Irritation.

My feelings have been all over the place as of late. My anger is displaced. I’m frustrated. And I’m tired. I don’t want to try anymore. I opened up only for it to kick my ass.

I’ve become very distant and cold. I think people can probably pick up on it. It’s hard being in said environment and trying to go about things as if it’s all “okay”. This crush is crushing. I just want to detach, hide, and not deal with anyone atm.

Going to watch the Giants on Wednesday to keep my mind off of things. Kinda dreading the weekend. I’ve cried plenty. Why do I always get hurt?! 😭😫

Why can’t it ever be me?!!

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LET ME THINK 31.

  • It’s been a week since I’ve stayed home. I’m bored, but nourishing myself.
  • I’m thinking about a lot atm. I hate doing that before bed.
  • 9 more days to 34! WTF?! I grew at 33, 2020 was something. Here’s hoping 2021 will be a better year.
  • Johnny Lawrence. Duh! 😍🥰 I love Cobra Kai.
  • I miss football already. Baseball is almost back. Go Giants! 🖤🧡
  • Love stinks. 3 days away from the day of love. I’m content with being single. I’m not going to settle for some jerk. I said what I said! 💖
  • I’m hoping to be more productive later. What that’ll look like – I don’t know.
  • Getting sleepy.

☮️💟

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