Month: July 2025

Japan!

It’s finally happening. I’ve been talking about this trip for so long. I mustered up all of my courage and booked my plane tickets for November. First solo international trip and my first time in Asia!!

I’ve been watching reels, YouTube videos, and everything in between to prep for this adventure. I’m anxious and very excited!!! I’m looking forward to taking all of these pics: food, tourist attractions, shrines, still life of the city, and heck even videos! I’ve been trying to do that more since I don’t do that enough.

I’m hoping I meet a lot of great people out there. The one thing that’s making me a bit nervous is navigating public transit. If I get lost, don’t panic. I’m confident with my sense of direction. It never hurts to ask for help either! ☺️

It’s my Monday today. I don’t want it to be the weekend yet. I’m dealing with a lot of feelings and emotions. Ahh! Part of me knows I shouldn’t. We shall see.

Good night. 💜

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Emo ass.

Yesterday was a long, but productive day! Had a doc appt and work. 💜

During my appt, I found myself getting teary eyed. I’ve been feeling a lot of emotions lately. It means it’s almost that time of month. 🥲 Anyway, I’ve been overthinking. This is all normal for me. Dealing with feelings annoys me. Do I like him more than he likes me? Probably. So I’m trying to create space, but it’s hard.

I’m not good with boundaries. It’s gonna take a lot of practice.

Life is very challenging right now. I feel like every year is tbh. I don’t want things to be this way anymore. How do I change it? Sighhh. I want to be happy truly. I just don’t know what that looks like right now.

I’m just really frustrated. I want things to be better. Change starts within.

Anyway, baseball is back today! Here’s to the second half of the season. GO GIANTS!!!!! 🖤🧡

I’ll try to sleep. Good night.

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In my head.

Been in there a lot the last few days. It’s also that time of month, so I’ve been very emotional and sensitive!

I have the week off which is nice. It’s been great to slow down, take my time, and catch up on rest.

It’s officially summer, but the weather in SF says otherwise. 🥲 I’m still layered up every time I leave the house. I went for a nice walk yesterday at Kezar after my blood draw. Things look okay. Doc might follow up this week.

Orbiting. It’s annoying af. But that person just did. I’m learning to let go and be okay with not doing much with that anymore. It pains me and it makes me sad, but I guess I’ll just leave it. As much as I like them, space is important. Sighhh.

Baseball. It’s brutal af! The Giants have lost games that they shouldn’t have. Offense is still rocky. Pitching is decent. Defense could also use some work. Going to another game this month and I need them to show up!!! 🖤🧡

I’m decluttering and letting go of things that no longer serve me. It’s a lot of work, but it’ll be worth it.

Lots to look forward to the next few days! I’m ready. 🥰

Good night.

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