now playing: Sleep All Day – Jason Mraz
I haven’t listened to his old stuff in a while. Jason Mraz was a big part of my teenage years and into my twenties. His music was my comforter.
There’s been a lot of self reflection this week. I’ve found myself on the verge of tears sometimes. The feeling of loss is something. There’s a lot of sadness, but it puts everything into perspective. I’m doing my best to live well! I may lack sleep sometimes, but despite feeling tired I still keep going.
I tried to get back into “dating”, but I’m pretty much dating myself. What I mean by that is simply this. Well, my sister made this connection. My chronic conditions are my relationship. Ups and downs! Pretty much what a relationship entails. Didn’t ever see it that way. I’m not sure if anyone will ever come along for the ride, but I’m okay with that. I’m content knowing that I’m taking care of myself. And hey, if someone comes along, that’s fine. Just keep up with me. I’m unstoppable. 🙂
That’s my word vomit for the night. I also had quite a day. To keep it short: people with terrible attitudes suck. Super toxic. But that’s on them, not me.
Getting sleepy. Good night.