MY WEEK IN PHOTOS: MAY 14-20, 2018.

My week was busy, but fun! I attended back to back Giants games, tried out the new cheese tart spot at Westfield, rode the new Muni train again, and caught up with college friends! We got to watch Yuna together.

I’ve been in recovery mode. I’m doing my very best to bounce back. Hanging in there! There’s a lot going on, but I must stay resilient.

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LET ME THINK 18.

It was a long week. The weekend was restless for me.

The next couple of weeks are going to test my patience, mentality, and focus. I just have to keep going! #resilience Family is keeping me afloat. There will be better days. I know it!!!

On another note, I’ve been thinking about love. All my past crushes and unrequited love. I wish them all well! But wouldn’t it be crazy if I randomly bumped into one of them and suddenly we reconnected?! Yeah, right. Haha. Stranger things have happened.

This is also a reminder that I can do anything! Reach for the stars.

I’m tired. Good night and have a great week!

b

MY WEEK IN PHOTOS: MAY 7-13, 2018.

We laid Maria to rest this week. It was one of the saddest moments of my life. So vibrant and so full of light. The one thing I can take away from this life event is reconnecting with relatives. Despite the tears and sadness, there was togetherness and hope.

I’m doing my best to not sweat the small things. I need to start looking at the bigger picture. Maria had a positive mindset! And she always took a chance. I want to start living that way. At times, I’m hesitant or too scared. You’ll never know if you don’t try.

I dedicate this post to Maria once again as well as her family. ❤

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LET ME THINK 17.

I’m gonna switch this one up a bit. Anyway, I’m sleepy, but I can’t sleep. Not until I get this off of my chest.

Am I hard to love? Am I looking for love in all of the wrong places? Am I being proactive about love? Some of the many questions that go on in my anxiety filled mind.

I think I do my best to be my most genuine self and sometimes it still doesn’t feel enough. I feel like putting myself out there will just be disappointing every time. Am I not opening myself up enough? I have my reservations. I’ve been hurt in the past, so my walls are very high. I might’ve mentioned this in a previous entry. I easily am hurt when people disrespect me. At times, I feel like I’m not being taken seriously. On top of that, I’ve encountered people who pose as your wing person only to have them betray you. I understand that everyone isn’t the same, but that one incident stung. I really thought I could trust her. I revisit it a lot and I wish I could’ve done it differently. Instead of telling her that it was okay. Because it wasn’t.

In the words of Kylo Ren, “Let the past die.” Oh believe me, I’m trying.

Now I’m ready to sleep.

Good night.

b

MY WEEK IN PHOTOS: APRIL 30-MAY 6, 2018.

Family is not an important thing, it’s everything. -Michael J. Fox

There was a lot of reflection, processing, and crying this week. Grief is a part of life and everyone deals with it differently. Being with family during somber times is comforting.

Despite the sadness, I carried on with the rest of my week. We took Beari to the vet for her ultrasound, I finally rode one of the new Muni trains, and volunteered for another Growing Up Asian In America Ceremony at the Asian Art Museum. It’s always an empowering space.

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LET ME THINK 16.

  1. This day has come. I’m so sad. Today is our cousin’s funeral. I don’t want to say goodbye. 😦
  2. I’ve been processing the last few days. Family is everything.
  3. Relatives still can’t tell Bianca and I apart. Lol. #twinlife #twins
  4. It’s been great catching up with everyone.
  5. Maria(n) was strong and I will continue to be.

Good night. I have to be up in a few hours.

b

MY WEEK IN PHOTOS: APRIL 23-29, 2018.

This week was fun, but also very somber. Visiting my cousin in the hospital put a lot of things into perspective for me.

Coco celebrated her 17th doggy birthday, attended Beyoncé Mass, the Giants BEAT LA, and I got a cool hat (with a missing button, meh).

I dedicate this post to my beautiful cousin, Maria aka Marian. We miss you so much already. RIP. ❤

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LET ME THINK 15.

  1. It’s been a while since I’ve done this.
  2. Heavy week for me. I’m filled with sadness, but comforted with peace.
  3. I’ll be seeing family this weekend. Three days of togetherness. Much needed.
  4. I’m learning to let the little things go. After Marian’s passing, life isn’t the same.
  5. We miss her so much. I wish we had more time. Where did the years go?

Good night!

b