Early morning thoughts.

Netflix kept me busy these last few hours. I’m still very anxious and stressed. 😩 I’m doing my best to breathe and think rationally.

Some other things on my mind are so trivial, but it mattered to me when I was a teenager. When I was young, I crushed hard. I think I still do that today. Anyway, I think I sought out a lot of validation from others. I was super insecure and I always felt like I wasn’t good enough. So do I revisit that or just let it go? I mean I definitely don’t need closure, but I just thought of this guy. To be young again??? Lol. I don’t know if I’d want to go back. I’m just in my head.

I’m pretty tired and I need to rest, but my mind is awake. Here’s hoping I knock out soon. Thanks for reading. Later!


Still awake.


It’s officially the weekend. 🙂 I was catching up on s4 of Broad City. I’m only 4 episodes in right now. So far, I like it!

Just reminiscing for a bit. I just recall the fashion in high school – polo shirts tied up with rubber bands from behind, velour, puffed up shoes, and moccasins to name a few. I also recall my not so nice crushes.

I can just remember how terrible these “crushes” were to me. Take this one guy. Let’s call him T. T found out during track practice that I liked him. He acted like a jerk the entire time. I never confronted him about it, but it was awkward af. Especially when you have all of these mutual friends on the team. I never tried to clear the air. I was just mortified. And to make it more awkward, he asked this other girl on the track team to prom. I was a bit 💔. Fast forward a few years later, I see him again at community college. I said hello and that was it. I’ve never seen or spoke to him again. Glad it worked out that way. #bye

I was super insecure in high school. I never felt like I was good enough. And even in the present day, I still kinda feel that way from time to time. BUT I’m still learning & growing. There’s so much more to do and see. I’m excited for the future! I must always treat myself well. 👑

So this is good night. But I’ll leave you with this quote.

Happy weekend to all!


“That’s why they call them crushes. If they were easy, they’d call them something else.” -Jim Baker, Sixteen Candles