. Why do I always get hurt?! 😭😫
Why can’t it ever be me?!!
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It’s been a while since I’ve typed anything up. Life is good, but it could be better. 😝
My trip to NYC was amazing! I wish I would’ve stayed an extra day or two. Dealt with rain flying in and dealt with it again when I flied out. The best part of my trip was catching up with friends! But we also got to shop, eat, and navigate the subway. Lots of walking, but it was fun! Got to see a handful of tourist attractions. Stayed in Manhattan. Will have to venture out to the other boroughs in the future.
So I think I’m in for a blooming friendship. Part of me is like, “What am I doing?” The other part of me is like go for it! 😂 We shall see where this goes. I’m curious, but also a little terrified. Pray for me! LOL. NYC was the catalyst.✨
Giants aren’t very good atm. Dubs beat the Lakers in LA yesterday!!!
The last few days have taken me out, but I will take advantage of my day off today. Not sure if I can sleep in because I need to cook brunch and take care of other errands.
I think April AND May will be a lot of fun! Just go with the flow and then some. 😘
Looking forward to all of the sunshine later!!! Good night. 💜
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let me think. 